Daoist_spider

These are thoughts collected when feeling extreme emotions. In no way are they everyday thoughts or opinions. This book is not suited for anyone under the age of 15. Warning this book depicts depression and/or suicidal thoughts. This book was made purely for the hope that the author can use this to cope. If you don’t like this genre or the book/topics make you uncomfortable. Leave while you still can. Basically it’s like a diary, I post this so I may find out about myself and hopefully learn something from it. I do not post everything on here and some of the chapters might be removed due to either sensitivity issues or me being unwilling to share the thoughts anymore. Grab a bag of tissues and a box of melodrama and we can all just cry this out.

When you’re angry. When you’re sad.

I am petty for I cannot seem to let go the feelings of hatred and resentment for all who have bullied me. Usually I don't care. But sometimes, sometimes I'm so scared they will recognize me and continue the bullying I went through.


So I developed a rough skin, that is less effected by others words unfortunately it does not work on my own self criticism and blame.


Sometimes I feel like a big burning object of hatred! Wanting to obliterate anything and everything that I feel threatened by...


But in doing so I would be destroying myself as well for I, also hate myself, I am threatened by what I feel.


Petty