Aria_005

Once upon a time, there was a girl and boy who were strangers at the very beginning but became friends over a short period of time but soon that friendship started to bloom into love.

But that love wasn't meant to happen


"You are the only person which I want in this world but why can't you be with me I thought you loved me Patrick why if it's because of me I can change it but please don't leave me like them I would lose my mind without you please I beg you" I try to grab hold of his hand begging to not leave me

"Amelia, I did love you but that was in the past now I no longer love you anymore," says the person who I dearly loved who pushes my hand and left me drenched in the rain.

Their faith was never supposed to be entangled in the first place but they couldn't help themself as faith is so damn cruel.

A Love That Wasn't Meant To Be

Morning came and it was time to go to school. The early greeting and having breakfast and getting annoyed by my brother had become a routine for me maybe it can't be changed and I would have to stay in the pit for more time.


I get irritated for the way I am and sometimes I wonder why can't I change maybe it was who I was born to be don't have anything that excites me the same old things I got to do.


Standing in front of my house looking at kids from other schools I get ashamed for who I am. My friends my family and everyone which I call lose never judge me for what I am they always encourage me but the feeling when a person says everything is going to be fine but it's never going to be a happy ending for me is sad. 


And I get frustrated for myself and get angry at others when they tell me this. I can't tell them that I don't want their belief in me because I can't make it for too long.


Those old days when my grandparents were there with me those were the people that was my life they were with me in my toughest times and made me happy when I am down I loved them more than my parents and it all ended in a short moment when remembering them I can't do anything but cry.


The loneliness feeling will always keep me wondering why am I still living why can't I just leave everything and be nonexistent but I am too afraid to leave my family I don't know what to do without them.


The numbness starting to rose in my heart I have to tell myself everything is going to be alright.


I got on my bus and sat on the window seat to calm myself down.


I turned my head to see Patrick sitting beside me.


"Umm no its nothing I didn't hear you when you called me"


"Yeah I am fine" Lie, it became a habit for me to lie when someone asks me if I am okay when I am not.


Patrick doesn't know why but to think that Amelia is lying it had to with something. He tried to have a conversation with her but all ended up vain when she barely spoke two or three words.


Everything Is Not Okay