Tears and Betrayal

I've been crying non-stop that night. Esrin is there to comfort me but seems like I can't process anything she says. She videocalled my mom and told her my situation. My mom took pity in me and gave me money the next day. So, my life rolled again like before. I continued going to school and catched up to my subjects. This situation continued for the next two months.

One day my sister came to my room. She cried like whole six minutes. I'm so confused at the moment that I let her be. When she begin to spoke, as an older sibling I told her...

Arah: Sis, don't cry no more you are wetting my bed sheets. Go cry on your own room.

Athena: This is not all about me this is about you also! 😭

Arah: What does your problem in love life got something to do with me?

Athena: Brother this is about dad

Arah: So what?!

Athena: He's gone!

Arah: He's gone long time ago, whats new?

Athena: I mean he's dead. He's going six feet underground!

My ears went numb, my heart felt pain, my body feels cold. Even though I despise him for what he did to us, I can never wish my own father to die. We went to see his corpse the next day and the day of his burial I stayed there the longest even if it started to pour rain I did not move an inch. All of them left but I can't, it's so hard to move because I knew he still had burden in his heart...

Arah: Dad, I now you can hear me up there. Please listen to what I was about to say. 😭 Dad, the gap between us let us mend it now. It may be too late but at least I can say something you might be waiting for a long time. I already forgiven what you did to me in the past. All those punches, slaps, and hurtful words are nothing compared to you dying. I might not be the man you want me to be. But I will assure you that I will graduate with all my wits. Someday you will see me successful and someday I will make you proud.

Uttering those words were like picking broken glass in my heart. It felt up lifting , it felt good. Months turned to a year then I was able to pass in my third year in college, now I'm on my senior year. I felt like celebrating so I went out drinking with my friends. From a certain bar I met Terry, same height as me, has fair complexion, has a beard, black haired guy. I like him and I'm bringing him home tonight!...

Terry: Thanks for the free beer, what's your name again?

Arah: Arthuro but call me Arah instead

Terry: I'm done here, I have to book a hotel so see you

Arah: Oh? You don't have any house here to go home to?

Terry: I do, but I can't go home now I don't have to explain

Arah: Why waste your money at a hotel just come with me. Sleep in my room, I'll take you as a guess.

Just like that, I scored for the night. I took him home and he slept in my room. Something happened between the two of us which is my intention in the first place. I did not expect for us to be an official couple, we begun to live in our house. Everyone knows our relationship. In the past seven months I gave him everything. I loved him so much that I'm ready to give him all. I sold our refrigerator just to buy him a motorcycle. I also told my mom I need extra money for my tuition fee just to buy him a phone. I also sold my laptop just to buy him 2 pairs of Jordan's that I myself can't even afford. I fed him everyday, I gave him a home, clothes, money for his gambling hobby, I also gave him most of my precious time.

My world broke down to tiny little pieces when I spotted him one time at a grocery store. He was with a small child about six years old. I continued to follow him and he went straight to a house then kissed a woman at the front door. I was crying while hiding at a big tree. I cried more when I heard the child call him "Daddy". All this time I was so blinded by the kisses he shared the warm hugs he did. I was so stupid to not know his background. It turns out he had a family. At around eight thirty in the evening I was sitting at the couch waiting for him. The door opened and he was shocked to see me and my swollen eyes...

Arah: Where have you been Terry?

Terry: I was out with friends. What's with your eyes?

Arah: I asked you one h*ll of a question and you must answer me with a truthful answer! I asked you! Where the h*ll have you been!?!

Terry: Out with friends! I'm going home to my friends instead! It sucks being with you like this!

Arah: Then go! Go home to your family!

Terry: What did you just say?

Arah: Go home to your child! Go home to your wife! Go home and leave me be! You lying bag of balls! You cheating bastard! You jerk! You f*cking liar!!

Terry: What are you saying? Did you follow me? What did you saw?

Arah: I saw the truth! My eyes and my ears witnessed the truth! That you have a family! You have a child with that woman!

Terry: That woman! That woman is my wife! That child is my own! You want to know the truth!? Now hear the truth! Yes! Yes! I am married to "that woman" and yes we had a child! Are your ears satisfied?!

Arah: HUHUHUHU! 😭 I KNEW IT! No man can love me!

Terry: You are wrong Arah, I loved you but that was in the past. Now, I love my wife more. My relationship with my wife has been complicated when we met but we fixed it now. So, I'm sorry for what I did, I really am.

Arah: Past? How about now? Do you still love me now? I gave you everything and this is what I get! I f*cking sold our refrigerator for that motorcycle you wanted!

Terry: I still love you Arah. But this time I have to say I love my wife more. I can't give them up for you.

Arah: I never said "you should give them up for me". I want what's right and I want my things back. I want that phone back, I want my motorcycle back but keep everything else. I just want to sold those things to compensate the one's I sold out. Then, leave. Get your things and never come back. Don't ever let me see your face ever again.

That night the house felt empty. He already left. My sister comforted me but it is still painful. I cried and cried, I said those words to get him to leave but it wasn't easy. I still love him. I can't live without him. Why did I followed him? Maybe if I didn't he is still here at my side of the bed. Did I do the right thing? What about me? How am I gonna cope up with this? What will I do? I was still full of questions about what I did...

Read next episode to find out what happened. Will this be the end of Arah? Or will it open to a new chapter to her life?

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