Chapter 10 : Truth

The notification redirecting me to the post,

I almost cried.

"Happy Birthday :)"

I cried.

Rose wished me on my 16TH BIRTHDAY.

And suddenly this was the best birthday in the world to me.

I couldn't stop smiling.

I texted her but, she was kinda the same non enthusiastic texter again.

But it didn't matter to me, I thought maybe I still had a shot at this again.

Maybe, JUST MAYBE, things could get right!

But then I paused.

I took a moment.

To look around. To take in what was happening around me, and to me.

Everything seemed against me.

My parents, my grades, some of my friends even.

I looked at our chats.

I scrolled all the way up, and read again from the top.

Not once, did she ever.....text me first.

The length of my messages, we're clearly bigger than hers.

While scrolling back, I came upon her text which shocked me. It read,

        "You're just my Facebook friend."

Which was all fun and jokes to me back then but actually made sense now.

It's funny how I never noticed.

I observed every single fact, to finally conclude, that she just wasn't interested in me.

Maybe that Birthday wish, was merely an act of sympathy for someone she had rejected?

I'm not sure if I should call it rejection for I never really proposed to her.

It was Malcolm who spilt the beans.

I looked at all the things left undone, simply because all my time, was used up in me trying to desperately wanting to be someone's, who basically cared nothing about me.

Realizing this, actually hurt.

I can't describe how I felt.

I knew if I continued to go this way I'd ruin myself.

So my mind decided to do something my heart was terribly against.

To let go, of Rose.

Ofcourse it was hard, but I finally stopped arguing with my mom, and gave her my phone, which she always wanted to take away from me.

Guess she also noticed I would never be off of it, texting someone everyday.

Of all the people in the world, my parents were probably the only people that actually cared about my future that I was gonna destroy.

So I gave away my phone. Maybe the only connection I would have with her.

         "This is for the best.", I said.