19 | flashbacks

16 years ago

I'm 10, I got dad.

He loves me, but we didn't have a mom.

Dad cooks me pancake every morning and I go to school after, and daddy goes to his work.

His workplace is at our basement. I'm not allowed to go there because he don't want disturbance.

My Dad never told me what his work was, but it's making him happy and I'm happy too.

When my teacher asks me about dad's work, I say its our secret and she wont insist, she smiles and pat my head. I like her.

I shared it to daddy,

"I love Ms. Emma she's a great teacher dad." Dad smiled and said "I'd like to meet her someday, yoongi."

One day, I was so curious, my friends always wants to know my secret it annoyed me so I decided to do something I shouldn't have.

So I sneaked to the basement one night. Daddy hasn't come home yet. He buy fishes and veggies.

Going downstairs, I was surprised to see Ms. Emma down there she's sleeping so I made my way back and let her dream.

I never thought anything against about that scene.

Daddy came and later that night when I was asleep I heard noises downstairs. It was at the basement.

Maybe daddy is talking to Ms. Emma.

So I took a peak, I wanted to say Hi. But, Ms. Emma cried so I stood there watching daddy touch him.

Daddy said "My son, likes you so much. He had mentioned you."

Ms. Emma cried with a cloth stuffed in her mouth. She became restless and I saw that her hands we're tied as well as her feet.

She looked up to my dad with fear. Dad stood up, he walk around her and our eyes met. Ms. Emma and mine, her eyes screamed for assistance and help.

I realized, I didn't like Ms. Emma anymore. She's weak and helpless, I hated her gut. I didn't like the scene. But it got interesting when Dad stabbed her temple, and twisted it then stabbed deeper, blood oozed out and I felt an utter feeling of amusement.

Seeing the helpless Ms. Emma stop moving. It was like, a dream job. I wanted to do. Dad's job is good. I stood up giddily, ready to share this to my classmates tomorrow.

So I head back but a hand grabbed my arm, it's Dad.

"Did you see all of that?" he asked eyes dilated.

"Yes daddy, I'm sorry I woke up. " I explained.

"Are you shocked?"

"No daddy, why? Should I be?" I asked completely clueless.

"Don't tell anybody or daddy will be-- its a top secret okay. I- I didn't mean to do that okay?.." Daddy explained, completely strange, his hands we're shaking and his eyes were tearing up.

I reached to wipe Dad's tears, "Yes dad it's our secret." I mumbled, I know it was mean.

Dad kissed me and laughed hysterically, so I laughed to.

And by that time, I didn't know I looked at it wrong.