I miss him but he's gone forever

"Seriously only that.....", Cindy was shocked not believing what Carey was telling her that happened yesternight.

" Yes, why lie...???, I'm saying the damn truth", Carey assured her.

"Alright...cant believe this girl...!!! It's hard to believe that Aiden slept the same room with you and didn't attempt to even kiss or caress you", Cindy was amused.

"Hard to believe indeed, he was claiming that Darwin wanted to take advantage of me cause, I was drunk so he was claiming that wasn't in the right mindset. He could easily take advantage so that's why he forcefully took me home", Carey stood as she headed towards Cindy.

" That's so lame of him, he just didn't want you to hook up with Darwin. It's pure jealousy especially now that most dudes on campus were ogling at you. Wonder the way he will be behaving when school starts officially, cause I'm sure after the party you're now famous around here. The campus cool kids will be wanting you... am so sure", Cindy giggled.

"He is not my boyfriend or husband. Soon he will have to find another girl to be chasing after. Cause I'm not interested in him. He's so persuasive, arrogant, proud, and so full of himself. That's not what I want in a guy at all," Carey informed her.

"Yeah definitely when he sees you are not interested at all, by time he'll just lose interest cause many girls around here chase after him",  Cindy chuckled.

" This is what I will wear today as we go for that shopping.....", Cind held a ragged t-shirt and black sweatpant.

"Wow...!!! I really love the outfit it's so cool", Carey adored the ragged t-shirt.

"Yes, this is the campus outfit free and crazy. I will help you look for the best outfits just like this not clothes that look like a fifty year old", Cindy assured her.

" The heck...!!!! not a fifty-year-old dress. Do I really dress that bad? It's so pathetic", Carey gaped shockingly after Cindy's remarks concerning her sense of fashion.

"Was just kidding you", Cindy chuckled at Carey's reaction it was hilarious.

"Yeah can you give me the juice of what happened between you and Arthur.....", Carey winked at Cindy.

"Aham.... was just waiting for you to ask", Cindy sat down beside Carey ready to tell her the story.

"When you left, we stayed a bit longer at the party. We just kissed and you know...", Cindy winked at Carey.

"And then.....", Carey raised her brow eagerly waiting for the story.

"After that, we went to his place. He bought cookies on the way cause that's my favorite dessert. After arriving we ate the cookies. Then aham.....", Cindy stopped.

"Aham.... stop that just tell me what happened I'm so curious", Carey frowned at Cindy curiously.

" Wow...!!! that's fantastic, I'm sure you never wanted the night to end", Carey grinned at her after Cindy narrated her little fairy tale night.

"The night was truly amazing for you. It's like Aiden knew that you wouldn't come back so after we arrived, I told him to go you know that look of just go. I wanna sleep but he declined. Instead, he started preparing to sleep on your bed. Was so pissed at him. When I notified him that you'll be back. He said that you couldn't come back cause you're with Arthur. He said that at that time you were eating each other",Carey chuckled.

" Yeah.... basically that's what happens on campus you'll come to see after you stay here for quite a while",  Cindy informed her.

"Let me ask you a question....? Have you ever been smashed before....?" Cindy grinned eagerly waiting for her response.

"Yeah..... I have ever but it was just once it didn't even last for two minutes", Carey said shyly as she glared at the roof.

" Really.....!!!!", Cindy gave her the waiting look.

"Yeah", she nodded.

"You're like a virgin. I guess cause you still so tight", Cindy opened her eyes wide dramatically.

"Yeah, I think so..... cause he didn't insert all in", Carey seemed uncomfortable discussing the issue.

"I hope I'm not asking too much.....", Cindy raised a brow at her.

"Nope you ain't actually to tell you the truth, I'm really glad that we can discuss these issues you know", Carey grinned at her.

"Ooouu.... definitely wanna talk more about it", Cindy raised a brow at her.

"He was called Jack after, After I completed high school my best friend at home planned to go camping with her friends. She invited me over and accepted the invitation. The camping was quite fun at first, I didn't like him cause he was so bossy, proud, and feeling like he was the hottest dude in the camp. It all started like this, we played truth or dare. He was dared to carry me bridal style for a minute while facing each other. I found it lame at first cause it was so hilarious. After the dare, he became a bit close and he started becoming nice to me. When I was setting up the bonfire, he came and joined me. I started knowing him better and realized that inside, he was a different person.The guys around noticed and started teasing us especially my bestie one thing led to another and we became super close. What attracted me to him, it's that he was so silly he could make me laugh not caring about what other people thought and taught me how to be courageous, bold, and confident in myself. Before meeting him, I was so shy and I didn't appreciate myself the way I do right now", Carey narrated her story as Cindy stared at her.

"Whoo...!!! that's a fairy tale. What happened between you two afterward", Cindy raised a brow eagerly waiting for Carey to complete her story.

"After the camp, we met for a date. It was quite well, I remember that day as if it was yesterday. Actually, he was my first date. That day we really had fun the second date, I went over to his house. That's where we... aham.... He told me that he was going to travel to the countryside and would stay there for a whole month. I was sad because all was going well with me and him..... Four days past and I didn't hear from him. I was so worried. I kept asking my bestie why the guy was silent. After a day, I was informed that he died in a road accident. It was so painful for me. I just couldn't believe it. I thought it was a dream at first. I had started falling for this guy and then he goes and dies. I felt the universe was so cruel to me. He told me to be bold and strong cause he noticed I lacked self-confidence. But at that time, I really tried my best to be bold but I couldn't I was shattered, depressed, broken, and one part of my being died. We didn't stay for quite long but I really miss him. The few moments we shared, I can never forget them. Our story was so short but sweet. It was so sad cause the tragedy also took away his father. It is so sad I tell you.....",  Carry blinked numerously to prevent her tears from falling but she couldn't control it.

" The pain I felt inside and still feel when I saw his casket going into the ground is unbearable it's like wildfire, which hardly goes away my mum had to know the story cause, I was so broken at that time. He was my first love at first sight at times when I was seeing in the movies you can see someone for the first time and fall in love with them. I thought it was a joke but I experienced this with Jack", Carey hugged Cindy and moaned.

"I am so sorry this is a very sad story. I wish I didn't bring up the question. If I knew the story behind it, I wouldn't ask you", Cindy apologized as she wiped her tears.

"Don't apologize it wasn't your fault and I'm glad you asked it. At least I have someone I can talk to cause, I have been really suffering in the inside pretending to be well but I'm dying in the inside", Carey dried up her tears.

"So that's why I normally say, I have never had a boyfriend cause. When I tell someone I once had they would want to know our love story. I really loved him Cindy he made me happy. His craziness the crazy dance he used to dance for me, his voice while singing for me actually, he was a very good singer. He would call me just to sing for me before I slept. He looked like a bad boy but he was so romantic. After he died the interest in boys ended, every time I would see a guy that resembled him even his hair color would remember him which made me sad. He was so stubborn and couldn't say no to him he brought the best in me and that's why I will never forget him", Carey half grinned.

" By time you will just remember him and smile not remembering the tragedy that happened to him but the joy that he brought in you", Cindy embraced her again comforting her.

"Be strong...", she whispered in her ears.

"You will find a guy that will treat you even better than him", Cindy assured Carey that all is not lost.

"Really... you think so", Carey mumbled as she stood up.

"Yes... Your are a very beautiful and amazing girl", Cindy assured her.