Chapter 20 Coming Out

Finally I just gave up in admitted that I'm more attracted to females then males. Lisa told me I knew you was I don't know why you feel the need to lie about what you like. I understand how you feel about it because the people around you always telling you you going to hell for your sin.

But I tell them there's sins that's worse then the one you committing. I just turn the other cheek in keep walking cause at the end of the day you like it I love it. So we went out to turn up to celebrate my out coming, but the only thing that got me was how was I supposed to tell my mama and my daughter I like women.

The next day came I sat my mama in my daughter and everyone that was around me that supposed to be my family in I told them I like women. I was called all kinds of names but the name of Jesus. My mother and my daughter was still by my side but everybody else seen me an embarrassment to the family.

I went on my way cutting all of them out my life. I felt like the black sheep in the middle of a circle of white sheep's. Didn't nobody want me in the family after what my father did to me, I became bitter after all that I been through. I learned to be independent in stayed away from all family I never felt the need to be loved by them any more.

I had my own family that stood by my side even through my rough times. I ran into Jazz look i need to go get high to ease my mind you want to smoke or snort I told her both so we did both but she did a little extra that didn't do. And I can say through me and Jazz friendship she never in her life ask me do I want to smoke the extra with her in I loved her for that.

One thing about Jazz she did what she do but she never wanted me to go down the path she was going down she always threaten me to do better for her niece. So one day I called up my old school friend Chris. Man whats up big bear where the hoes at? My sister got a friend you might like her name is Baebae in she is cool peoples. He put on three way in we talked for a little while i got her number from him and all.

I started dating her around i can say a month or so we got to know each other we wrote each other love letters. So after the years we became official after a year of knowing each other. But before that year i had got to see her for the first time. She was all shy in nervous i was all flirty and things. so the day she finally came in i got to see her i was like wow.

I started licking my lips because best believe i was gone get some before she left my house. So she had on this dress with no draws on in i was like dam mmmmmm. she was like what oh nothing so she kept playing with my hot spots on my neck area. Erica whats wrong? you keep playing I'm going to fuck you right here i bet you not okay says Erica.

She hit it for the last time next thing you know her in that dress is up in I'm making her moan. Why you playing Erica? told you I'm not no teaser so she grab my head dam stop that means go. I keep going she started scratching I'm so got going in went in to half of a beast mode. Before i knew it she had done nutted all down my chin in face all on my shirt.

Dam girl what you know you ain't right doing that to me like that what you mean Baebae you play to much knowing how to get what you want. You right i do but i bet you go home feeling good in you gone sleep good tonight. You right i am so i get a call from my big bear Chris so i heard you got that Dr feel good.

Bol what you mean Chris ooh she told my sis after she left she said she was weak in the legs in didnt want to leave. Said you gave her that ooooooo weeeeeeee I bol really Chris? yeah girl she told us all the details she said you took it. No i didn't she gave it to me when that leg went up in that cat was out with no cover. Bol what Chris im just saying what it mean when you come prepared.

I'm not gone let you leave without a good memory of me in your dreams at night. So Chris bol dam dog you doing it like that? hey its me i do whatever pleases her. so as time went by me and bae bae had our days of ups and downs but we never got to the point to where we just stop messing round. One day bae bae called me what's up bae? nothing chilling waiting on baby girl bus in missing you.

Awwwwww i miss you to bae so you coming over this weekend or nah. Yeah we coming over so mind me in her been together for a year or two by then. She came over we had a great time so a course we put the kids to bed in i went to eating. i had scratch marks all on my back in arms. We decide to spice it up with strawberry cheese cake i ate it of that body plate it wasn't nothing she even got worse then that when i went to eating it off.

We went to the bathroom in took a shower couldn't help my self had to eat it in the water but she kept running i got her in the corner she couldn't move no more in she nutted all over me just got back in the water bath in was at it again later. Then one night the babies was supposed to been sleep i told bae get on my face in ride so soon as she got up there we was at it next thing you know i see a little one she fell off like we wasnt doing nothing so then the little one went back out.

I ask did she see anything i hope not cause i was trying to suck the soul outta you. We went back at it in finished up. Our weekend ended very well she went home in sleep until its was time little mam to go to school. So as time went on we keep doing what we do best. Until this one night she gets a phone call from some girl. I spoke to the chick hey bae hey i miss you and love you so you do yeah.

Me being Erica hey bae bae your girl called you i hope she makes you happy. From that day I already knew it wasn't gone last cause my trust was gone. Now this is when its a wrap for me being faithful period, this the time i decided its no more Mr Nice Guy.