Chapter11: a nice day

Yesterday at night my father called me and told me to grab my thing because we were going to the beach.

We got there and my sister, my step sister and I got installed in our room it most have been like 11:00 pm or something so we just went to sleep.

In the morning everyone was having breakfast and when they asked me what did I wanted I just said: I'm not really hungry, had a big lunch yesterday so maybe I'll have a glass of milk.

The minute I said that everyone locked at me weird with a face that made me fell terrible about myself. And I thought fuck it give this weekend a chance. I went to my room and put a bikini on, I haven't worn one like in 2 years or even swimsuit or shorts. I was so stupid the minute I got out in my bikini my sister locked at me and said: only skinny people get to wear does. That fucking hurt me. I can't believe she said that. I decided this weekend was a lost cause.

After lunch we went to the beach and I felt really uncomfortable being there in a bikini.

We where sitting there and this group of boys arrived to the beach. Me and my sisters got so red and weird. The boys started to play football and joking around, my stepsister and sister tried to be a little flirty but I couldn't because I'm fat and ugly. After a couple of minutes I turn my eyes and look everywhere and I noticed a boy looking at me and when our eyes met he smiled and I got so uncomfortable so he smiled again.

Let me describe the boy, he was tall, golden curly hair, pink lips, sweet smile, light green eyes, no shirt and very nice to look at and he was wearing a sky blue short. He is very very handsome. He is perfect.

Now let me describe me, I'm not that tall, brown hair, brown eyes, black bikini with roses on it, and so fucking fat. Obviously not perfect.

When the sun started to get down and my parents were already gone, it was just my sisters and I. The sun went down and when I looked into the sky I felt freedom.

I didn't care about the boy.

I didn't care about being judged.

I didn't care about anything.

I could breath without guilt in my chest.

I ran and I ran in the shore, feeling the breeze in my face and it was wonderful, but of course the sun went down and I had to go home. Sadly things end and my little but happy moment had to end.

☀️btw I wrote this the day that says on top but I couldn't upload it because I didn't had internet.☀️