Chapter 30

Finally, spring break came. Everything has been getting better. Zen and I talk more about our feelings and what's going on in his head. Apparently he has been sad and scared of losing me especially since I was so distant to him before, which I think caused him to be more possessive and controlling of me. Like he is pretty...dominant now. He doesn't listen to me and does what he wants. He teases and picks on me and tells me to shut up and stuff, which has caused me to back down a lot from him. I guess he's in charge now. I honestly don't know how I'm gonna make it up to him but I know that I love him very very much. I'm scared of losing them too. Especially after the whole Elizabeth situation. He actually mentioned her a couple times and now there are missing posters all over the school for her. There have been hashtags and posts about her, posters hung up with her selfies and group photos.There sometimes and I just lay there instead of seeing darkness ,I see her face. Her face would shift and stretch to Ezekiel then to my aunt, then they would separate into two pieces and show my mother and Rhea. I hate dreaming. I never never never want to think about Elizabeth or Ezekiel again. It's actually pretty dangerous for me to be associated with them anyway. I can't.

It was the Monday of break and everyone was coming over together, with Zen being the one that was picking them up. It's 11:30 am. They should be coming at around 1:30 pm. I'm just going to leave my hair down because it's too damn thick to comb or brush so I guess it's going to stay a lion's mane. I just put on Zen's shirt that he left and some leggings. I sweep and vacuum the entire house and change the sheets in each guest bedroom. Soon enough is 1:30 PM and I just sit in the living room and wait for them to arrive or ring my doorbell as I play on my phone.Around 1:35 pm, I open my front door after it is rung and there all of them are! Zen, Alex, Malcolm, Jace and Kuya. Everyone is accounted for with a bag of their clothes for the week. Zen looked amazing.....mmmmm yum.

"Hey, welcome! Don't drop your bags, you can put them in your room on the second floor. So just follow me." I lead everyone up the stairs and assign everyone a spacious guest room for all of their things. It's like this is a hotel for them. I left Zen for last. I stop in front of him and look up and his beautiful brown eyes. "Alright. You have two options. You can either have this room behind me or you can sleep in my room." I offer him.

"But do I want to share a room with you???" He said with some sass.

I put my hands on my hips. "You don't wanna be with me?"

"I never said that."

"...a bigger bed. Plus you're warm. I'm "always freezing. I need your heat." I start to pout and I'm getting ready to whine.

"Seems like you want me to."

"Yes please. I want my bunbun."

"You always do."

"Pleaaaaaasee Zen??? Pretty pleaseeeee??"

"Stop whining." He pinched my thighs, stomach,and butt while smiling down at me. "We will see how the day goes. If you're good, then I'll be sleeping with you." He drops his bag at the door.

"Do you mean sexually or??"

"I mean I'll be sleeping in the same bed with you if you earn it."

"Hmmmm." I push out my lips and frown. He leans down and kisses my lips 3 times before patting my ass and walking downstairs. So mean and touchy now. I love him though. And he loves me too. This is just how we work now. There was a power shift in our relationship, a really big one. I actually really like it. Makes me want him even more now. Yum. I think this is what I actually secretly wanted.

I go downstairs and wait while everyone joins us gradually. Everyone was showering and changing since we were staying here all day today. I just sit on the couch and pat my thighs. Pat pat pat. Waiting for my friends. Pat pat pat. Alex and Malcolm walk down the stairs together, smiling as hard as they can. Kuya came down and his hair was deflated because of the water in the shower. Jace came down and I noticed she looked a bit uncomfortable.

"Hey, you okay??" I walked up to her and put my hand on her shoulder.

"...yea it's just...I'm not used to being over by anyone's house." She said kinda low.

"How can I make you more comfortable?"

"Don't worry about it. I'll warm up." She says.

"Well good."

"Xena, do you have alcohol?!" Malcolm and Zen yell.

"Can we save that for later tonight pleaseeee?!?!? Thank youuuuuu." I yell back.

"What are we doing tonight anyway??" Alex came up to me and asked. She smells like Malcolm.

"Truth or dare." I reply.Everyone starts to chill out in the living room as we start to watch movies together as a group. Zen spreads out on the couch and I lay on top of him with our stomachs and chests pressed together. Throughout the movies, we would start kissing or he would start to grope me, which I loved the feeling of his hands all over me.

"I want you, tonight." I lean up and whisper in his ear.

"We'll have to see." He whispers back.

"Please???? I'm craving something more."

"We'll see."

"Mmm but I want you." I want him so bad, he made me so fucking horny with all of the touching and groping and now he's not even giving me anything??

"Shhhhh."

"Nopeeee. Gimme."

"No,Xena."

"But-"

"But nothing. I just said no. I don't want to do anything."

"That's not fair."

"It is fair. My body, my rules."

"But Zen-"

"Are you serious , Xena?? I said no. That's final." He went back to watching the movie. Fucking jerk. He was the one that keeps kissing and groping my ass and boobs and shit. Maybe I just have to get him to change his mind....yea I can do that.

I get up and go to my room. I go in my dresser and right next to Zen's promise ring is the pills from December. This should help Zen loosen up. Definitely. I just have to put two in his drink. I slip the bag of pills in my pocket and walk back downstairs. I notice the time and it's 11:30 pm. We've been watching movies all day. "Hey, let's start Truth or Dare. Pizza is on the way, by the way." I say as I stretch my arms up to the sky and walk into the kitchen.

"Dope, yea lets start." Malcolm gets up and follows me into the Kitchen. "Hey." He talks lower.

"Hi."

"Alex seems happy."

"Don't fuck it up, nerd. She really likes you. Don't be a hoe." I warn him.

"I'm not going to be."

"Good. Now help me get this liquor. Bottom cabinets." I say as I get juice from the fridge to mix with the drinks and Shot glasses for everyone. When I walk back into the living room, everyone is already in a circle. I sit next to Zen and put a shot glass in front of everyone. "Okay so, for truth or dare, you either do a Dare or chicken out and do a Truth but if you take a Truth then you have to take two shots. Deal?" I look around to see if anyone is uncomfortable and everyone seems to be game. Dope. "Let's all take a shot to start it off." And that's what we did. Alcohol tastes gross.

"I'll start it." Malcolm says. "Xena, Truth or dare?"

"Dare." I reply.

"I dare you to make out with Alex for 8 seconds straight."

"Oh. Easy. Come here,Alex." I get up and walk over to Alex.

"Wait, huh??? I didn't say ok-" and before she could finish her sentence, I grabbed her face and opened her mouth and started to make out with her while everyone counted in the back. When they hit 8 is when I pulled away from her mouth and looked at her. "You didn't seem to fight much." I said to her. I thought she didn't want to do it.

"That's because I started liking it." She said it as if she was shocked herself. "That was also my first kiss...I'm not complaining about that one."

"Woah Alex maybe you're bise-" Jace kinda cut in.

"After that??? No no, I'm still straight." Alex seems to be in shock.

"You're welcome for the first kiss." I go and sit back down. The night goes on and we keep doing dumb dares like licking the chandelier or putting mayonnaise on our face or whatever.

It was Kuya's turn to ask someone. "Zen, Truth or dare?"

"Truth." He says. This is my chance to loosen him up.

I get his shot glass and turn around with it, like I'm just stretching. Before pouring the liquor, I rub my palm over the glass and drop the three pills inside. Liquor then a small bit of juice. I hand him the shot and he drinks it down with no problem.

"Would you ever date a guy?" That was Kuya's Truth?

"Mmm no. I don't think I can see myself with a guy. I guess I'm straight and boring."

"I mean, I would date a girl." I say.

"Really?" Zen seemed surprised.

"Well I don't really care about your gender, as long as I love you for you. So I guess I'm Pansexual??? But no, I would definitely date a girl. They are sexy as hell."

30 minutes pass and Zen gets a bit woozy. He's swaying and his words start to slur. They worked really well! I stand up and pull him up. "We are going to go to bed, guys. I think Zen needs some sleep." I say. "Just clean up and don't leave a mess please." I walk up the stairs with Zen leaning on me and take him to my room. I lay him down and close and lock the door for privacy. Finally! Some alone time with my baby. I straddle him and start to kiss his neck and his mouth.

"Xe-Xena.... I wa-"

"No, shhhh baby. Let me have you. Just for tonight. I want all of you." I say as I start to take off my shirt and bra. I go back to kissing his neck softly and slip my hands in his pants. I can hear him softly groan and shift his body as I fondle him. I want him so bad.

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