I'm Coming!

Finally! I am free from high school, and Silvia will have nothing to do with me anymore. She even forgot that I was graduating, but once she remembers that she isn't going to get money from me since I'm moving out and becoming an adult of 18 years old soon.

The court case between my parents was only agreed to support till I became an adult and she won't get payments anymore from my Daddy or the government. Once she realizes that I'm no longer useful to her...well I don't want to find out what happens.

So, today I finally finished moving my stuff into my new loft and packed away the rest of the stuff I brought with me after graduation. A weight is lifted off my chest now that I'm free from her. I don't have to worry about her coming home and taking her anger out on me anymore. I don't have to worry about school for now. I'll just be working until I decide what to do with my life now that I'm free to do so.

I suddenly realize that I did it. I really did it!! I'm finally able to take care of myself and find the one person that I've wanted all these years. At this realization, some tears of relief that I haven't shed in years stream down my face silently.

I wipe them quickly because I have work to do. I must start planning my approach and when I should go see my Daddy.

It's the next day in my new place. It's nice waking up in a place that's just yours and not being woken up by Silvia stumbling in the dark drunk.

I get up from my pull out bed. It's a nice little combination of a couch and queen size bed. I found it for a great deal online and it will do for now, since I need to be smart with the money I do have.

I take a quick hot shower, being careful of my scars. Being in hot water or even in when the weathers cold outside too long, starts to make my scars act up. They start to twinge in pain whenever I stay in too long or don't cover up good outdoors.

Being efficient and quick from years of experience, I finish in 10 min getting out into a steam filled bathroom. Wrapping a towel around my body I slowly wipe the steam away from the mirror, dreading to see what I've already seen a million times.

Sweeping away the condensation, my figure comes into view. I'm relatively on the short end, around 5'3". I catch my dark ocean blue eyes in the mirror. When other people look at them, I can see them start to get uncomfortable. Whether it be from my razor sharp gaze, or maybe they can see how haunted they are. I don't know, and frankly don't care what they think. Next I see my black inky wet hair that falls by my face. The length goes past my shoulder blades a couple inches and rests on my middle back. And lastly, I notice the "heart" shaped scar on my chest. It's a little red from reacting to the shower. It looks even more distorted from the dampness of the mirror, making it look like it's bleeding from the water drops going down the reflection. I'm aready used to seeing it, but it still makes me flinch inwardly from the reminder of how I got it.

Quickly getting dressed in a dark blue long sleeve and black skinny jeans, I dash out of the bathroom, letting my hair air dry for now.

Grabbing a quick breakfast of cereal and milk, I finish eating and wash my dishes. Once that's done I put on my dark blue converse high tops and finish up my hair by brushing and braiding it to the side to rest on my shoulder. I put on light mascara and chapstick. Finished getting ready I grab all the things I set last night for today.

It's the old picture of Silvia and I, and some of the paperwork I collected over the years. This is to help prove who I am when I go over to see my Daddy. And hopefully he'll be happy to see me because I really want to see him, and he's all I have left. The only person who might be able to love me, who might be able to care for me unlike Silvia and everyone else in my life.

....And if it doesn't work out like I hoped...well I don't know what I would do. And I hope it doesn't come to that.

Hoping for the best I grab my small backpack, packing all the things I need and head out the door. Taking a deep breath, I mentally prepare myself for the journey ahead.

Here I come Daddy!