Can’t catch a break

Bella pov

Nicolai asked me what's wrong as he holds me and plays with my hair , and i reply I don't want to hurt you , he stops what he's doing and lifts my face so that we are staring at each other And he asks me to explain what i meant by saying that, so I do explain to him that if I can't beat this I don't want to leave him with sadness and pain , i want him to be happy , he tells me that being with me makes him happy.

So i tell him baby just promise me one thing he says ok what , i say promise me that if i die , if i lose this battle that you won't give up on being happy and finding someone to love .

We Stare at each other in the eyes and he puts his hand on my face and caresses it and says I will never find anyone that I would love as much as I love you but I will promise you that no matter what happens I'll be by your side and I'll love you everyday no matter what, we will fight this together and you will beat it because you are a fighter and we have so much to do together.

I smile and nod and he kisses me gently and then we hear a knock on the door and a bunch of whispers so Nicolai gets up and says lay down baby , i roll my eyes and do as his says , he chuckles and heads to the door once he opens it all i hear is a bunch of men say nic , we're here and then they say can we come in , Nicolai says brothers it's good to see you , lets go talk to the doc and see if you guys can come in her room , he says give me a second to the guys and comes back to me to give me a kiss and says give me 5 minutes im gonna go find doctor Jones i say ok .

Once he closes the door i feel exhausted my eyes feel heavy and my thoughts are gone before i know it I'm in darkness .

DrJones pov

Im looking at bellas blood work from yesterday and as i said yesterday her white blood cells count are low too low , as I'm thinking of running more blood test on bella , nurse Lindsey comes in and says that bella still has a fever and if i can go check her.

I sigh and say i want to run another set of blood work on bella she says ok.

I go out the door and find Nicolai and about 9 men with him and Nicolai stops me hey doctor jones these men are my military brothers they all introduced themselves and then Nicolai says i wanted to talk to you .

I say lets talk and walk i need to go check on bella he asks if everything ok because he was just with her , i sigh and say she still has a fever and i was hoping it would have gone down a bit more but it's still pretty high ,Nicolai ask is she ok to have some visitors i look at all the men with him and look at him as long as they clean up and put some scrubs on I don't see why not but only for an hour so she can rest.

They all say thanks doc and i nod lets get y'all cleaned up and then I'll check on bella ,then you all can see her they all nod and we head off , the men all get cleaned up fast and changed so we head to Bella room .

I knock on her door ,no answer so i ask Nicolai if she was awake when he left he said yes so i head inside and bella isn't awake and she has a nose bleed I quickly check her head she burning up, i hit the button for the nurses to come in , gosh bella seems you can't catch a break .

Nicolai and the guys pop in and Nicolai rushes to her whats wrong with her she was fine when i left she was awake and talking , the guys tell Nicolai to relax as the nurses rush in .

I tell them put ice in a bath and get some antibiotics to give her we need to get her temperature down now they rush out and the guys ask what they can do to help i say get Nicolai out of here , Nicolai quickly says I'm not leaving her, I'm not going anywhere Luca one the guys gets in front of Nicolai and say cap we spoke about this let the doc do his job we will all wait with you , Nicolai says i promised her I'd be by her side im not leaving , i say Nicolai don't make me call security ,Luca that was in front of nic said that won't be necessary Nicolai says fine I'll go but once her temperature is down please come get me i nod at him and the men all file out and the nurses rush in , i hold bella hand say hang on sweet girl hang on .

Nicolai pov

Luca I don't understand she was fine when i left her to get doc she was fine and sassy as usual , luca says maybe she wasn't feeling well and didn't want to worry you maybe she hides it well but we all gotta stay positive ok , i say to luca this is the second time she looks fine but isn't and I didn't even realize it , all the guys say hey stop beating yourself up about this nic this is something none of us have control over , from what luca told us she's a fighter , she won't give up without a fight.

I sigh you guys are right she is a fighter , in comes my mom with a small smile and a bag she comes to me and the guys and she hugs me and says hello to the guys and ask how bella is doing today and i sigh , she's not doing good , my mom hugs me it's going to be ok we need to call iris and out of nowhere iris says call me for what all the guys look at her with blank faces no emotion or expression on their faces and i say iris please take a seat , as im about to tell iris all that i know doctor jones comes out and says I'm glad you are all here , iris i want to tell you everything and then we can go from there ok , she nods and then he looks at all of us and says in private , Iris says no they can hear aswell we are her support system they should know, ok doctor jones says so as you know yesterday bella blood work showed her white blood cells are super low and she caught a infection and today the nurse checked her temperature and it had went down but not alot , Nicolai said she was talking and stuff but when we all went to her room she was unconscious and bleeding from her nose and her temperature was extremely high we gave her meds and put her in a ice bath , we took more blood work and the test are back and its not good , iris begins to tear up and i say ok so what's the plan doc , doctor jones says i need iris permission to put bella in a medically induced coma so we can get the infection under control and she can get the rest her body so badly needs , iris begins to full on cry and I swallow the lump in my throat my mom starts to cry and my brothers look at me and then at iris and back to the doctor luca goes to iris and hugs her and try to calm her a bit after 5 minutes luca has her calm enough to talk she looks at me and says Nicolai what should i do , I swallow again trying to hold in the tears that threaten to fall and i look at doctor jones and ask is this her best shot , he says yes ,i ask for how long will she need to be in a coma for ,he says I won't know for sure till we see how she does but im hoping only a week or two , I swallow again and i look at iris i think you should give permission she says ok and doctor jones goes gets the paper work and brings them back to iris and iris signs and says can we see her before you put her in the coma he says yes she stable but it has to be quick and only one at a time so i tell iris to go first and she does.

Iris pov

I walk into the room they put her in the icu and what i see breaks my heart more it reminds me of when she was in a coma after the accident, i go to her and kiss her hand , bella mi estrella porfavor no me dejes sola , tu eres la única familia que tengo , i cry so hard and kiss her again then go to walk to the waiting room its hard for me to breath with all the emotions I'm feeling , the fear of losing her too is breaking my heart, as i walk into the waiting room Nicolai spots me and i go to him and hug him , he embraced me and I cried harder he rubs my back and says calm down please , I know what is running through your mind but you have to have faith , i calm down a bit and he looks at me and says we need to be strong for her , i nod knowing he's right and i go to sit down .

Nicolai pov

Iris is back and she runs to me crying and I embrace her in a hug i know the stuff that must be running in her mind bella is the only family she has left and she's terrified of losing her, im terrified too .

I tell her to calm down and to have faith and that we need to be strong ,she calms down and she nods saying i was right and goes to sit down ,Dr Jones says only one more person can see her since everything is already set up so he can begin the Procedure of putting Bella into a medically induced coma so everyone says go ahead Nicolai go see your girl i nod and i walk tall with long strides trying to hold in the tears that are trying to come out , once i walk into her room my tears that I've been holding back all this time fall , i go to her and kiss her forehead and i whisper in her ear I love you Bella and I need you to stay strong and I need you to come back to me , to us .

I know you said you're tired of being strong but please keep fighting for your aunt for all the dreams you still want get done, for baxter , for my mom , for the guys at the station , for me , for our love. I kiss her one last time and reluctantly leave to head to the waiting room once i go i say thank you to Doctor jones and he sadly smiles And says once its done I'll let you all know .