Carrying Scars

Alright, to be useful the best chance I got is to use cast the magic circles inside my own body.

This is absolutely terrifying to do, as if I fuck up even once I'll literally detonate into a tasteful modern art display... or so I think, but either way this allows me to stride forward and improve even with Tungston keeping a watchful eye on me. Speaking of which, it seems she has gotten a lot more tame since the last time I met her. Wisdom comes with age or hardship, and I wonder which applies to her. Personally I hope it was age for her, despite my mental threats against her... and many others of course... I always wish people the best. Except... you know.

I need to try harder to make it up to everyone. The mark left by my formal self is still felt in the world, and I haven't even scratched away at all of the bad things I've done under Origin. Eventually though I'll be able to fix everything.

I think about this kind of stuff a lot while I'm preparing to do something crazy, I guess it's a character trait of mine then. Carving away small magic circles inside of me, the mana twists and contorts against the natural mana inside me while it desperately clings to my grip on it. Nearly there, I feel a constant battering against the spell... the mana used wasn't from types of magic I actually have... I have Blossom, Violent Blood, Feather Storm, and Alchemical which includes both Chimera and Golem magic.

The problem is I have a really hard time seeing what types of magic I have, the tier of what I can cast in that magic, and how to use it properly as I'm not a full caster... other wise my first goal would of been to get a spell book to see those kind of stats, it's quite unlucky... and to think, I had every type when I was Crimson! Literally no type escaped me! Demon, Holy, Black, White... it didn't matter, I had it. Now though, I'm still a husk of my former self... if only cultivator players actually wrote anything down in the forums, they keep their shit secret.

How I envy their abilities for improvement, they can use literally anything to make themselves stronger... it's only because I remember Origin's cultivator player's techniques of diffusing things into your body that I can improve myself so much, but surely... If I had more then I would be much stronger. Their secrets are likely the key to getting stronger, but also... I may of lost some memories of their techniques. I guess that is another goal to accomplish for me, gather many of the cultivator's secrets.

I call them cultivators but really they are normal classes and such, it's just they play the game differently for whatever reason... maybe it's because their used to games from eastern studios as opposed to me. Whatever the case, their abilities would be of good use to me... especially right now seeing I'm really struggling to get this circle to work, I remember some cultivator player back at Origin saying that doing what I'm sort of doing right now is a very common technique among them... I was always so close yet so far away.

Well, continuing on... the circle seems to be in a perilous state, especially considering that it's magic I don't have. I didn't even mention the type yet did I... well, I am attempting to mix Black and White magic. Black magic involves debuffs and high burst damage while white involves buffs and high burst healing, so together it would make something interesting. I know exactly what I'm going to call it too, not grey magic... no that's already a thing, I'm calling it Balance magic. Since the ' Color ' types of magic are basically the principles of magic, white and black are ' pure ' forms of holy and evil meaning they don't clash. Jeez... it's hard to explain that. I'll do a better job of it later... but for now ignore everything I just said.

I got to find out how to explain that better...

Anyhow, after pressing and pressing away at my goal... the circle fizzles out properly and dilutes into pure ' Balance ' mana. Like the Violent Blood magic, I redirect it to my mana core for dilution into my body... strangely, this magic type was considerably easier to make than Violent Blood... maybe it's because their similar in makeup as opposed to explosions and blood.

| Magic type created |

| Name Available |

Call it Balance, let's see what this gives me...

| Complete, skills gained. |

| Even Magic: You gain the ability to store ' Magic Weights ' while in combat, you gather these by dealing damage. Magic Weights disappear after 20 seconds of being outside of combat, using Magic consumes the weights which grant extra damage. Extra Damage doesn't contribute to gathering Weights |

| Odd Magic : Magic that only hits single targets instead now target 2, this also applies to AoE if you only hit one target with it centering around a random enemy. |

| Generating spells... |

| Generation complete, 14/50 spell slots for magic type used. |

| Congratulations on creating a unique magic type, +200 General Rep, you can freely grant up to rank 4 of this magic type to any casters and rank 2 of any non-casters. |

| You can safely cast this magic type up to rank 10, however rank 11 and 12 still have downsides such as: Immediate Death, Permanent Dismemberment, Permanent Schizophrenia, Inability to Respawn, Inability to Reproduce, etc... |

Alrighty, it seems that with every magic I create I get the same basic formula of bonuses... two skills and the rank 10 of that magic, for others I can give them up to Rank 4 without any needed research or binding. Cool, so it looks like this is a super viable strategy to get stronger... but then again, this is probably going to get nerfed as soon as the system actually picks it up. So far it seems to only be doing this stuff automatically.. so whatever.

" Cobalt. I got the notification. "

Fuck.

- " I don't have any idea what your t- "

" Shut it, get some fucking sleep or I'll make you... and believe me, I'll enjoy it. "

- " oh? What is this about? "

" You made a new magic type. "

- " Really? Prove it. "

" Balance Magic, combination of White and Black magic. It gave me rank 2 of it. "

Fuck.

- " It's not my fault, I want to do my best for everyone. "

" Do you not think we know that by now? Jeez teacher, we get you want to make it easier on everyone but you need to take it easy, they... no, we don't want to lose you again. "

- " It will be fine... it's ju- "

" Nope, your getting rest. You are still in your armor, take it off dammit! "

- " I- ... Well, fine. "

I unequipped my armor until I was only in my normal clothes, surprisingly they are a little different... but it isn't a problem to me.

- " Better? "

" More! Take off more! "

- " Ok, now your making it weird. "

" Are you telling me you sleep with a hoodie on? "

- " Of course not, but I also normally don't have someone watching me sleep. "

" I don't care! Off it goes! "

- " I'm not taking off the hoodie. "

" Take it off or I'm telling Dice. "

Fuck... I'll never hear the end of it if Dice heard... but... if Tungston or anyone else... fuck, I'm screwed either way...

- " Fine, I'll take it off... "

" Thanks, you know... it's weird to sleep with cl- your not wearing anything under the hoodie... "

- " Yeah, now you see why I was hesitant? "

" Not particularly, you are quite nice looking without a top. Though I did expect you to be muscular, not that it matters. "

- " That is... nice, but also weird. I was referring to the scars. "

" If you didn't want to get them you should of turned the realistic healing off before you got them. "

- " I didn't have much of a choice."

" Did you get them Pre-Digitization or Post? "

- " Post, I got them when I was Crimson. "

" They carry over? Wacko, what happened? "

- " Don't know, memory bullshit. "

" True, do other Origin members have it? "

- " I remember very few also having them, however many of those I've seen with them were players who... Dammit, I don't remember... there was something similar among all of them... "

" Well, you'll find out eventually. We are likely going to have a big clash with Origin eventually, if we capture an important person there we can ask them. "

- " Yeah, your right. Well Tungston... I'll probably be actually going to sleep now, I don't know why but thinking about my past makes me tired. See ya tommorow. "

- " Sure. Well, I'll see ya then. "

Fuck, a girl saw me shirtless. My chastity is ruined!

This is probably the first time that has happened since... actually no never mind, I've been seen shirtless quite a few amount of times... some of the doctors at the Divine realm who did the wing surgery on me were female, Dice saw me shirtless after that..

That was about it, the only other time I was saw shirtless wa-

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