Goodbye, Hello

After that incident, Mr. Ashton and I always clash in our work place. It's been hell working with him. He never listens to me but to other people yes. He smiles while talking to them. Making them laugh with his jokes. He even went out to have lunch with them, but if his in front of me, it is totally the opposite. Its like that he doesn't want to see me nor doesn't want to come near me. As the probation comes to an end, all the feedbacks to him from our colleagues was great. Even Damian wrote an excellent recommendation letter for him. I don't have a choice but to welcome him in my team. I immediately called the hr to prepare his permanent contract and called Damian in my office.

Knock! Knock! when I looked at the door, it's Damian. "May I come in?" I tilt my head because of confusion. He never asked permission whenever he wants to come in my office. "What can I do for you?" as a response to him jokingly. He suddenly close the blinds and lock the door. Slowly he walks towards me and.....KISS ME! He sat on my table and his hands are in my nape and face. It is our first kiss.

Although we've been a couple for 5 long years, we never get intimate. We never kiss, we never hold hands, we never hug or have sex like any other couple. I know that no one will believed me when I say this but that's the truth. We both respect each other. And we told ourselves that if we are sure that we are going to be together until we grow old, that's the time we do intimacy.

We kissed torridly. Our tongue in twined and we exchange salivas. I like it. No! I LOVE IT! I love how he takes the lead to kiss me. I would lie if I said that I never wanted this to happen. But I suddenly stop. "You don't want this? Do you want to continue this to your place or mine?" his sincere tone voice makes me want to answer him, yes I want to continue this but that is not the words that came out of my mouth. "You have a fiancé and you are out here in a week. Let's stop this before it went out of control." I know deep inside me I want more. More that his lips. I want him inside me. But because I choose work over him, I have to take the consequences of it. His getting married and his out of my life now. He's just a friend now. Nothing more nothing less.

As the weeks go by, Damian is not part of the company anymore. His wedding is in two days and every one in the office is invited even Mr. Ashton. The office atmosphere is good. Though sometimes it's like a court room because of arguments regarding work but its part of being in marketing department.

Damian's big day approaches. As I am his best man, I will make a speech for the newly wed. At the reception, Damian's wife approaches me and ask for a dance. I stood up, took her hand and lead her in the dance floor. We talked about her husband. We laughed hard as if we are the newly weds. And when the last song comes to an end: "Take care of him and love him. Thank you because you save him from distraction which is me." I hugged her tight and she just smile and said: "Thanks to you because you gave him to me." "I have last request. Give me lots of nieces and nephew!" The song ends and I went back to my seat. It is past 10 in the evening and I told Damian that I will go now. Never I knew that Mr. Ashton is also going home.

"Care to join? We both live in the same building. So it is better if you will join me. And I guess there's no bus or taxi in this area." I just nod to him because I want to save money and his right that we lived in the same place. I went inside his car and there we go.

I looked at my watch and it's already 1 in the morning. A coat was in my body and I saw Mr. Ashton sleeping in the driver seat. I never thought that I slept. Maybe because of the dancing and singing that I did earlier in the wedding. "I never wake you because you look tired. Are you okay now?" as he talk while his eyes close. In response I said yes and we both go down his car. Before we go inside our places, "Thank you for the ride and sorry if I slept." feeling apologetic. "We can go to the office together if you want?". Does he offer me a ride? I tilt my head while lookin at him. " I know, I can't replace Damian but I will try my best to show you how I care about you." my eyes became big as he speaks those words. Is he insane? Do he know me? With thoughts running in my head, he suddenly kiss my forehead and open my door. He pushes me inside and say: "Go to rest! Have a sweet dreams." then shuts the door.