CURSES AND MEMORIES

I decided to have a repeat of what happened in the previous chapter for better understanding the chapters are in order just in different point of view sorry for any misunderstanding you may have.

Nightmares.

DEVARO POV

"Mother!!! Mother where is mama Ivory?"

"Where is Mama Ivory? What did you do to her? Ahhhh!"

"Shut up you worthless child!!"

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"Mama Ivory where are you? Why did you leave me all alone? You promised mama ivory, you promised"

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Some time's your memories can be your best dreams or your worse Nightmares

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He looked through a gap hole watching his mother and a man converse hastily.

"She's...... Gone"

"Need..... more... time"

"Kill..... them"

The little boy gaps turning around running to a dark room filled with the smell of antiseptic and herbs, thick leaves were prominent with their glowing steam only one stood out which he headed towards.

"You are the only one left that hasn't transformed"

"I think mother is going to kill you. I know you can't hear or understand me yet but am going to save you okay"

He withdrew a necklace from around his neck.

"Mama Ivory always say that there is magic in my blood and I can be like her if I believe"

"Mama Ivory is a Davister witch though she hasn't gotten her powers yet, she's still the coolest and more powerful than my mother"

He broke the pendant to reveal a pale purple leaf

"Mama Ivory said I should only use this in case of an emergency. I think mother killed mama Ivory"

His eyes were tearful. A drop fell down his chin

"Mama Ivory left me and now am all alone. I don't wanna be alone"

He ran to a table stretching up to take the knife laying on it.

"We are going to be good friends but you have to promise not to leave me too"

He cut his hand wincing at the pain, he used his other hand holding the pedal to rub all over his blood stained hand, crushing it before placing the hand on the thick leaf. He smiled a goofy grin, showing off baby teeths.

"Since we are going to be friends am gonna call you Igaro just like Devaro, you will be the gate keeper of the souls I devour"

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           I miss being a little kid with no stress, worries or care in the world only with the reminder that I have to stay alive to play with my best friend. I miss those childish days of long ago, when one day was as long as twenty three are now.

"Devaro good, Devaro my good friend"

Igaro groaned out voice snapped me out of my horrid memory something I would rather call a curse.

He stood as the warrior he was protecting a liar and weak being with memories or rather my curse that always rendered me alone.

My demons are far great than me, I tried to be normal. Worst twenty four years of my life.

After all these year that memory . The day my five years old self found and created my only friend and companion decided to come to me and how hard I tried to be normal in the land of madness.

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"Igaro!! mother is gone now we can play"

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         As I have said before, mother created the hybrids but for some reason she wasn't able to complete Igaro's transformation. so that's where little me came in. Even till this moment mother never knew how Igaro survived, she though he was a weak specimen and never put much value into him unknown to her it became more of a reason for our friendship to bloom. We were both seen as weak and useless under her eyes.

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"Igaro come meet the others fast before they leave for their mission, mother is sending them off with the other lycan demons to destroy a pack"

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         Mother didn't give him an army of demons to lead, she left him alone for me. He was there through out all my trainings with Erasmus, tending my wounds and making me laugh like I taught him.

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"No!!! mother please leave him alone you said he's weak so why do you want to send him out there"

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          At thirteen, I was the same height as mother but at that moment I was on my kneels begging my monster to spare my only friend's life.

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"You should have ended this before it blossom. Dear Alovia you have disappointed me"

A man held Igaro's arm in a tight grip looking disapprovingly at Alovia and Devaro. Igaro's silver gray eyes bore into Devaro's blue green eyes, face blank as a robot but soulful eyes screaming horror.

Alovia and Erasmus argued. Alovia was making it clear she wanted nothing to do with Devaro or the creature but Erasmus wasn't having any of that.

"Enough!! Reprogram this creature and send him far away I will deal with Devaro myself, do this or you can forget about our deal"

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        It's funny how a person can hurt you so much when you were expecting it in the first place.

Molly once asked Igaro, "How are you so close to Devaro? He doesn't seem like a good influence"

Igaro shook his head and said, "No. King Devaro good"

"King Devaro a micro biochemist, he smart, he teach you, your highness"

        Even after we were separated for ten year, Igaro never lost faith in me, he still considers me good and his only friend even now, he was willing to fight his mate and her family to save me... But why?

"No!! Devaro charmed. Devaro good"

He still saw good in me even after he was chained and beaten up almost to death, even after I just tried to mate with Melissa. He stood in front of me standing his grounds and blocking the twins from getting near me.

"What are you doing Igaro? Stand aside and let me finish his worthless life"

Melissa in her lycan form growled at him. Everything about her was sharp and deadly and ready to kill. Nobody understood why he suddenly started defending me when I was guilty for everything that had happened. Xander is dead and it was because of me.

"Igaro move aside"

She went Alpha mode on him, flaring her aura and trying to oppress him. He fought back, he fought harder despite the strain. The fact that he was her mate was a little leverage for him.

Melissa was stronger than him. His defense was weakened, the ground looked close to welcome his face.

"Melissa stop!!!"

Molly's voice at that moment was a relief. My breathing was laboured but still I raised my eyes to see the little human limping towards us. She some how was able to drag her bloodied body to stand in my front.

My brows started questioning her mentality.

"Molly stand back now, I have to kill this... This"

"Yet Devaro wouldn't have killed you a lot sooner"

My head jerked up at her words, brows squirting at what she might be trying to reach even Lyrick was intrigued. He didn't want to die by the hands of his family but I did because I had no family.

"What!!"

Not only Melissa but the others were shocked. Molly wasn't having it, she spoke with pure determination, fighting off my misunderstanding.

"You once said this yourself Devaro would never hurt you, he value the word family too much to hurt"

Mel's brows furrowed.

"This is different"

"How so?  He could have killed Igaro in the dungeon but he didn't, he could have killed Xander and the others in the warehouse but he didn't. He was charmed Melissa, charmed by the lord of the seven deadly sins, and even when he was charmed with so much jealousy, he couldn't kill you guys"

She gave out breathless breath still staring back after her needing her eyes pleading to change the topic so she could sleep, the troll of everything was making her eyes drowy, she was taking quite a risk causing me to see a different light in her that I had never seen. I cringe in pain of those times when I saw her as nothing but a weak human and how I tormented her greatly with my arrogant self.

She must be the change you wish to see in the world.

"Lydia needs you"

That she wolf was already wreaking havoc, the lost of a mate bond was the worst thing to happen yo anyone, I know I always wished Xander dead but that pit fire was a ball of life.

Molly was able to sway Melissa from killing me to help her heart broken friend who has gone missing wrecking havoc elsewhere at least just for the mean time.

Lyrick whines at the back of my mind wanting to speak to me but I shot him out I didn't want to listen to him.

All tense was slowing diffusing as Melissa turned to leave even Igaro who still stood like a statue in front of me began to relax. The air almost cut off me when Melissa suddenly stopped with a heavy sigh leaving her mouth.

'Was it time yet?'

Melissa only gave me a side glance from her shoulder, her glowing amber eyes that kept switching to gold pierced through my defeated ones.

Her tone wasn't soft neither was it harsh, it didn't hold the venom I wanted or the promise of later instead it was thick with an emotion I will never know, even her wolf howls in the tune behind her eyes.

"You were a fool to think like that. You were weak to fall into Erasmus trap when I have always considered you my brother, why did you think I spared your life and kept you close to me".

With that she left leaving me scattered with confused broken thoughts

Sometimes the memories are worth the pain, memories, my curse and my jealousy.

'Did?..... Did they?....'

Lyrick yip in relief and tried to talk to me once again, but I still couldn't not when Melissa's word dug holes into a heart I thought was dead and empty.

Never have I ever felt such shame. I am weak, I am a disappointment. I watch her leave with a shimmer of hope so none existent. Maybe mother was right after all.

Lyrick growls angrily at my thoughts but I couldn't help it.

'Why.... Why do I still keep living this life?'

I gaze back at the machine who considers himself my friend, who caused these breath of life to still flow through me.

"Why?... Why help me?"

Our eyes met each other, his silver grey eyes met mine with so much emotion it shocked me.

"Devaro good.... You are my friend"

The tears stung. He said a full sentence without my help, he...

I averted my eyes fast and shitty thoughts. Now wasn't the time to cry over spilled milk, I am a king, a king indeed.

I turned my gaze to Molly, the exhaustion held her tight as she slump on her mate who was trying to cover her wounds with a cloth. Without opening her eyes, I knew she felt my gaze and she was ready for me.

"If you are thinking of also asking me why, then save your breath cause I've got nothing to say to you. I just did what was right"

Foolish human indeed but now something else in my eyes. I smile at the thought even Lyrick was smiling at the back of my mind he was letting out tiny purrs and nudging me as she continued speaking. I guess it was his way of telling me to listen to the foolish human.

"You really believe you want to die.... but in reality, you want to be saved."

Those words shocked me because of all people minus Igaro who can't speak properly, Molly the foolish human saw through me what they never saw, yet still I want to fight and argue with her about that, I couldn't just let her see through me and my weakness.

Everyone has someone in their life that keeps them looking forward to another day but I have none, I have always been alone despite what Igaro tries to make me think otherwise.

Molly wasn't having any with me, even Micage had stopped moving to stare at her in awe as she continue ranting out, I could bet she was also visualizing touching images that only they alone could see.

Part of me is glad that I was the cause of that, I still can't understand why I didn't kill her back then when I knew she knew what was going on. I could have had Micage kill her but I didn't want him to be left heart broken when I knew how much he loved her, heck! I have no idea how I didn't kill all of them, It had been easy and under my finger tips but why still, A part of me thinks it was Lyrick's but another part knew it was all me

"Just because you have experienced pain doesn't mean you won't feel happiness again. Don't let the pain of your past effect the blessings in your future. Never let the pain from your past punish your present and paralyze your future".

'Oh Molly!!'

I gave her a subtle grin before it became real so real it shocked the on lookers.

"Let's commit the perfect crime, I steal your heart and you steal mine."

I couldn't help but comment, she was too close for comfort Micage angered growl was smoothing to me even though it shouldn't be.

She rolled her hazel eyes, the green in them light in mirth.

"Glad to see the sardonic jerk is still in there, You need to stop being so selfish and start caring about everyone else".

I caught the small smile tugging on her lip as I watched her closely in shock watching those lips turn downwards while she releases a wince.

'Where the hell was my geniuses when I needed it'.

"Let her drink from you Micage, the blood of a mate helps speed up the healing"

I don't want to know the future but as she said I just want to know now.

"Won't I turn into one of you guys"

I chuckle at her gullibleness. What a human thing to say.

"It takes more than just blood to become a Lycan, trust me I know this"

My eyes flicker to Igaro who was nursing his shoulder and also sending me watchful glances.

'Hmm Friends?'

I watch Micage waste no time in biting his wrist and feeding his mate his blood who was a little reluctant at first but drank from him, Just as I predicted I watched the slashes on her chest close up sure along with all her other injury.

She left out a relief sigh while licking her lips, I left out a chuckle at her behavior, sure enough she sent me a glare which I continued to chuckle at.

"Thank you"

Micage surprised me by finally speaking to me, even Molly was a little taken aback. I watch her furrow her eyebrow while staring intensively at him.

'Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple. I wasn't sure what he would say to me but I knew I would give him a direct answer'.

"Why did you?..… Why did you do it?"

I tense before letting out a harsh breath.

"That's like a million dollar question"

The glare from his blue eyes were sharp, for some reason it reminded me of father.

"We all were willing to accept you, heck I had already accepted Xander and Igaro as one of us but you.... You just locked up"

All was quiet as my heart beats echoes into the cold streets. Where nightmares and darkness begin to meet, Molly's voice brought back the light and memories.

"Cage!!!!"

She hissed lowly at him. He snapped back.

"What? I have the right to at least fucking know the answer to my questions, if am to at least forgive him"

Molly continued to glare at him while saying harshly.

"When you forgive, you in no way change the past but you sure do change the future. What is in the past is in the past let go of it"

Forgiveness is a funny thing. It warms the heart and cools the sting, the thought of them already forgiving me especially Molly well it was.....

"What if I don't want to forgive him. He's a fucking balls sorry excuse for a King, to continue our Father's line"

'Oh little brother, you never knew what type of man father really was but still you are right though'

"Because without forgiveness life is governed by... an endless cycle of resentment and retaliation"

"Cut the mojo craps and yoga lessons, Molly"

She released an annoyed breath.

"The lesson here right now is that you can still make mistakes and be forgiven"

My beast was already whining at the back of my head. It seems I have die after all.

"He is right Molly, I don't think I'm meant to be forgiven"

She let out an irritated cry.

"Well I believe forgiveness is possible for everybody, for everything. Other things may change, but we start and end with family".

"Since when did you become a budhist?"

Cage snapped.

"Since someone has to put your ass in line"

I was murmuring now, oh! The things these three do to me

"She took my throne, she made him council"

Cage scoff,

"She made you head council you moron"

"It was because Davis didn't take it"

He rolled his eyes

"Melissa planned to create her own legacy, its part reason why she recreated the council, she wanted you second ruler until she decided on what happens with her and Igaro"

I froze.

"I'll just call you a jealous, self centered, insecure fool. Insecurity is an ugly thing, it makes you hate people you don't even know".

I tense.

I really did fuck up

"Lissa looked up to you, she too has her past, Molly is right, Just because you have experienced pain doesn't mean you know a lot, she wanted that brotherly attachment from you two, heck I also wanted it, Cole wasn't that much of a good influence"

Shit!!

"Micage?"

         Just then the earth shook, it was like an avalcon disrupting a volcano. The was still dark out side, the moon shone through the high window in that hall. We all couldn't help but gaze up at it fell the coolness and the hypnotizing alue it sent, it was small and full like a new moon.

The earth shook again this time breaking a lot of thing and feeling like an earthquake, Molly had herself shields by Micage. Igaro had somehow shifted towards me using his body and taking more hits on his shoulder

We all stared out at the red moon, at the darkness, at the island that was rising.

The red moon was here and time was short and I still had so much to say.

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End of Devaro's pov now in third person pov........ Enjoy

            She found her but lost her, Lydia didn't want to be saved. She attacked her but Mel didn't have the heart to fight back, she wasn't herself  Mel was helpless on what to do, her world had just turned upside down over the next hour.

Friends are family you choose for yourself.

"Ly , Ly!!!"

A blood lust wolf was what she was., Mel could only hope to save her and help her heal. She headed back into the castle after shifting back into a pair of long shirt, she diverted her direction to the garden hoping she could at least relive herself before facing reality. Her heart was heavy, Unknown to her she could never hide from a figure yet alone her feelings.

"Igaro what are you doing?"

She tried pointlessly to stop the tears leaking down her chin. Igaro stared at her with a look that was close to a lost puppy. Without word he wrapped his arms around her pulling her into his embrace and letting the bond calm them both.

"Hold... Mate"

He whispered while boring his nose into her hair, breathing deeply.

"Oh! Igaro"

She broke her dam. She couldn't hide it from her mate. She cried her heart out. Xander was dead, she failed to protect him now Lydia her best friend was nowhere to be found probably out killing or getting killed and the world was at sake.

"I failed him, I failed both of them I don't deserve to save the world now I've lost him, I've lost Xander, my brother"

He comforted her the best he could. He was a machine void of emotions yet when it came to his mate the emotions was just too strong.

"I apologize mate"

She hiccup, burying more into his hold.

"For what?"

He withdrew from her kissing her breath out of her then her neck, she didn't know when his fangs grew and he bit her.

"Igaro what have you done? Why did you do it"

She gasped out before surrender to the pull and biting into his neck, their bond got tighter they felt each other like a pulse in their brain along with the strong urge to move to the next step.

He kissed her again, rambling loudly in approval.

"Mate mine not Devaro not pain"

Igaro was bothered as a mate should be, he was bothered when Devaro almost marked her, he was bothered with her feelings, her pain and he knew not the source, he was even worried now the war had started and there might be a possibility he may loose her.

She had hurt herself for the sake of others' happiness and she keep doing it like an endless circle but at that moment she carved that happiness with him.

The pain was still there, the tears still run down her face, and her heart was still breaking but still she needed her mate, his love, her forever.

"Lissa you need to go to Isha now"

Cage came storming in only to freeze at the scene in front of him. He had felt it through their bond, at first he was unsure but now seeing it.

"What have you two done?"

They weren't sure either. Mel couldn't even find it in herself to reprimand him or let go of his embrace.

Igaro was growling lowly in warning.

"I already marked Molly by accident which you also did too and we still don't know what it will cause and now you allow him to mark you"

His face was a wall of various emotion mostly shock and confusion.

"What do you feel?"

She answered his question with her own. They didn't have time for the blame game.

"Nothing, somehow I don't feel the need to mark him also"

It was strange. All too strange but Micage was right she needed to go to Isha and they both had a list of surprises they had to figure out.

The worst feeling is saying goodbye to someone you want to spend every minute with.