Chapter 7:

FLASHBACK----- DAYS PASSED AFTER THE MORGUE VISIT---

SINCE THE DAY I WENT TO VISIT MY DEAREST BOYFRIEND....

INSIDE THAT HORRIBLE PLACE CALLED THE MORGUE... WAS I READY TO FACE HIM ONCE AGAIN .... WAS I .. I KEPT THINKING IN MY MIND ...

I WAS AT MY HOUSE ... IT DIDN'T FELT LIKE HOME FOR ME ... IT WAS JUST A STRANGER PLACE .. WHERE I JUST BELONG TO WAS MARCOS ARMS ...

I BELONG TO HIS EMBRACE... HIS EMBRACE IS REALLY WARM LIKE A FATHER PENGUIN PROTECTING HIS BABY ..

AS I TAKE THREE DEEP BREATH IN AND LET THEM OUTT ... I KEPT THINKING OF EVERYTHING WHICH WAS

HIS GONE ...

HIS GONE...

IT CAN'T BE TRUE..

I WAS BROKEN ..

I WAS DEAD FROM THE INSIDE ... MY HEART WAS SHATTER INTO MILLION PIECE THAT I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT IN MY OWN EYES... THAT MY FUTURE HUSBAND WAS GONE ..

I CAN'T BELIEVE HE WAS GONE WHAT I REMEMBER YESTERDAY HE WAS GOOD AND HEALTHY AND YOU KNOW THE NEXT HES GONE ..

I CAN'T THINK RIGHT ...

WHENEVER I DO SOMETHING I ALWAYS REMEMBER HIM ... THE DAY I CAME BACK FROM THE MORGUE .... I TOOK TAXI TO GET HOME ...

I JUST WENT STRAIGHT TO MY ROOM .. LOCKED MYSELF FOR DAYS AND HEARD KEATON HENSON SONGS ALL OF HIS ALBUMS ... MY FAVORITE ONE WAS YOU FROM HIS BIRTHDAY ALBUM...

BECAUSE THAT'S THE SONG MY FUTURE HUSBAND WOULD SING TO ME IN MY EAR .. OR HEARD EVERY SINGLE DAY .. TO PROMISE ME THAT HE WAS GOING TO BE THERE FOR ME ...

I WAS BROKEN... I... JUST COULDN'T CURE THIS PAIN ... THREE DAYS AFTER MY VISIT I RECEIVED IN MY MAIL AN INVITATION TO HIS FUNERAL IT WAS SET UP .... THIS SATURDAY TO SEE HIM ONE LAST TIME .. THE NEXT DAY WAS THE DAY HE WAS GOING TO LEAVE US ..

TO REST IN PEACE...

I WAS AFRAID TO SHOWED UP INFRONT OF HIS FAMILY THEY MIGHT HATE ME ... THEY MIGH WANT ME GONE ..

I HAD TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE ... GASPING FOR AIR.... WHILE I AM SITTING IN MY BED HOLDING MY LEGS UP TO MY CHEST .. LET MY TEARS LEAVE MY EYES...

AS I LOOKED OUTSIDE MY WINDOW I CAN SEE THAT MY BLOSSOM TREE HAD BLOOMED ...

THERE WAS WIND OUTSIDE IT WASN'T THAT BAD.. WAS I READY TO FACE THE WORLD...

I HEARD A KNOCKED ON MY DOOR ...

YES..I WAS SNIFFING LIKE CRAZY

MIJA ... WAKE UP .. REMEMBER TODAY IS THE DAY TO SAY GOODBYE... WE NEED YOU READY IN TWO HOURS..

OKAY MOM DON'T WORRY I'M GETTING READY ..

OKAY AMOR ... POR FAVOR .. RELAX.. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU SICK ON THE FUNERAL BABY ... I KNOW IT HURTS TO SEE HIM GONE ... I AM GRATEFUL WE HAD THE CHANCE TO MEET HIM ... HE WAS A GOOD YOUNG MAN...

SMILING .. THANKS MOM .. I GOT UP FROM MY BED WALKED TO MY DOOR OPEN IT FOR MY MOTHER ... HUGGED HER .. LET MY LAST TEARS FALL ON HER EMBRACE..

MOM ... I REALLY MISSED HIM .. HOW CAN I LET THIS PAIN GO .. AINT READY TO LET HIM GO .. I FEEL MY HEART SHATTER INTO THOUSANDS PIECES... AM I READY FOR THIS.. I WISH HE COULD WAKE UP FROM THAT HORRIBLE COFFIN... GO TO ME ... KISSED ME ONE LAST TIME .. LET HIM KNOW THAT I LOVE HIM .. WHY IS HE LEAVING ME WITH PAIN MOM ... WHYY . I CAN'T UNDERSTAND IT HURTS ME MOTHER WHYY I WAS CRYING REALLY HARD ON MY MOTHER EMBRACE ... I JUST COULDN'T HOLD IT NO MORE ...

ALL MY MOTHER COULD DO WAS HUGGED ME AND WHISPER IN MY EAR ...

EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY BABY ... TIME WILL HEAL YOUR BROKEN HEART..

TIME WILL FIX THAT BLACK HOLE YOU HAVE INSIDE .. DONTT GIVE UP .. HE LOVES YOU ..

HIS GOING TO BE THERE FOR YOU BABY ... YOU GOT THIS ....

I WAS CRYING IN MY MOTHER EMBRACE FOR 10 MINS LONG .. ON THE END OF THOSE 10 MINS.. I GOT READY FOR MY BOYFRIENDS FUNERAL..

I LET GO OF MY MOTHERS EMBRACE ... HEAD TO MY RESTROOM GETT READY /... WE HAD TO WEAR BLACK ... BECAUSE THATS WHAT THEY ASKED AND WILL DO..

THIS IS MY BLACK DRESS IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL BLACK DRESS LOOSE FROM THE BOTTOM HALF OF MY BODY.. BUT THE TOP PART OF MY BEAUTIFUL DRESS IT HAD FLOWER DESIGNS ALL AROUND IT ...THAT WAS GLUED AROUND MY BODY

SHOES ... I WAS WEARING THIS HIGH HEELS SHOES COLOR BLACK OPEN TOE YOU COULD SEE MY PEDICURE I HAD DONE FEW DAYS AGO. THE STRAPPED OF MY HEELS WAS WRAPPED AROUND MY ANKLE AND IT LOOKED REALLY AMAZING .

MY NATURAL MAKE UP TO HIDE MY UGLY ASS FACE. BLACK SAGGY EYE BAGS. IT WAS NATURAL .. WITH THIS NATURAL BROWN EYE SHADOW.

HEAD PIECE.. COLOR BLACK WITH THIS PIECE OF CLOTH YOU COULD SEE MY FACE IT WAS CONNECTED TO THIS SMALL HAT.

THIS IS IT ... IS NOW OR NEVER LETS FACE THE REAL WORLD... ONCE AGAIN HOW MARCOS USED TO SAY ....

TO BE CONTINUE ..

NEXT CHAPTER IS THE FUNERAL ....