Chapter # 47

After we both have left the cafe with my story being revealed. I can't describe my feelings.

Am I relieved Yuu knows now or just .... have doubts how our friendship will change to?

My mind wandering off to somewhere before Yuu pulling me to reality,

"Where's Izumi?"

And that totally brought me to reality.

Izumi?, dumbfounded and totally immersed in telling him the story I forgot about Izumi.

but theres only one place he would be right now if he hasn't left for home.

"Yuu, Can you head to the dorm first? I need to go somewhere right now."

After looking at me for a while Yuu nodded his head in agreement and went to bus station to go. Whereas I headed for that direction.

After reaching at the place, I noticed Izumi from the back, I have always been protected by his back, scared and lonely as I was, his family protected me and I used him. This seriously doesn't make me one bit happy of how I treated him.But I need to confess.

I came closer to him and called behind from his back.

"Izumi, what are you mopping around here for?"

He was totally startled

"Shino, you freaked me out"

"Well says the person who's all alone sitting here in the park. Were you really an idiot thinking I wouldn't check this place out, it would be my first pick.

So why did you not come back?

Yuu told me you left to attend the call but never came back?

"Because It was not my place to be at that moment"

"Your kidding me right.

Izumi your place is always going to be there"

"But you wont get back together with me right not as friends but .."

And this shocked me more. We both stood there looking for each other at a while before I finally realized I shouldn't have done it.

I sat down and said

"Izumi, do you remember the first time I asked you out?"

"I do remember"

"At that time, you listened to me without refuting me, you did tell me stuff but I ignored them. I was selfish and heartless and kept pushing it on you and

You just stood there and fulfilled every wish ever.

Izumi do you remember what you said to me before you accepted my confession?"

"I.... remember"

"Exactly my point, I confessed to you here and the thing you told me was I can be your family and what I said back I don't need a fu*cking family.

After that you accepted me and we got together.

So Izumi right now Its late but I want to listen to your advice at that time,

Will you be family and friend ?"

Tears falling down my eyes with each word I kept throwing out of my mouth. The words I know held more weight, the words I know should have been said along time ago, the words which made me walk on a thin and fragile rope, the words that made me regret the choices and all the choices I made and the person I kept hurting the most alongside myself. The scars I have, the wounds that were inflicted with words and beatings, my heart that kept sinking and sinking till it reached its pit and blocked with no rays.

"Shino, till the very end your going to be self centred"

"And till the very end your going to say yes"

"You know me so why say those words"

"I know you that's why I should say them because it should have been said to you a long time ago. Thankyou for staying with me"

"Shino, your really a .....

and Izumi also became shedding tears.

After some moment we took to calm myself down.

"Izumi, this place you know holds meaning for us and this is why I am glad I finally told you what I wanted here"

"Like breaking my heart?"

"I won't deny what I did but I wasn't going to lie to you either"

"So, what do you have in mind?"

"Right now, going to think things slowly and just go back to the dorm room"

"Then get out of here shoo."

[ Izumi ]

Before Shino left he came closer towards me to hug me and then said thankyou once again before leaving.

That goddamn idiot breaking my feelings like that, you idiot and then came a thousand curses towards him.

I calmed down myself down and looked up towards the sky and having a smile and tears in my eyes.

Finally Shino you are free.

and I close my eyes and then walked towards home.

[Yuu]

After Shino left to take care of business which I knew he went to see Izumi. After the bus dropped me closer to the dorm instead of going directly inside, I wandered around the dorm roads and strolled and walked around with absolutely no thoughts running in my mind and after a while I came back to the dorm and went to my room, it was dinner time and everyone was down eating but I directly went up to my room skipping dinner, I had some time to map the things in my head before he arrives.

I had imagined his story to be tragic but this more mental torture then I ever thought of.

I want to dig his fathers home and knock some sense towards him.

I want to thank the person who made him live on. and then door knob clicked and turned and Shino entered.

Shino looked at me and said

"You haven't changed yet, was I gone for such a short time?"

"No, that wasn't it, I just had some stuff to take care of so I didn't come back then."

"Oh I see, I thought your mind was thinking about the stuff I said to you"

"Shino, its impossible I won't be able to think what you said to and forget it. I remember and I did and still have the words you said in my head"

"So should I not have said it?"

"No, I am glad you did"

He said then but paused for a moment and stopped continuing.

"Shino, what's wrong?" I came closer to him and said "Hey look at me. Shino"

He wasn't looking, he was staring down the floor.

"Shino???"

"I am going to sleep, I am tired"

He walked away changed his clothes and pulled the blanket over him.

knowing fully well I should not press this matter any forward I let it be and left him as he wanted to.

I quickly changed my clothes, grabbed a bread and milk and my dinner was ready and eaten.

After, I was done I turned of the lights and went towards the bed to sleep.

I quickly dozed of after a few moments but woke up with whimpering sounds.

I turned around over and saw Shino curled up in his bed and whimpering.

I climbed off my bed and went closer to his, I sat at the space where he wasn't lying and started patting him to calm himself down but after some minutes he wasn't stopping.

I layed by his side and pulled him closer and embraced him in a hug and saying

"Shino, it's okay, its okay, I am here with you. Calm down"

Stroking him and calming him down did to the trick and I came closer kissed on his forehead.

Whispered to his ears Sweet Dreams Shino.