Chapter 6:

LET GO BACK TO REALITY ... THATS WHAT I THOUGHT.. IN MIND .. WHILE I WAS GROWING UP WITH A RELIGIOUS FAMILY WAS PRETTY MUCH HARD ... HOW I STATED IN CHAPTER 3..

MY RELIGIOUS WAS CALLED THE CHRISTIANS.. THE EYES OF GOD AND WHAT STEPS HE GUIDES YOU ..

IT WAS LIKE ANY RELIGIOUS .. THATS WHAT I THOUGH BUT WASN'T YOU WERE LIMITED OF WHATEVER YOU DID OR WANT TO ACCOMPLISH..

ALL OF MY LIFE I WAS HIDING INTO SOMETHING I DIDN'T WANT TO BE ... I WAS LIKE LITTLE NUN ...

I GREW UP WITH OUT KNOWING WHAT IS LIFE ... HOW DO YOU FACE IT BY YOURSELF OR THE HELP OF SOMEONE ...

PEOPLE THOUGH DIFFERENT ...

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WHEN I FIRST MET MARCOS HE WAS THE SWEETEST MAN THAT BROUGHT HAPPINESS IN MY SYSTEM .. HE WAS SO FUNNY ... THE DAY WE WENT TO THIS AMAZING CAFFEE PLACE ... WE JUST TALK ABOUT ROUND OF STUFF ... LIKE LIFE... WE DID 20 QUESTION OF KNOWING ...

FLASHBACK ...

MARCOS- WHATS YOUR AGE HERMOSA

ME - I' M 17 ALMOST 18 AND YOU CUTIE - I WOULD GIGGLE A LITTLE LIKE A LITTLE GIRL GETTING HER ATTENTION ..

MARCOS -I'M 18 - HE TAKES A SIP OF HIS MOCHA FRAPP..

ME - ITS MY TURN ... WELL LET ME SEE... - I WAS THINKING SOO LONG THAT I WAS SCRUNCHING MY NOSE LIKE BUNNIES DO ... ...PULL MY GLASSES BACK UP - SORRY .. I'M. JUST A LITTLE NERVOUS

MARCOS- CHUCKLES A LITTLE.. GIVES ME A WINK - YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE NERVOUS HERMOSA... JUST SPILLED IT ... OR YOU WANT TO LET OUT SOMETHING THAT IS HURTING YOU ..

ME - I'M SORRY FOR ASKING .. BUT ARE YOU REALLY RELIGIOUS.... - I WAS BLUSHING .. I WAS RED LIKE A TOMATO I THINK HE NOTICE

MARCOS - I' M GOING TO BE HONEST WITH YOU I GREW UP IN A FAMILY THAT WE AREN'T REALLY RELIGIOUS... BUT I'M CATHOLIC.. JUST CATHOLIC AND YOU - HE LOOKS AT ME WITH THOSE SEXY GREEN CARAMEL EYES .. THAT COULD MAKE ANY GIRL MELT IN THAT INSTANCE ... I THINK THAT WOULD BE ME ..MY LEGS ARE WEAK AS FUCK .. MAYBE A LITTLE WETT.. JUST KIDDING I HAVE THOSE SEX PHRASES IN MY MIND IF MY MOTHER HEARD ME SHE WOULD SLAPPED THE SHIT OUT OF ME ...

ME- I JUST SMILES AT HIM ... PULLED MY GLASSES BACK UP .. DAMN THOSE STUPID GLASSES WERE GETTING IN MY NERVES .. I WAS REALLY ANNOYED WITH THEM .. I HAVE TOLD MY PARENTS I NEED A NEW ONES THEY SAID .. WORK FOR IT ... I HAD THIS GLASSES SINCE SOPHOMORE YEAR .. BUT WHO CARES... ALL I COULD NOTICED WAS MARCOS BEING PATIENCE WITH ME I WAS HAPPY SOMEONE GAVE ME THERE ATTENTION TO ME ...

ME- SHOULD I TELL HIM ... RIGHT ... I KNOW I WOULD RUINED .. MY FRIENDSHIP WITH HIM .. BECAUSE THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS MY PARENTS WOULDN'T ACCEPT ... IF HE DOESN'T HATE ME THEN HE IS GOING TO BE A LUCKY MAN TO DATE A GIRL ... I TOOK A LONG AS BREATH IN .. LET IT OUT - WELL YEAH I AM ... MY FAMILY .. FOR ME I GREW UP WITH THERE INFLUENCE ... THEY BELIEVE ABOUT T LIFE ... HOW GOD SHOULD GUIDE US TO OUR PATH .. YOU KNOW HOW 'S RELIGION DOES IT ... WHILE I WAS GROWING UP .. THEY SUGAR COATED THE LIFE OF A YOUNG LADY LIKE .. STAYED HOME CLEAN .. ATTEND THE FAMILY .. FOOD AND MANY MORE OPTION ..

MARCOS .. JUST KEPT LISTENING ABOUT MY RELIGION AND THERE BELIEFS .. OF GOD .. THERE WAS POINT HE WILL ASKED ME QUESTION LIKE ...'

DO YOU LIKE YOUR RELIGION ?

ALL I COULD TELL HIM WAS .... NOT ANYMORE

HE KEPT PUTTING ALL HIS ATTENTION ON ME.. SMILING AT ME .. LISTENING AS A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE I THOUGH IT WAS CUTE..

HE ASKED ME ..

GEORGIA ... I KNOW I JUST MET YOU IN A DAY .. AND I FELT THAT WE HAVE A LOT OF THINGS IN COMMON .. BUT .. I WANT TO MAKE SURE IF YOU ARE OKAY .. DO YOU WANT TO LET OUT WHATS HURTING YOU BEAUTIFUL FUTURE.. I'M GOING TO BE HONEST HERMOSA .. BUT I GET THIS VIBE FROM YOU THAT IS THE LUST OF NOT LUCK .. LIKE SOMETIMES YOU WISH SOMEONE COULD BE WITH YOU ON THE HARD MOMENTS... LIKE RIGHT NOW.. BECAUSE I HAVE HEARD RUMORS ABOUT YOU BE I DON'T BELIEVE UNTIL ... I. MET YOU ... YOU ARE THE OPPOSITE TO THAT ..

WHEN I SEE YOU SMILE... I CAN SEE AND FEEL INSIDE THAT YOU ARE THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE ... BUT WHENEVER YOU ARRIVE TO YOUR DESTINATION ... YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE TO SHUT IT DOWN .. ISN'T IT RIGHT BABY - HE GRABS BOTH OF MY HAND .. KISS MY KNUCKLES SLOWLY ... I SAW HIM IN MY OWN EYES .. HE MADE ME BLUSH MORE THAN EVER.. I WAS GETTING SO RED.. I HAD TO GIGGLE LIKE CRAZY AND JUST KNODED TO HIM ... BECAUSE I WAS SHAME .. WHAT WAS HE GOING TO DO NEXT ... SCREAM .. OR RECORD OUR CONVERSATION ... BURNED ME UP IN SCHOOL ...

I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO RESPONSE TO HIM ... BUT I HAD WATERY EYES .. LET MY TEARS FALL SLOWLY .. STREAMING DOWN FROM MY EYES TO MY CHEEK... LAST O MY JAWLINE .. DOWN TO MY HANDS. I JUST CRY IN FRONT OF A CUTE GUY .. WHO MIGHT LOVED ME THE WAY I AM ...

ALL HE DID WAS RUBBED HIS THUMB ON TOP OF MY KNUCKLES.. THEN ...HE STAND UP .. SITS NEXT TO ME WE WERE IN A BOOTH .. PULLS ME CLOSE TO HIS CHEST ... I JUST HIDE MY FACE IN THERE AS MY SAFE SPACE ... ALL I DID WAS WHISPERED AND CRY HARD -I'M SO SORRY MARCOS I SHOULDN'T HAVE

MARCOS ALL HE DID WAS WHISPER - EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY HERMOSA... I'M NOT LEAVING YOU ... BABY GIRL .. BESTIE..

CRYING - YOU DON'T LIKE ME AS A FRIEND ... EVERYONE BULLIES ME THE WAY I DRESS UP ..TALK... WEAR ... THEY EVEN CALLED ME NAMES... THE Virgin Mary ... MY RELIGION IS SO STRICT AND LIMITED WHATT I DO .. I HAD TO CONVINCE MY PARENTS TO LET ME COME HERE .. BECAUSE IT WAS CHEAP AND FREE.. THEY WANTED O TAKE ME TO THIS PRIVACY SCHOOL JUST FOR GIRLS.. - I WAS COUGHING WHILE CRYING -

THEY WERE ALREADY SETTING ME UP FOR MARRIAGE TO THIS OLD GUY ... WHO WAS RICH .. THEY COULDN'T AFFORD TO PAID FOR THE HOUSE.. OUR PRIEST THEY KICKED US OUT ... THEY WERE PUSHING THE WEEDING UNTIL ... I TURNED 18 IN FEW MONTHS .. EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T LIKE THE GUY .. THEY WERE MAKING ME DO IT ... MY PARENTS ARE DISOWNING ME ONCE HIGH SCHOOL IS OVER .. BECAUSE .. I TOLD THEM THAT I DIDN'T WANT O MARRY THAT GUY ... THEY COULD DO WHATEVER THEY WANT ..

ALL TTHEY DID WAS IS OWNED ME .. THEY CALLED ME A SINNER ... BECAUSE ONE TIME I BROUGHT A GUY INSIDE THE HOUSE TO DO A PROJECT ... THEY MADE IT A BIG ... HE NEVER CAME BACK ... I'M AFRAID TO LOVE BECAUSE OUR LORD IS TELLING THAT I WILL BE GETTING MARRY WITH THAT GUY .. I NEED A FRIEND FROM THIS HARD MOMENTS.. I NEED HELP .. BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED ... THIS AGE ..

MARCOS - ALL HE DID WAS HUM... BEAUTIFUL SONG BY BAZZI TO CALMED ME DOWN... SLOWLY KISSED THE TOP OF MY HEAD .. RUBBED HIS HAND AGAINST MY BACK .. ALL I DID WAS RELAX FOR COUPLE OF MORE MINUTES .... AFTER THAT WE CHANGE HE SUBJECT ABOUT SCHOOL ..

I DID ON OUR WAY TO MY HOUSE WAS A LITTLE QUIET ...

ALL I DID WAS WATCH THE OUTSIDE OF THE WINDOW .. SEEING TREE'S PASSING BY ..,

OVER AND OVER AGAINS

BIG OR SMALL

THICK OR THING ..

MARCOS HOLD MY HAND ... HUMMS THE SONG AGAIN TO RELAX ME IT DID .. I SMILE AT IT .. I TURNED MY HEAD TO FACE HIM AND SAW HIM GLANCING AT ME ..SMILING .. - YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL .. I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND... BUT MAYBE SOMETHING MORE .. IF THATS OKAY ..

I SMILED AND BLUSHED LIKE CRAZY - OKAY .. - THATS ALL SAID

MARCOS - LAUGHS LITTLE - IF THEY MAKE YOU MARRY THAT GUY .. LET ME TELL YOU WHAT I WOULD DO .. IS TO MARRY YOU RIGHT NOW .. HELPED YOUR PARENTS OUT..

I LOOKED AT HIM SHOOK- REALLY

MARCOS - SMILES - YEAH I WANT YOU HAPPY BEAUTIFUL.. BUT LATER OWN BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY COMES UP .. HAVE YOU FINISHED READING THE BOOK

I JUST SMILES - KIND OF I NEED THE LAST 20 PAGES .. BUT ITS REALLY GOOD WHAT ABOUT PART TWO AND THREE.

MARCOS - WINKS AT ME - I ALREADY FINISHED THEM ... THEY WERE PRETTY GOOD LET ME TELL YOU I CAN GIVE THEM TO YOU .. SO YOU CAN READ THEM .. THEN RETURNED THEM TO ME BEFORE THE DUE DATE

ALL I DID WAS SMILES .. PULLED MY GLASSES BACK UP - YES PLEASE..

THE DRIVE BACK HOME .. WAS WORTH ITT ... WHEN WE MADE IT HOME .. MARCOS PULLED UP ON MY PARKING LOT ... TURNED OFF HIS CAR..SMILES AT ME ..I JUST BLUSHED

MARCOS STOP LOOKING AT ME .. IT WAS AN AMAZING SNACK

MARCOS- LAUGHED - WELL YOU ARE CUTIE ... HERE - HE STRETCH HIS BIG AND LONG ARMS ON THE BACK SET .. PULLED OUT BOTH OF THE BOOKS .. EVEN MY BINDER AND BACKPACK

I LOOKED AT HIM- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS AMAZING DAY .. I HAD FUN WITH YOU MARCOS .. WHEN CAN WE HANG AGAIN

MARCOS - LOOKS AT ME ..SMILES - WELL OUR NEW SPOT WILL BE THE LIBRARY IN LUNCH IS THAT OKAY

YES THAT WILL BE AMAZING - I HAD AN EXCITING TONE

MARCOS - SMILES - GOOD NITE BEAUTIFUL

MARCOS GOT CLOSER TO ME .. KISS MY CHEEK

THANKS ..I WAS BLUSHING REALLY BAD

MARCOS - OPENS THE DOOR FOR ME - LETS GO BEAUTIFUL BEFORE YOU GET IN TROUBLE

TRUE ..

I GOT DOWN FROM HIS CAR... AND START WALKING ... TO THE MAIN DOOR .. UNLOCKED IT .. GET INSIDE .. IT WAS A BAD MOMENT FOR THIS .. BUT PARENTS GODZILLA

TO BE CONTINUE

FYI... HE WAS BEAUTIFUL