Chapter 10 Your not alone. (truth) Your Always alone...

(Sunday)

I walked slowly down the stairs until I reached the bottom floor of our house. i was wearing a white and a black thin striped longsleeved shirt. along with some Gray pants. and my hair was tied with a creamy white scrunchie in a low ponytail.

My parents where not around they where out. I felt so lonley.. I rested my back on the wall. and I sat down. I sat there for a few moments my mood getting low.

Then I got up and made a Milo. And walked lonesome around the house. Then sat on a black leather couch n the family area. I looked around hopeing someone was with me...

I listened... Nothing... I put my elbows on my knees and rested my face in my palms.

I'm so alone... I listened for anything one more time... Nothing... "Why? Why do I have to be so isolated?". "Normal teens don't have a life like this!". I wispered. I felt tears welling in my eyes. I rememberd the kids at school who would bully me for crying and being weak..

"Your so Weak". they would all say and laugh at me because I was skinny. These words still hurt me, even after so many years. I managed to hold them back. This Hurt me so bad. I wished I had someone with me.

I looked around... No one there. "I must be loseing my mind". Tomorrow was a school day. I diddent really want to go.. but I diddent have a choice really...

"My whole childhood I've spent alone". "I didn't want the same for my teen life but here we are..". I wispered.

"none of this would have happened if I wasn't even born".

I just sat there alone.. I sat there hoping to feel someone wrap their arms around me and hug me comfortingly. Telling me that I'm not what I'm thinking. Telling me that everything was going to be ok...

but nothing...

I put my consumed empty Milo glass cup in the sink along with my spoon. Then I sadly walked upstairs alone... 14 years I've spent as an only child... And I'm still alone to this day...

This is enough to drive a person mad... Even me..

- My heart can't take this Damage... And the way I feel can't stand this - Unknown