S4 Episode 10- I don't deserve you... I never did:

I finally had the courage to let go, to give in. There was obviously no way I could get out of the vicious inevitable death from this... Thing. I let its devious hands curl around me allowing it to sink me in with no mercy.

There was no begging... No pleading... No wailing... Nothing.

Lights flickered on and off and floated from side to side until suddenly, all the fuses broke and the electricity went off. It felt no more like a home, but more like a horror game. The next thing that I was expecting was for a killer monster to come after me with high-speed whilst crawling but what was the point of running away from a destined death?

"Taehyun?..." I could hear my father's voice from downstairs call out, my heart beating out of remorse. Why didn't I fight back?

My wrists were clenched inwards as a sudden rush of adrenaline flowed through my veins. I tackled it, trying to find a weak spot, some part, any part that was sensitive enough for them to release their grip; not for me, for my father.

But with every hit, every kick, every bite I made, it only seemed to make them stronger, there was nothing I could do.

My father was going to cry every single tear from his body out until his death when he realises I'm gone. And it'll be all be MY fault for not trying hard enough to begin with.

I could hear his voice echoing into my room as he walked up the groaning stairs.

"Taehyun? Where are you, son?".

...His voice.

"Please, I'm sorry for going too hard on you. Can I at least know you're okay? I need to know whether you're safe or not".

...I'm going to miss you.

"Please, Taehyun" I heard the croaking in his voice, only making me feel so much worse inside as though blackness had already consumed me whole.

I love you so much... I'm sorry, I wish I could've been a better son. I really don't deserve a father like you...

I never did to begin with...