Chapter 17

As Lucien lock the door, he stood there and recall what happened between him and Fana. "I am unworthy for her love..... what should I do to be worthy for you...." He murmur as he gently touch the door that locks her in. Then he went upstairs and leave her below the underground room.

I woke up to find myself on the bed in the dark room. Only light from beneath the door come in the room. I look up and wonder what would happened to me if I stay here forever. My heartache as I recall what I told him, that he is not worthy for me. Actually I feel angry and I want to provoke him so that willing to let me go back to where I belong. Maybe by that way, he won't be caught for kidnapping me in case if Ruby report it to the police. And maybe by that, I could persuade him to be mine and live together in my apartment or we could go and work at the same place and we could live as a normal couple. I turn my head to the right side and keep on thinking endlessly what would have happens if we meet in a usual way instead of this.

As I keep my mind busy thinking, I hear the sound of door opening. I sit up and turn that way to see him bring me something to eat as I expected. I usually always happy when he bring me something nice to eat, but this time I wish not to see him at all. With my expressionless face, I asked him even thought I know the answer ,"Why are you here?"

Lucien doesn't say anything and walk towards me. He sit down next to me and take the plate that is filled with curry rice. Then he scoop the rice and try to feed me with his emotionless face which makes me feels sick. I gently push away his hand and says,"I am not hungry. Leave it here and I will eat when I am hungry. Now, leave." I feel so sick to see his face that moment so I ask him to go so that thing between us won't go even worst.

He stand up and leave the tray food next to me. I didn't even glance at him as he close and lock the door. Slowly my tears falls down and my heart feel so uncomfortable. I clutch my chest and cry because I feel so stupid to act that way. I should tell him the truth about my feeling towards him and thing that I plan to do when we were officially couple. I really want him to be with me and enjoy everything single moment with him. "Lucien.....I love you...so much that I can't afford to hate you after all this thing you done to me..."

On the other side of the door, Lucien lay his back on the door and slide down slowly. Then he crutches down and sit there covering his face with his knees. His tears fall as he try his best not to show anyone his weakness but he fail to maintains his emotion as he saw Fana's hateful expression towards him so much that she didn't even look at him even for once.

"What have you done,Lucien? You even fail to keep her happy and now you want her to be your side forever with this situation? That old lady is right...I am ...a loser...." He murmur to himself while sitting on the cold floor. After a while he gather his courage and went back to check her out in the room and found out that she was sound asleep.

He brush her hair gently and kiss her forehead. "I am sorry, Fana....." He whisper to her full of regret to keep her in this room just to making sure she is safe from the outside world. And he wonder if this is not the best way to keep her safe by his side for ever. He slowly tucked her with warm blanket then he feel her hand is grabbing his hands. "Don't leave me mom... please don't.....", she talked in her dream with a fearful voice.

Lucien stood there and hold her hand,says"Its okay.....I am here...I will never let you get hurt anymore..." He slowly crawl into the bed and hug her to make her feel more secure. As he plan to keep her company for a while, soon he accidentally fall asleep with her while holding her hand close to his heart.