Regrets of the past Pt. 02

I smiled and said "I'm not ready, I don't want to know his regrets… "

Aunt Nozomi then held my hand and said "Child, listen to me and I know you have your own decision to make but can you lend your ears and listen to this elderly?" When I heard her, I nodded… Then she continued…

"Your grandpa really took a long time to find you, but at least he found you this time, not too late, not too early but just on time. Maybe he was caught into something that's why he showed up only this time. Listen to your heart and I know, you wanted to meet him and know the reason why he let your dad be. It might bring you happy memories with your dad, especially they are kind of look alike. It might remind you how much you miss your papa, but his blood is still in you. You are her only grand daughter in blood. So, meet with him, not now, maybe when you're discharge. And I believe he loves you dearly, you can't feel it now, because you two never met since you were born, but that doesn't mean he don't know anything going into your life. Meet him and clear the questions you have." With her speech, my head is now aching', well the truth is, I don't really want to meet him, he maybe filthy rich, I don't need his money, I have properties, and profession, my dad never needed him and so am I. But this feeling inside me wanted to see him, he reminds me of the man who loves me the most. He reminds me of Papa, how I wish I could hug him one more time. I kept silent for a while then nodded.

"Mr. Cohen, I will meet him tomorrow afternoon at our house, maybe by then I am already discharge. And by the way Auntie, can you please call Kay-kay and tell her I needed one more day of rest. Thank you." When I said those, my aunt stood up and excused herself to make a call, left us behind.

There was silence for a while, then he chose to speak "You really are stubborn, but I can't blame you, and I'm happy that Ms. Nozomi talked some sense in you." I just looked at him and said nothing.

There was a dead silence inside the room, and it seems eternity for Auntie to come back, this old women is really something, I think she's setting me up with this man. I cleared my throat then he suddenly held my hand, which surprised me. I almost screamed when I felt his warm palm holding my hand tightly.

"I know your plans, going to Korea and settle there. Have you thought about the things you will leave behind? How about your Auntie and Uncle. They are old now, are you leaving with them or leaving them.", when I heard him, I don't know what to say. I just stared at his hand holding mine. I am lost at his words,"I don't know what to say, but I will not leave them this time, if they want to be with me, I would love that, but I want them to stay here and not to worry for anything. They have been living here for decades and I want them to continue what they have always done. This time, I will not let them worry about my life, because this time I will not let that happen.. "

He chuckled when he heard me, I stared at him annoyingly "You asked and I answered, now you're laughing, what so funny?"

"Nothing, you're sentimental just now and I'm wondering if that is the effect of that dextrose.", he said while pointing at the gauze connnected to my vien. I lowered my head and smiled, and I can feel my heart is beating so fast as I heard his laughter.

I laughed at him and said while staring at him intently "That my good sir is sugar, it is used to quickly replenished my lost energy, or have you asked the doctor to induce me with a higher dose of sleeping pills that maybe clouded my decisions?"

He ruffled my hair and said with a discomfort while looking a his hand "Your hair is so oily and it is ewwww..." as he said those, I pinched his hand so hard that left him my nail marks. He looked at me dangerously and said, "Now, you have the energy to fight, let's go process your papers and go home. I will make you regret pinching me." while getting closely at me. We barely have an inch apart, I can feel his breath, I want to dodge this situation but I am glued into his sight, I can't take my eyes off his stare. My attention being pulled by his stare, then I felt his soft lips touches mine.

His lips brushed mine, softly, delicately, like butterfly wings, just long enough that he could inhale my breath. I kissed him like no boy had ever kissed me, soft and moist and hot and breathy, not trying to win a battle but seeking union and closeness and the sharing of one breath, one sensation, one timeless and passionate moment. The heat rose into my cheeks as my tongue touched his, quick and electric and delicious, then firmer, more determined, more curious about the heat that lay within, seeking to chase down that elusive liquid lightning that reached through.

I pulled away as I catch my breath, we were still in daze with that deep kiss, I should have slapped him, but I couldn't, I wanted more. He smiled at me, maybe he saw my yearning and wanting more than a kiss. I was about to say something but couldn't, as his lips conquered mine, he parted momentarily to say "I love the taste of your lips" then he again kissed me.

His kissed deepened and I can feel my body weaken, his hand explored under my hospital gown. I felt his warm palm caressing my abdomen, going up to my chest.

'Oh no, not now' my thoughts are contradicting my body. I can feel how hot I am, is this how a woman feel when they're in exstacy? Questions running inside my head fighting the urge to let him be. But my body betrayed me...

I moaned as he trailed kisses to my neck and his hand explored my body, he caressed my breast and played with my nipples. He suddenly stopped and looked at me, kissed my forehead and said "We'll continue, when you get discharged."

He then stood up as if nothing happens and helped me fix myself. I swear, I can feel my face is burning red now, embarrassed for letting him do that, and for wanting more.

'Oh, God, why make me weak in front of this man' as I inhaled deeply.

He chuckled and say "Don't worry, we have all the time in the world to finish what we started.."