Chapter 3
No wonder only a few wizards can do magic wandlessly. First, it takes more magic to do wandlessly, than a wand and before age of 11 years old magic cores of wizards and witches is very small to do any wandless magic (and often unpleasant form my example just now ). Second, after getting a wand wizards gets accustomed to a wand to do magic easily and it gets harder and harder for them to do magic wandlessly.
Now since that's done, time for me to move on to the next urgent topic, security, and privacy of my mind. From what I gathered from the books, Severus Snape and headmaster Dumbledore often used passive legilimancy to read the thoughts of students. Which makes occlumancy a very important skill to have. It takes me a few minutes to go through and memorize the occlumancy book and next hour to understand the content. From what I understand, first the user has to focus the magic on his/her mind while meditating, the memories of untrained mind are like spheres of lights floating around in mind, easily accessible to anyone with legilimancy skill. User has to organize the memories in an order familiar to them and erect a barrier around the memories to protect them from being accessed by others. Advanced users are able to build a mindscape and hide their memories in it. They are able to build various defenses in their mindscape varying from person to person. Master occlumens are even able to show false memories to anyone who enters their mind, they are able to lie under veritaserum show false memories in pensieve (which is why veritaserum testimony and pensieve are not valid in wizarding court).
Following the steps, I access my mind and saw my memories floating around like light balls. I also noticed a sphere with blue gas moving around in it which I presume is my magical core. If blue gas is any indication(as opposed to blue liquid or solid), my magical core density is abysmal. Then again it may be due to the fact that I am only 6 years old and my magical core will grow with my age, which will explain the fact that students wait until the age of 11 to buy a wand and attend Hogwarts.
Well, whichever is the case, I will find out soon enough. For now, I don't have enough magic to sort the memories, it will have to wait until my core has grown a bit. Maybe the magic is just like a muscle, which will strengthen more by using it more often.
"Lumos". And the spark lasted just a bit longer than before, which proves the theory of it being like a muscle.
Next is the issue of Hogwarts. For a proclaimed safest place in England, From troll to basilisk, dementors, etc. it sure felt a lot more dangerous in the books. It's dangerous enough as it is, let alone getting involved and helping main characters which will have the danger level hit through the roof. No helping (or even interacting with them) will have to wait till I am strong enough and even then if it directly helps me in one way or another. Hey don't judge me, I am a pragmatic person and this world is a dangerous place where every wizard or witch carry weapons of mass destruction(wand) even if they don't realize it and ministry is not competent enough to make me feel safe (Not when minister of magic prefers to bury his head in the sand instead of facing problem even if it hits him in the face) and given that teachers have low regard for students safety, some even like to outright bully them(read Severus Snape). It's bad enough when the headmaster of school likes to give second chances to everyone like they are going out of style, what's worse is that he is chief warlock who presides over the wizarding court. Yup, laying low till I am strong enough is the way to go.