Chapter 6:

He carries on walking without knowing where to go and signs of sadness are very clear in his face, it's more complicated than he thought, he sighs and tells to himself: "I wish I stayed with my machines, the thing I'm good at, better than being here lost and confused" Evidently he'll hear an answer from his brain:

• "You were born brilliant in machines John and this is something good and exceptional but what is the best is when you make yourself brilliant in something that you're bad in, that one is a real brilliant; it's not enough to be good in one thing, you have to search and find new things, learn more and arrive to control a lot of things especially those you're bad in.

• Listen, I don't mean to be insolent or anything like this and I totally agree with what you're saying but please when I'm in this situation don't add to me; when I'm like this, I hate to hear moral lessons because I don't listen to them even. I can't even explain myself or what I want to say, this is exhausting.

• Don't worry I understand you, don't forget that what you are thinking is turning in me so I know clearly what you want to say; the fact that you're in me makes me kind of out of you for that I can advice you without your pessimism and stubbornness interrupt me else I couldn't. It's philosophic again.

• Yeah, I can see that; I didn't know you are found of philosophy, it's something new.

• Not really, we just weren't in a philosophic situation before to make you see this part of you but knowing you I can say surely you'll like it.

• If it's something that I'll get, I'll like it right, but if like your one "me in you and you in me" and all this stuffs, no.  

• You didn't get that one?

• I did but I still don't like it".

Then he turns emotional and says:

• "It's really not easy as I thought, all this complications just to avoid feelings and getting hurt, I don't know what to think or how to act anymore, I'm just tired of everything and want the life to stop, I wish I can observe myself from far to analyse my situation to find the right from the wrong; being in me doesn't change anything, I'm still emotional.

• I can't get emotional because I'm made this way but as I see not all the decisions should be taken logically, sometimes the decisions that are taken by emotions are the right ones; this is humans' nature, you can't be a rock because you just are not. Nothing in this world is made just like that John, it has been calculated for everything and I believe that if you were not created this way there would be something messing and even you...you won't like yourself that way.

• I didn't see this positive part of you before, where has it been?

• It was always in you but you didn't let yourself see it, you didn't accept it.

• Uh...I just hate women, I hate what I am now because of here, I hate feelings, I hate getting hurt, I hate getting disappointed, I hate lies; I just hate the woman who gave birth to me, this resumes everything.

• In women I can't help you, you should talk to a woman to have explanations and answers about what you want to know, they used to say "women are very complicated".

• I can see from where I got this complication, she didn't find anything to leave it to me only her complication, damn.

• I believe that they are more complicated than you. Anyway, I see a solution that may help you a lot but I'm pretty sure you will not agree.

• Just don't tell me face your feelings and admit them.

• Exactly! You see, you know the solution but you are very stubborn that you prefer staying in pain all your life than facing your problems and have pain only in that moment then have a rest forever that's not wise at all. I always think about your future when I give you advices, I just see what will be good for you after and make you happy, I agree that it's not easy in the present moment but everything needs sacrifices; nothing is easy in this life, nothing at all.

• I'm really getting convinced that I'm not talking to my brain, you're seriously surprising me after you got the signal back; did anyone flash you?

• You'd better focus on what I'm saying than telling your jocks, that if you want to move on and be happy. Anyway try what I told you, you have nothing to lose; who doesn't try anything wins nothing.

• You seem wiser than you used to do.

• I'll take that as a compliment.

• It is".

He walks in minutes of silence then says:

• "Since I'm stuck here I don't know where to go and you don't know what's next, why don't you take me in a round?

• A round?

• Yeah, I'll see the different parts of my brain and see what's happening in it, I'll get to understand things better, perhaps; I'd like to visit the music part too, this time I'll sing with it.

• What happened suddenly? I mean you were just boiling from anger when you hear the voices and you weren't in the mood and now you want to sing with it?

• You clearly said "weren't" which means in the past but now I'm better, I think I figured that mood out, I feel better now and I'm bored, I have nothing in my mind to do now and don't know where to go so I want to do something.

• Fine, as you wish but when you arrive to a crossroad remember to listen to me and do what I say, try hard to control yourself and make sure to do the right choice. I'm always here for you, I'll never cheat you don't forget that.

• From the way you're saying it I really need to prepare myself, you made me feel like I'm going to a war.

• It's not my point, I'm just trying to make you not listen to those voices and worn you from them.

• I know but you were so serious that I feel like it's going to be dangerous.

• I'm always serious, no?

• That's right. Tell me now, where are we going?

• Exactly where you are, turn and walk.

• Okay, after this I'll do what?

• Keep walking and I'll tell you once you should turn because as you see you're in a complete white you can't see roads or distinguish directions.

• That's right again. Then while I'm walking I'll prepare myself for the negative thoughts' voices.

• That might help.

• "Might"? You know that this is remote possibility, you want to say however hard I try it's not going to work?!

• Right where you are, turn left.

• By the way where are you taking me?

• The information part.

• Is it the part responsible of keeping the information I know and those I learn when I search and all those stuffs?

• That's right, it's exactly the one.

• Amazing! That's what I call something exciting.

• Don't expect a lot John or you're going to be disappointed.

• Right, by expecting a lot I may be disappointed but I have the right to be excited, don't I?

• Now you begin to be a human.

• What do you mean? Was I an animal before? Or a plant?

• You know it's not what I mean. If you watch yourself before and now you'll see a difference and that's a good changing".

John answers seriously:

• "You know what? Sometimes you make me feel that you are not only my brain, you make me feel like you are a person who've been watching me and now is advising me until I change, you make me feel like you and me are not the same at all" Then he adds sarcastically: "Wait a minute, can it be...not my brain? I mean...did I travel to someone else's brain? Or...does that machine not work? I mean this can be someone's tentative to change me or I don't know" With this words a real smile appears on John's lips then he laughs. For the first time after years he laughs, the trip wasn't so bad for him at the end.

• "You're proving my point of view but now you should turn serious, turn right" the brain says.

• "A crossroad again, I expected that".