his muse

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out of all the people that felix could get to help him win a persons attention, he chose the quiet one, which was you. you hated him, you hated everything he did and how you and him had to breathe the same air. you don't have any specific reason to hate him, but you just hated him. the fact that you two grew up together made you hate him even more. now you were stuck here helping him try to get some persons attention all because you lost to him in a game of rock, paper, scissors.

one day after school he approached you. "what do you want felix?" he looked at you with puppy eyes and asked you to help him. "what can i even help you with?" you said annoyingly. "i need you to be in a fake relationship with me to make someone jealous." all you let out was a laugh, "me? haha it's been awhile since i heard jokes." ,, i'm serious." he said with his attractive deep voice. oh yes, his voice was very attractive and that's another reason you hated him, you hated how he had such a good voice. "rock,paper, scissors, if you win i'll help. if i win i don't have to help you." you told him before playing the game. he got paper and you got rock, you groaned in despair, "aha no way am i helping you." ,,please y/n, you said it yourself if you lose you'll help me." his pathetic puppy eyes making you waver on your decision, but based on his personality he was going to use that against you anyways. "fine"

after losing the simple kiddish game, you guys made a contract (inspired by to all the boys i've loved before movie):

—no kissing; hugs are ok

—go parties with him

—volunteer with you

—writes special notes for you

—eat lunch with him

*NEVER TELL ANYONE ITS FAKE* dUh

you thought about how hellish the next few weeks or possibly months since you don't know if this person gets jealous easily, in fact you didn't even know who this person was.

felix took the fake relationship very seriously, he wrote you notes that you just stuffed randomly in your backpack or your back pocket. you'd also continuously nag him to tell you who the person he wants to make jealous, but he'd just ignore the question as if you never said anything. another thing was that you got to know his friends, they may seem like a bunch of cocky jerks upfront but after getting to know them they were just a bunch of goofy losers. the first week of the fake relationship was weird especially since you weren't used to the attention, and the glaring eyes along with the whispers. the most memorable part of the first week was when he went volunteering with you.

you volunteered at a daycare and a senior center but he was an active person so a senior center didn't suit him, that's why you brought him to the daycare instead. his eyes lit up and he broke into a big smile as soon as the kids started running towards the two of you when you guys walked through the doors. you all did a big group hug before sending the children back to what they were doing until one of the kids asked, "helper y/n, is that your bOyfRieNd?" the kid was smiling and grinning at you while waiting for your answer. felix looked at you and you replied with a emotionless smile. "yea, i guess you can say he is." that day he worked so well with the kids it seemed as if it wasn't his first time working with them. he was good with kids and he himself had a kiddish personality too so that could explain it.

after volunteering, he took you to the coffee shop the was near the daycare. "what do you want to drink?" he asked you. "uh, just an iced americano is good." he ordered the drinks, payed, then waited to pick up the drinks, while you went to find a table for two. once you found a table, you sat there waiting for him, but he didn't take long before he joined you too. you were peacefully enjoying your drink, while felix was staring at you as if you were his whole world. when you looked up at him he looked away. he cleared his throat, "i know you don't like me, y/n. but i don't get why you hate me so much?" you sighed, you didn't know why you hate him so much either, you've just always hated him for always being so good at the things he did, and how he did it so prettily and amazingly.

"i-i dont know. i just hate you." you said before taking more sips of your drink. "well if you don't have a reason to hate me, then that means you have a possibility to like me." you choked on his words of you possibly liking him and accidentally spat out some of your drink which got on your shirt. you and him both quickly grabbed napkins and wiped your shirt but the americano had already seeped in. felix took off the sweater he had on and let you wear it so it could cover the americano stains.

his jaw clenched as he muttered out, "is it so disgusting to like me?"

"n-no, that's not what that was. i really don't know why i hate you. but i could never genuinely see myself liking you either, not that you're bad or anything, it's just that… ugh what am i even saying right now" you took a breath and continued on.

"i did. hate you, for being both annoyingly hot and good are everything. you're a smart jock that everyone loves and i guess i hated you for being a good person, but through these weeks i've found myself liking that person too."

"it's you".

you looked at him super confused.

he caressed your cheek with a finger and tuck some hair behind your ear.

"you're the person i wanted to make jealous. this was just an excuse to spend time with you, y/n. i really liked you… since forever. you- you're my muse".

and like that… it was a new chapter for you two.