I did what?

After Alex left, I tried to sleep the best I could.

I kept waking up from horrible dreams...

I curl up into a ball, wishing for someone to be there.

Even Alex would be fine.

I just need someone to hold me...

I start to cry whispering Jake's name.

I take deep breaths, trying to calm myself down.

I slowly start to sink back into sleep...

The dreams start I come back.

The day... I was first raped...

T-the day Brandon killed Jake...

I hear him screaming, trying to protect me...

It's- it's my fault he's gone.

It's all my fault...

My breathing gets faster and I wake to once again.

I wound the blanket farther around me.

I bury my head into the blankets and try to go to sleep once more.

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I wake up again and Alex is sitting on a chair next to the bed.

"Hey..you ok?"

I gently nod my head and sit up.

There's a thin later of sweat on me and my head hurts.

"What happened? Why does my head hurt? I only slept... Right?"

Alex gets up ad looks at me.

"Y-you mean you don't remember?"

I shake my head. "What happened?"

"Will. You tried to kill yourself! How do you not remember?"

I stare at him dumbfounded.

"What do you mean?! I don't remember anything, only going to sleep."

Alex sits down next to me.

"I came back to check on you. There was a bottle on the floor, the mirror was broken, and the door to the roof was open.

I went to grab guards. We found you, drunk and on the edge of the roof. We tried to get you down but you kicked and screamed at the guards.

The sergeant eventually hit you over the head."

I scoot away from him, pressing up against the wall.

"I am sorry for causing you so much trouble. I really don't remember any of it."

Alex looks at me. "Is it ok if I come closer?"

I gently nod at him. "Yeah, it's fine I guess."

Alex gently comes to my side.

"We didn't know what would happen if you woke up again, so I stayed here..."

I stare at Alex for a while thinking about what I supposedly did.

"Alex. C-can I hug you?"

Alex smiles and nods.

"Of course."

I wrap my self around him, for once in my life I am not scared to be hurt.

We stay like that for a while before Alex starts talking.

"My dad wanted me to talk to you about something..it has to do with the prophecy.."

I nod. "Ok. What is it?"

Alex stands up and sticks his hand out.

"Come on I'll show you."

I grab his hand and he pulls me up towards him.

"We have to go to the dungeon level. Ok?"

"Yeah, it'll be fine. I think.."

Alex squeezes my hand and we walk out of the room and downwards towards the dungeon.