Chapter Four: “Feelings”

I returned home with this big smile on my face, I couldn't believe what just happened with Chris. As I returned home the only thing I could think about was writing all of this down for an idea of a new romance novel I've been working on for a month now, and finally I have my plot. I got home, I went to my room and opened my computer, I couldn't stop typing, all these ideas I had on mind couldn't stop coming.

I wrote the first five chapter's on my novel, all about the love of my life, Chris. I couldn't stop thinking about him, our kiss under de snowy tree, his lips, the way he grabbed me while he kissed me. Minutes later I got a call from some old friends I have here in Boston, they invited me to go have some drinks with them over at Joe's Bar and they invited Chris too, I haven't seen my friends since I moved to L.A. five years ago.

I went down to the living room and my mom was waiting for me at the kitchen, I had this big smile on my face, I couldn't stop thinking about Chris. My mom noticed something strange in my behavior.

-"are you okey sweetheart?" she asked.

-"yes, I'm fine mom. I'm just happy." I replied while I couldn't stop giggling.

-"why are you so happy?" she asked.

-"Chris and I kissed today.''

My mom was so happy, she got up from her chair and went to hug me as hard as she could, she always knew Chris and I would eventually end up together somehow. She called my dad and asked him to come downstairs, I told her not to tell him about Chris because I still don't know what that kiss meant. My dad came downstairs and asked my mom what was going on and as she remembered me asking not to tell him, she reminded my dad about having diner with my brothers friends tomorrow. As I remembered me going out for drinks tonight with my friends, I had an idea of inviting Chris over tomorrow for dinner, I asked my parents if it was a good idea for me to invite him and they agreed.

It was 9pm and the time has come for me to go out with my friends, and ask Christopher if he wanted to have dinner tomorrow night with me and my family.

My best girlfriend Veronica came to pick me up, I haven't seen her in two years now, she's the only friend that has gone to visit me at L.A. in these five years. Veronica has lived in Boston her entire life, she loves this place, and I even heard she has a new boyfriend she didn't talk to me about.

-"how are you lill? We haven't talked in forever!" she said surprised.

-"I'm fine, how are you? How's the new boyfriend?'' I asked doubting.

-"fine. He's just a busy man. He's coming tonight, I'm dying for you to meet him!" she said excitedly.

We got to Joe's Bar and greeted all of my friends, I was happy, I ordered a round of drinks on me for everyone to start on the mood,. Christian hasn't arrived yet.

I wanted to meet Veronicas boyfriend but he hasn't arrived yet, neither has Chris. While I was calling Chris, he's number was occupied and I went to ask Veronica about her boyfriend and she was on the phone with her boyfriend so I didn't interrupt her. Twenty minutes later Chris arrived, as i was getting up from my chair to go hug him, Veronica pushed me down and went to hug hm first and gave him a not friendly kiss on the lips. I was paralyzed, shocked. I wasn't understanding what was going on. While they kissed Chris saw me and pushed Veronica away, I went running to the bathroom and Veronica called my name but I ignored. I entered the bathroom to analyze what had happen.

Why didn't he tell me about Veronica?

Why didn't Veronica tell me it was Christian who she was dating?

I went out the bathroom and I knew I had to be supportive about their relationship, only for Veronica. I had never told Veronica I loved Chris, this is one of my biggest secrets, but it not her fault, she didn't know. I went out the bathroom and I sat down next to my friend Dave, Chris was looking at me all night. Veronica came towards me and asked me if I was surprised about them dating and I told her that I wasn't. I had a great night with my friends and I left early, before I left Chris had asked me if he could take me back home, he wanted to talk. I said no. I couldn't do that to Veronica, she's my best friend. As he was asking to take me home, Veronica had told me that I should go with Chris because she couldn't take me, she was too drunk and our friend Dave offered to take her himself. I got on his car and I tried to ignore him the entire night.

-"why? why didn't you tell me about Veronica?" I asked with a cracked voice.

-"I thought you already knew." He answered nervously.

-"well I obviously didn't Christopher, she wanted it to be a surprise, and it was. You didn't even talk about her the entire..." he interrupted me and said.

-"I don't love her Lily. I don't. You have to believe me."

I believed him, but I still didn't want to hurt Veronica, she actually cares about him. I gave him an ultimatum.

-"look Chris, I don't want to be in your love triangle. You will have to choose between me o her." I said hoping he would choose me.

-"I can't do that right now, Veronicas parent's are getting a divorce and I have to be there for her. I can't dump her right now, you have to understand."

-"mr. and mrs. Wilson? Since when?" I ask shocked and sad for Veronica.

-"for a while now, she doesn't want to talk about it with anyone. Please don't tell her I told you."

As I felt sad for Veronica, I couldn't stop being mad at Chris, he lied to me and he didn't tell me they were together. I don't want to be in the middle of his love triangle. We arrived at my parent's house and I got out of the car, I didn't say goodbye, he got off his car and ran towards, he grabbed me, turned me around and kissed.

-"don't ever do that again."