Chapter 21

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Why can't I just talk to Zen? I just can't. It's weird and awkward and it makes my heart race but not in a good way, I just want to run away and hide. This has been going on for weeks now. It's the beginning of March! But I just can't muster up the courage to tell him what's going on. I don't want him to be scared of me or run from me. I love him...I think.

You think??? Wow, the Know-it-all isn't sure about something for once. Sucks to suck.

Shut the fuck up. I should've just-

Should've just what?

Gotten rid of you. I would be so fucking happy. I would be able to love my boyfriend in some Fucking peace which sounds great right about now.

Well I want to fuck Elizabeth in my own body but we don't always get what we want.

I'm definitely not doing that. Not again. Gross, I would force myself to throw up in shame. You just have sex to have it. There is no love behind it. Be careful and you might end up worse then Elizabeth.

Well I rather be like her then be a horrible and insane person like you.

Ouch. That hurt my feelings, Riley. You do know you are stuck with me forever, right? You better stop or you may do something you regret. I say this to her as I finish preparing lunch for Ezekiel. I take it down to him and well... I have to feed him.

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"Hey, Ezekiel? You've gotten skinny." He looks at me and leans back on the wall. "Like really skinny." He just looks at me, his eyes empty and cold. "You look empty. " Moving places...moving places. "Can you tell me more about my aunt."

"...she was amazing. It was like she was the life of the party everywhere she went."

"She used to go out much?"

"No, not necessarily . She would just go out whenever she could or just drive around to clear her mind. Like she would just go into the woods behind the house sometimes and just camp out in her own world. I think she used to write too."

"What do you mean by just camp out?"

"Camp out, as in she went into the woods and wouldn't come back until hours late into the night."

"Do you know what she was doing out there????"

"No, not at all. I remember one night when she had just come back from one of her...walks. She went into her room and locked the door immediately. Then I just heard wood breaking or snapping. It was weird but I never heard wood again after that night."

"Wow, thank Ezekiel. For everything."

"If you want to thank me then you should let me out of these chains.

"I should shouldn't I? Ezekiel looked at me." I wait until he looks me in the eyes."I'm going to let you out of here soon. I promise you that." Don't make promises you can't keep.

"Don't fucking lie to me. That's not funny."He didn't even move his chains.

"I'm not. I promise. I gotta go, okay? I'll let you out of here soon. Then we can fix those infected and broken shins. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I really am. Bye bye."I close the door behind me. Moving places...moving places.

I go up to my aunt's room and look around. Nothing seems out of place. The room was bare and looked wiped of all memories that were made inside it. He said he heard wood breaking one night. Okay so let's look for wood. Her dresser and floor is wood... along with the door to her closet. This house isn't that old so there wouldn't be any serious damage or things wouldn't be out of place. Therefore marks on the floor are rare. Hmmmmm...think think. I start to look around the floor for marks. No marks anywhere. The floor is clean and actually pretty polished. I push the bed out of the way and under it, the wooden floor looked defaced. It was scratched and loose when I stepped on it with my foot. I got down and pried it out with my nails. Piece by piece, I took out the floor to uncover her secret. On the floor were a lot of books, and a letter. I open the letter and started to read.:

"Hey so if you're reading this then you found my secret. I'm a writer. I would often go into the woods to write so no one ever saw me do it or interrupt me. It's kinda weird, I know but it brought me a lot of comfort. The only person who knows my "secret" was my sister but...ever since she got married...we haven't talked much. She moved away with her husband and just dropped all contact with me. I blame him for that, he never liked me and I never liked him. He was an Ex-convict. Of course I didn't like him for my sister but she didn't listen. Anyway. These books contain my memories from my childhood and what actually happened with me as a child while some are all just random fiction I would write. I just feel like some of these things should be documented and I should get some of my ideas down on paper before I forget. Being a surgeon makes me really busy but I'm glad I made time to do this at night.

~~~Lisa"

Oh wow.... woah she was an okay person. Like she had a hobby and she seemed a bit happy. DAD WAS AN EX CONVICT???? That explains his whole violent actions to mom. Fucking asshole, I will never stop hating you. My thoughts were interrupted by my doorbell ringing. Someone's here??? It's 6pm on Saturday and I don't usually get visitors...like at all.

Hermit crab.

I wonder who. I walk out of the room with the letter in my hand. "One second!" I say as I walk down the stairs to the door. I opened it and it was Zen standing before me. His eyes were kinda red and he was playing with his fingers.

"Hey can we talk for a minute?"

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