Chapter 6: The End?
"The one who gave me the gift of love, yeah that's you
The one person who gave me that dazzling loveThat's what you are"~ You're my (BTS)
I woke up and went downstairs; yesterday's memories started flooding inside my mind. I missed her and I realized it was my first time falling in love.I went downstairs and I saw mum and dad sitting on the dining table and looking at me and I knew something was up, but I tried to keep myself calm. I'm ready to face the reality. I pulled one chair and sat on it.
"Ha Min" dad called out my name and I looked at him; "I know what you want to do and I'll let you do it and we will support you. The moment you hung up I was already sitting with your mum and then we started to think about your current situations and your dream. I've seen your passion in music and dance, you never told us but dear you are our child and I observed you, whenever you were frustrated you either write songs or went to Hanbin's home to compose. I found it when once I saw your lyrics book lying on the table. I didn't mean to step in your privacy but the pages just attracted me and I asked Daehwi about it cause somewhere I felt that he knew about it." And dad sighed; my mind was still processing.
"He was hesitating a lot before saying it; finally he told me that you want be an idol and you're practicing for that too and about your part time work I got to know yesterday night so; I'll let you do the audition and I'll let you go with the boys. I trust you. We trust you." He continued and looked at me.
"Min ah, we are sorry for forcing you to live our dream not yours. We're really sorry dear. We are sorry." Mum said and looked at me with an apologetic face.
"Thank you mum, dad I'm more than happy that you are supporting me. And don't be sorry." I said and hugged them. Honestly, I'm happy and I miss her because everything is just because of her. I just wanted to say her 'thank you' for showing me the path
"Min ah, there's an audition today and boys asked me to fill it up for you and they are also going to appear in it. It's in 3 hours and do your best." Dad said and we parted. It's my first time talking to dad like this; finally they are letting me go to achieve my dream.
"I'll make through it dad" I said and he gave me a smile. After that we ate our breakfast and I went to my room and started packing the stuffs I needed for the audition and my phone started ringing and the caller ID showed "Daehwi"; I picked up "Ha Min ah"
"Thank you" that was the thing I wanted to say him so dearly; he led me to this situation.
"Anything for my maknae"
"I'm coming soon"
"Yea be fast. Others are on the way and we will go together"
"Yes" I hung up and came out of my room and went downstairs and bid them farewell and before going out mum hugged me tight and kissed my forehead and dad gave me a hug. "Do your best dear" they said and I went straight to Daehwi's house.
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"It's done Jungkook and now the results will be up soon." Shijin hyung said
1. Yoo Shijin
2. Lee Sungyeol
3. Kim Hanbin
4. Gong Taekwan
5. Song Daehwi
6. Kim Taemin
7. Ha Min
And there we were; our names were out and now we are the trainees. We looked at each other in shock and we were gasping and hugged eachother. The happiness couldn't be described in words, I ran out of words "WE DID IT" were the last words I heard from Daehwi. Maybe today I'm just too happy.
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I reached home; and I saw mum and dad sitting on sofa, I looked at them and they smiled at me. I went and hugged them tight. "I did it" Is aid them and they hugged me tight. "I knew it dear you'll do it." Mum said and pinched my cheeks and I smiled at her. "Good job son" dad said and I replied "Thank you dad. I love you both" and I went to my room.
It was already night; and I had my dinner with the boys. I kept my bag and took out my camera and laid on my bed. I started checking yesterday's pictures and unknowingly I started thinking about her and I was too mesmerized in her thoughts that I didn't even noticed that my tears were falling; I will lie if I say I don't miss her and I'm here just because of her. I'm happy that I can live my dream but I'm also missing her. Although that was just one day but that one day was something that changed my life. She's my first love and how can I just forget her, somewhere in my heart it says; that I need to wait for her, she'll return one day and will stay with me. I'm just too happy today.
I can say I'm in love with her because true love; to me, is when she is the first thought that goes through my head when I wake up and the last thought that goes through my head before I go to sleep.
"Sihyun how are you? Thank you love, I miss you. I love you" I said while my fingers were caressing her pictures, our pictures.
Will we meet again? Or is this the end?
.....Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. True love doesn't happen right away; it's an ever-growing process. It develops after you've gone through many ups and downs, when you've suffered together, cried together, laughed together. Love is something magical, which lead you to the euphoric moments and the serendipity. Of course you need to love yourself too. In this process if you become lonely for sometime, cause of some circumstances then don't just cry, try to be happy because the other can never see you sad. Your happiness will always mean everything to the person you love....