Chapter 4

I refused to get up from bed that morning , I couldn't sleep well , all I've been thinking of  the way he began to treat me , I couldn't get it ,why is he that nice and thoughtful ? as I was putting my clothes on , I heard that ping from my phone , it was a text from him , he said that he will pick me up in 30 minutes , are we dating or something ? I thought ,  I waited for him , my body was trembling and my hands were sweating , I saw him coming , smiling at me ; good morning beautiful he said , I gasp , I couldn't respond ,then I shouted at him ; what's wrong with you ? I can't get it , why are you doing this , am I a joke to you ?

He looked at me shocked as he saw a ghost , and whispers ; I'm sorry I bullied you , I'm sorry I was a dick , I don't know but you seem nice and I want us to be friends . being friends with my crush was tempting , but he made my days hell for months , he took my hand and I let him enroll his fingers around mine , I looked into his eyes and he lean down to kiss me but I didn't let him , I wanted to take my time so I can think straight , as we approach our high school he let go of my hand and told me that he needed to go somewhere before class , I knew that he began to smoke but his lips tasted much better when he doesn't , I sighted of exhaustion , I couldn't believe I'm already running of energy , I saw one of my friends and join him on the road , he was talking but my mind was lost , I was thinking about him , and how I should behave , I couldn't even talk about this to Sal or Douae , I wouldn't bear them judging my own choices , and I want to be friend with him , I need him in my life ,and I'm going do that assignment with him , I believe that if he really wants me ,we will be together , little did I know , that  I knew what will come next , at 6 pm , I was excited to go to the extra classes , so I can have some quality of time with him , as I got out from school a guy stopped me , he was one of the seniors , he was kind of cute

_hey can we talk?  He asked, I looked at him perplex

_ yeah sure , but I should go I have classes after school , I said quickly , he was that kind of guys that make you may feel really good and comfortable with . So he smiled and nodded, he suggested to join me on the road and I accepted.

_ You didn't come yesterday , were you sick ? my jaw dropped , I looked at him , he avoided my eye contact and he blushed in a way I just wanted to hug him , but I held back , and I just told him how tired and sick I was , and sad because I didn't come the day of the valentine .

_ I had something for you yesterday , and I even bring it with me , if I had the chance to give it to you, if it isn't too late for it  he said blushing even more , I smiled at him

_it's okay, as long as we breathe it's never too late  , he hand me a book , a letter and a box of chocolate . happy valentine

_ thanks , what is this for ? 

_ read the letter I wrote my phone number is in there , see you soon , and he went away .

I arrived to the classes and saw Neil who was waiting for me _ hey I said

He smiled and winked at me , for the first time he sat next to me , he made me laugh with his naughty jokes , I remembered the chocolate I had in my back pack and gave him some , you bought it in your way ? he asked , and I told him about the senior guy , and the first thing he said was ; do you like him ? I told him the truth , that in a way even though he was cute and lovely I don't like him . he smiled and nodded satisfied , we ate and for the first time someone took me home , it was him . he kissed me on the cheek and went away , we agreed to meet tomorrow after noon at his place to do the assignment . How a long day , I'm glad it ended , as I opened our door I saw him in our hall , and I tried no to faint , I felt my blood quit my brain …