CH: 17 MY PAIN

I woke up around 7:00 am in the morning and went to the washroom to wash my face and to brush my teeth after that I headed towards the kitchen and boiled some water and filled my bottle with it and went for a jogging to breathe some fresh air.

I jogged around 14 laps of the park and when I was my way back to home I remembered that guy who sang in the music room I was missing his voice and that I was missing the feeling I had listening to him it was so wonderful and then I checked my playlist because I remembered that I once recorded his song.

I played it and listened it till I reached back to home. After I reached the home I went to bath and I was relaxed after I took the bath and then I went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast and asked Jacob to join me he brushed his teeth first and then joined me to breakfast.

After breakfast I helped him to take a bath and when we were finished with the bath I asked him to sit on the bed and brought the medicine kit so that I could apply it on his wounds. I knew it was of no use because those wounds were old now but then also I wanted to apply medicine on them in the hope that it will heal fast.

He sat shirtless on the bed and I slowly applied medicine on the wounds which were already dry. He didn't even wince in pain because I believe these wounds didn't cause any more pain to him at that moment. After I covered every single wound with medicine he wore his shirt and then said "it's almost time to go, when will you leave for the market." "oh I forgot to tell you he said that he will reach a bit late because he got some work to do, maybe around half an hour late." I said and he nodded in response and said "ok!" and I then asked him to take the medications and then went outside the room and he also followed me. We sat on the dining table and he said "Mason if you are okay can I ask you something?"

"Yes, Hyung."

"What happened to your parents?"

I hesitated a bit but then I decided to say it to him because he was not that kind of person who will try to show extra kindness or sympathy or will act too soft when he'll know the reason of the death just like those girls who cling to me asking the cause and even though I didn't tell them the reason then also the acted they are so sorry and sympathetic towards me.

"My dad committed suicide because he was going through depression and because of that my mom got and heart attack." I spoke and breathed heavily as it was the first time telling someone about the misery I went through "it was a really bad time for me, I was all alone no one was there to help me at that moment, even though I called out for support that time but no one came out of the crowd, those people in the crowd were not more than the black statues who just stood there and show sympathy towards me. I didn't want their sympathy I wanted their support which they were denying to give and that time I realize no one is there for you in this world you have only yourself." After that I went quiet it was like opening up my heart to someone it was like removing a burden from my shoulders because it was really reliving I felt much better after sharing that to him.

He was still looking at me and then said "Mason, no matter how dark your past was the future still awaits for you." And after that, he smiled and continued "no one supported you that time doesn't mean no one will do that in the future also, and never forget that you have me now, you just have to call me out and I will always be there for you just like an elder brother and a friend do."

After hearing that my heart melted and I smiled back to him and nodded "Thanks, Hyung."

"Oh! It's almost time we should leave now otherwise we will be late." He said looking at the wall clock.

I smiled and said, "you go outside the house I will check the stoves and other things and will lock the door, you wait for me outside." I completed my words and he replied with a yes and went outside the house. I checked everything and then locked the door after taking the key of my motorbike

Jacob was standing outside looking at the scenery out there, playing with his fingers and he was almost startled when I called him out, "Hyung."

"Oh, it's you I almost startled. "He said and I laughed a bit because his expression was so funny the shocked face was really beautiful.

"Sorry, for that I was calling you to ask you to open the gate so that I can take out my motorbike."

"You have a motorbike; I thought you had a cycle."

"I actually have both of them this motorbike is my dad's bike."

He made an expression of realization and said "wait I will open the door." And then he went away to open the door. And I took out my motorbike outside. After he closed the door again he jumped on my bike and I turned on the motorbike. I started driving, and was driving in a quite slow speed. But then I start driving fast as it feels so good, when the air rustle around your ears. And at that time I forgot that Jacob was sitting behind me.

I was so crazy while speeding that I almost reaches at 90km/h and suddenly I felt a pair of arms wrapped around my waist and I heard Jacob, "Please! Slow down a bit am afraid. "I skipped my heartbeat or I can say my heart dropped at that moment, because of those hand wrapped around me. I slowed down a bit and at the slowing speed Jacobs hand also started lessening. He was about to remove his hand but I put one of my hands on his hands and said "you can hold onto me." And it was successful because Jacob didn't remove his hands and then I started the conversation.

I asked "which mobile store you are going to?"

"We are haven't thought of any particular but maybe MOBI STORE because I can have a second-hand phone from there plus the shop belongs to Eddie's uncle so we might get a discount too. That's why I asked Eddie to join me to buy the phone."

That was a relief to me, because I thought he didn't want my help because he don't think of me as a proper or good friend. But there were still some questions which were unanswered. We chatted on the way to the store, not about families but about school stuff.

After a while when we reached the store we bid each other with wide smiles and he went inside the store I was about to leave when I saw Eddie going into the same store. "I knew he would be here then why I am not ready to accept Jacob being with Eddie," I spoke to myself and went away from there.