MOMENTS TO ETERNITY

He entered through the open door. On the cozy window divan, Mia and Bliss sat with fluffy cushions around them.

Saiph felt strangely blameworthy. Of course Mia wanted to question him about everything , but it made him stand in convict's position.

" Mia " he said standing far away from them.

" hey Saiph, I hope you weren't busy " she turned around to look at him.

" No.. Ahm.. Just Usual things " he cleared his throat.

" what's up these days anyway? " only Mia was talking. Bliss was comfortably sitting , unwrapping chocolate balls and filling her mouth with them. Unconcerned about her surroundings.

" nothing much. How are you? " he was stumbling over his words.

She shook her head . It killed Saiph to even imagine what she could mean .

" Mia,  I am... "

" you had dinner with him .."

" yes and I... "

" so just tell me what I need to know! "

Mia cut his words.

His searched her eyes for the questions .

" what.....  do you want to know? " he asked.

" how things led to this? " she said emotionally.

" I am sorry for what happened , I have no idea about ...

" why he got fired? "

" because.... " he looked away to think " I don't really know .... I just got a letter..

" he worked for you, no-one else had to do anything with it " her voice got louder. Bliss raised her eyes and looked at Saiph, as she was also interested to know.

" but I didn't appointed him for myself. See I don't choose people who work for the company. " he explained.

"but you do choose who work for you "

" I can accept or reject the people I am provided with "

Mia became quite. Bliss blankly looked in Saiph's eyes.

Saiph indicated her to help. She carelessly shrugged that she can do nothing and attended to her chocolates box in her lap.

" are you in a fight with someone? " Mia asked.

" umm.. No. Not like someone will try to... " he stopped because he didn't want to say bring up the death of Blue.

" things don't make sense, do they? " Mia said to herself.

" what do you suggest? " 

" I know for sure Saiph, he wasn't meant to die. " she stared at him . He stood with dismayed eyes.

Bliss helped her to get up, she slowly walked toward the door. Saiph held her hand to support her to walk in such heavy pregnancy.

While standing in the door Mia said :" happy new year ".

Saiph softly said :" you too " his voice was burdened.

He closed the door slowly and placed his head on the door.

" now what happened to you? " Bliss said with her mouth full.

" what happened?  Can't you see she thinks I am to blame " he was tensely rotating the doorknob.

"psh " she unwrapped another one " she needs time, she is grieved "

He ignored the words, he was too distressed to be calmed down.

" you wrote down your resolutions? " she asked.

" grow up Bliss " he muttered .

" haha, are you for real?  "

" this women just told me that I am responsible for the death of his husband, and you think it's a joke ?" he yelled.

" I just said that she is upset, and also she didn't even say anything like that! " she got up angrily.

" what else  she meant then!?" he said sarcastically.

" can't she say anything to the person who shared the same poisoned food with her dead husband, and is still alive? "

He stared at him bitterly.

" Thankfully " Bliss added to make it sound better.

" no Bliss I see, I should have been dead, right? " he said moving toward her.

" I didn't say that " she said with a low voice.

" you don't need to say it. I understand." he said crisply.

" chocolate? " .

He gave her a look, without answering.

" you know why you are such a hothead?  Because your name means fire ." she laughed.

" what? " he mumbled.

" Aidan . It is the...

" OK stop. Please " he looked at her with repulsive eyes.

" what's your second name, by the way? " she didn't bother to obey.

" I said stop it Bliss " he said furiously 

She looked down in annoyance.

Her eyes fell on his hand. It was not like usual after cuts and burns, there were patterns of scars. She curiously tried to poke it.

" what's this? "

As she attempted to tap his hand, he lifted it in a sudden jerk to avoid it , her hand was thrown at her face and the nails cut her lip. Very thin line of blood appeared at the corner of her top lip.

Saiph intensly bewildered, and deep in regret , went in awe.

" oh my God, I.." he spontaneously held her face, " I am so sorry " .

He slowly realized her fingers are on her lips, and his thumb is in between the slightly opened mouth.

His heart suddenly started to beat faster, it won't be right to move away from her, but nor he could stand like that.

He touched that minor cut and the blood stained his finger. He was afraid to look in her eyes for what they might be expressing. He kept looking at her lips, the blood had lost somewhere in the redness of the whole.

He didn't know he wanted to or not, but he bent down and kissed her . He held her lip which was cut between his own ,as softly as he could. He felt the warmth of her mouth and as soon as he realized he wanted it and he could loose control if he continued. He let go  . He remained there with his lips touching hers, as if making a hard decision. Then he lifted his head, now Bliss lips in contact to his neck

" I am sorry " he said and stepped back.

Just as last year, when Saiph left and she felt cold without his warmth, she again felt that cold.

She didn't want to be his girl, she didn't has any feeling for him either. But she felt a need, after loosing everyone, everything and facing life alone without anyone to call her own, she felt tired.

She needed someone badly, to tell her he loves her sometimes , to hug her . She fell in love with idea of him, just being there for her. Someone who stand close to her and make her feel supported.

Someone, anyone,  she suddenly longed for love.