Chapter 43- Our first time

''Sia'' he says softly against the door since I haven't come out yet since the last time he called me.

''Sia, come out''

''What's wrong?'' he asks as I don't answer. I press my hands against the door as I respond.

''I can't'' I reply.

''Why not?''

''Because...'' I can't seem to finish. I'm too embarrassed to finish and worst of all go out there like this.

''Baby you have nothing to be ashamed of, believe me. I know that you're probably a bit scared and nervous because you know this is your first time and it's okay to feel that way but it's me. You can trust me, I know that I may make you think otherwise, but you can. Just come out and if you still don't wanna do it that's okay we won't but please just come out and we can talk about it'' he says. I take a deep breath and by the comfort of his words I feel much better, I'm still a bit nervous to go out there but I'm a bit more confident and less scared.

Okay, who am I kidding I'm still ashamed of what he will think of me but I'm going out anyway and if I still don't feel comfortable I won't do anything.

I clean up the bathroom, pack everything up and lay it neatly on the floor at the side.

I gulp as my hand reaches the doorknob and I slowly turn it revealing myself. Hero stands by the bedside table away from me as I step out of the door, he looks up from a book and his eyes rake up and down my body. They stop at my breasts for a while before they return to the place just below my stomach between my legs, I bring my legs closer together not wanting him to see anything as I stand away from him closer to the couch. His mouth hangs open a bit at my appearance and he seems stunned but tries to appear as if he's not. He slowly walks up to me then cups my cheeks with both of his hands. He stares at my body once more before his eyes meet mine.

''Where have you been all my life'' He breathes and I'm open-mouthed by his words and the way they make my stomach tighten.

I'm confused by his words, does he mean that? He says so many horrible crazy things that he claims he does not mean most of the time but does he mean this? I wanna ask him if he means it so bad but I have a feeling now is not a good time too, I'll bring it up another time but those words will forever stay with me.

''Sia, you have nothing to be ashamed of look at you''

''I know, but you've been with a lot of girls who are much hotter than me so...''

''None like you, girls would wish to have as many curves and a body like yours'' he tells me.

He pulls me close to him and slowly and gently kisses me, his lips move in perfect harmony with mine as I put both of my hands on his waist pulling him closer to me. I feel his hard stomach pressing against mine. He slowly moves away and leads me to the bed. He takes something out of his pocket and throws it to the corner of the room by the bed.

As I turn to look at what he threw he grabs both of my arms and pushes me onto the bed so I'm now on my stomach with my face turned to the side as he's over me.

He quickly grabs both of my hands, interlaces our fingers and pins them on the bed to each side of my head. He removes one of his hands from on top of mine to sweep the hair over my face and tuck it behind my ear. My breathing is heavy as his body his over mine like this. His legs are spread out on my waist and I'm so scared that he's gonna hurt me right now. I feel like crying, what is he doing?

''I need you to repeat something for me'' he purrs in my ear.

''Say this'' he instructs.

''Say that you are mine and I can do whatever I want with you and you will only be mine'' he breathes into my ear and I feel my skin shudder as he says those words.

I can't say that.

'' What? I can't....''

''Say it'' he commands and I gulp before I respond.

''I am yours and you can do whatever you want with me and I'll only be yours'' I repeat and I think hard about those words I just told him.

He kisses me on the cheek before he gets off of me then he gently pulls me up to stand with him.

''What the hell was that? You scared the hell out of me'' I step away from him.

''Nothing I just needed to hear you say that'' He says and kisses me slowly on the lips. He takes my hand in his as he leads us away from the bed. Why are we going away from the bed?

Isn't the bed where we're supposed to do it?

He stands up against the wall away from the door near the table in his room. I stand in front of him as he pulls his shirt over his head, I just stand there unsure of what to do. He puts his hand on my neck and pulls me to him as he slides his tongue into my mouth. I move my hand from his bareback to his pants, my hand cups the bulge in his pants. He moves his hand to his belt and begins to unbuckle it.

''I wanted to do that'' I pull away from our kiss.

''Here you go baby'' he says.

''Start from the top and work your way down'' he instructs.

I move from his lips to his neck sucking hard on the spot near his earlobe then my lips trail his chest but he interrupts me.

''Get down on your knees'' he demands and I do as I'm told.

I'm now on my knees in front of him as his covered erection inside his pants is inches above me and I now realize how smutty this looks. My body is timid and embarrassed as I'm in this position. I never thought that I would do anything like this before.

I've always thought that Nelson would be my first and it wouldn't be so embarrassing as he would be a virgin too and it'll be both of our first times but it's not him, it's Hero and I'm more nervous than ever as he has so much experience and I have none, I haven't even watched an R rated movie before. I can see his erection pressed hard against his pants as it looks down at me, my tongue starts from the bottom of his bugle on his pants then go all the way up licking him through his jeans.

He closes his eyes a bit and sighs from the pleasure. I then move to his belt, I unbuckle it slowly then slide it down his legs as it drops to his feet, he looks at me and nods, an indication to slide his boxers down too.

I do just that and I gasp and my mouth hangs open at the view in front of me, it's bigger than I thought it would be.

''Grab it'' he tells me and I take it my hand.

It feels so strange in my hand and it's so hard, the skin over it is rough and dry.

I move my hand up and down as I feel him getting harder under my touch.

''Put your mouth on the tip and start sucking slowly. Then put some of it in your mouth and see if you can fit the whole thing''

I kiss the tip of it then put my mouth on it. It's tastes even drier than it looks and a bit salty and it's so hard, I can't imagine how painful this will be inside me. I don't think it will even fit.

I take it out of my mouth for a moment and look at it trying to get used to the foreign taste in my mouth. I take it back into my mouth and suck slowly, I take most of it into my mouth then look up at him, his eyes are closed and his head is tilted back against the wall with his lips parted and his chest is rising up and down.

''Oh fuck, don't do that'' he says and I pull away.

''No no no I just mean it's so good don't stop'' he breathes.

He holds it up for me and indicates for me to go under. I start from the underneath of his balls slowly licking to the tip of his erection, he lets out a loud moan and closes his eyes. He removes his hand as I hold it up with my hand. I go under again and I lick his balls then I take each into my mouth sucking lightly on it, each one fits perfectly into my mouth as I suck hard on it. He keeps his hand in my hair while rumpling it with his fingers. I continue sucking his balls for a while before he pulls me away by my hair to warn me.

''If you don't pull away you're gonna get it in your mouth'' he tells me as we both look into each other's eyes, I look up at him while he looks down at me.

I take the most of him that I could fit into my mouth and hold it there as his breathing picks up and he groans loudly. Before I know it I feel a warm liquid in my mouth, it shoots out quickly and goes straight down my throat.

I almost choke on the queer taste and the effect it has on my entire body as it goes down my throat. It doesn't taste good but it doesn't taste horrible, I don't know what to describe the taste as since I've never had anything like it but it doesn't taste that good, it feels milky warm and sticky as it goes down but the taste is indescribable. Hero pulls me back by my hair as my head tilts back to look up at him, I get down even lower with my hand still holding him as he bends down and kisses me, his kiss is fast and rough but I love it as my mouth tries to keep up with his.

''This is how I like to see them red and swollen from sucking my cock'' he touches my lips with his thumb and to make him even more turned on I give him the sexiest lip bite ever and he crashes his lips onto mine again.

My body is on fire from what just happened and if the AC wasn't on right now I would be sweating from the anxiousness that consumes me right now. He grabs both of my arms and pulls me to stand with him. As I stand, he moves away from the wall and pulls his pants off completely and pulls his boxers up. He moves in so fast that he catches me totally off guard with a kiss and I almost fall over if his hand wasn't at my back holding me in place, our tongues overlap then slip into each other's mouth.

He pulls both of my legs onto him then lifts me off the ground. I put both of my hands around his neck as his hands are on my butt cheeks as he walks us over to the bed never breaking our kiss. He puts me down at the edge of the side of the bed then he uses his hands to spread my thighs as he steps in between them.

''You'll be gentle right?'' I ask as I look into his eyes. They are calm and look needy for more.

''Of course, I will'' he responds and he crashes his lips against mine once more.

He slowly pushes me back onto the bed with our kiss. He gets off me and moves to the end of the bed, I just lay there waiting for him. He lifts me up and turns my body so that my head is now on the pillow and my legs are towards the end. He makes his way on top of me and gives me a quick kiss on the lips before he warns me of his next move.

''I'm gonna start sucking now then I'm gonna use my fingers'' he warns as he looks into my eyes and I nod.

After my lips, he moves to my jawline then my earlobe then my neck. He stays at my neck for a while sucking hard on almost every inch there. He then makes his way to my breasts, he pulls down the bra and takes my nipple into his mouth, he sucks them hard then licks it causing my nipples to harden and causing me to moan as he fits one of my breasts into his mouth. His tongue licks the outline of my breasts then his tongue trails down to my stomach, he licks over the lace bodysuit then his tongue goes into my bellybutton. He makes his way down and pulls me by my legs down the bed closer to the end. He then parts both of my thighs and pushes my legs up making room for him.

He kisses my inner thigh and slowly makes his way down to my sensitive area. He kisses the material of the bodysuit covering it then slowly licks up and down making my legs to stiffen and my stomach tighten. My head falls back onto the pillow and my hands are close to my face and one of them is on my mouth as I put a finger into my mouth to try and stop myself from screaming. He uses his finger to move the material of the bodysuit covering my area to the side making me come into ample view for him.

He parts me a bit then looks inside examining me, he stares inside me for a while then looks up at me.

Is something wrong? Does it look weird or something?

No one has ever seen me before, I don't even wear revealing clothes even when I'm at home alone but here I am in Hero's bed as he stares at my area as we're about to have sex.

I groan loudly as his mouth goes down there, he sucks and devours me raw and until I'm dry like I'm the last piece of his favorite dessert left on the plate. My hand goes to his hair and my fingers slide through his waves as his mouth devours me down there. I watch his wet tongue licking me from the bottom to the top. He rises up for a moment and I notice his lips are wet from sucking me.

Then, he puts his hand there slowly rubbing me, his hands move in a slow circular motion and I feel his hard callused hands rubbing against me. He then slowly slides a finger into me and I moan from the feeling of his hard fingers in me. He does it slowly, gently pumping his fingers in and out of me. My breathing picks up and my heart is beating at a mile an hour as he brings his mouth back down there. He continues licking my folds and my chest is heaving up and down.

He sucks me dry for a while before he makes his way back on top of me, his body on mine as he's between my legs, I feel his hard erection pressing against my bare area and I just want it inside me.

''You need to know something'' he whispers.

''You need to be sure that you want this because once it's done, it's done. You can never take it back no matter what and this time will always be with you. You need to know that you want this and you want me to take it'' he tells me, his voice is soft and warm and his eyes are wide and full of concern and care.

''I wouldn't want it to be anyone else'' I say and mean it. He stares at me deep into my eyes seeing into my soul and I watch as he eases by my words.

''Do you want to do it?'' I ask and I feel ashamed again.

''More than anything'' he says and kisses me softly on the lips.

''Are you on birth control?'' He asks.

''No'' I respond.

Why would I be on birth control? I 've never had sex before.

''Lots of girls are on it whether they are having sex or not, for other reasons I guess'' He tells me as if he's reading my mind.

He gets off the bed and moves to the bedside table and retrieves a small packet and I already know what it is. I can't believe I'm doing this and I can't believe it's with him.

''I'm only using this since it's your first time but I don't want to have to use this again because I want to feel all of you around me so you need to get on birth control'' he tells me as he moves back on the bed.

He slowly takes the bodysuit off of me and throws it on the floor but leaves the heels on. I'm completely naked lying down on the bed as I wait for him to take his boxers off. He gets back on the bed and we both look into each other's eyes then he looks down and slips the condom on. He moves in between my legs and hovers over me.

''I don't think it will fit'' I tell him and he laughs then kisses me slowly on the lips.

''It will'' he says into my mouth.

His erection is so big and hard I doubt that will fit inside me and even if it does it will be painful.

''Now it's going to hurt so tell me if it hurts too much and if you want me to stop'' he tells me and I nod in response.

I know it will hurt and I'm not prepared for that pain. I try not to think about it as if I do it might be more painful, I'll just close my eyes the entire time. I hope he's gentle with me like he said he would.

He kisses me gently and slowly on the lips then I put one hand in his hair and the other on his back. We kiss for a while then he sucks lightly on my shoulder and my neck before he pulls away. One of his hands moves down from my hair to where both of our erections are close to each other. He slowly and gently rubs his hard erection against me just by my entrance and I feel the condom brush against me.

I bite down on my lip as my chest is rapidly moving up and down from the sensation. He continues to just rub me with the tip of his hard erection before he slowly makes his way inside. I let out a soft scream from the pain, the feeling is unpleasant and strange to me. I feel something just tear inside of me and a small tear falls from the corner of my eyes, is it supposed to be this painful?

He feels so big inside me, much bigger than he looks.

''Can I move?'' he whispers as I feel his eyes on me and I nod slowly.

My eyes are closed as my head bucks on the bed. He slowly pulls out then pushes back in and I try my best to hold back from screaming. It is even more painful than I thought it would be, I feel like screaming.

''Open your eyes and look down baby'' he coos.

I do just that and I look down to see him inside of me but I cringe a bit at the blood on my entrance and some on his erection but seeing him inside me calms me a bit but makes my stomach flutter. I see how much I have stretched to accommodate him and he looks even bigger as he fits inside my small hole. I wrap my hand around his neck and pull him closer to me with my other hand roaming his back. He continues to slowly thrust into me with both of us moaning and breathless. My head is back onto the pillow with one of my hands over my mouth of preventing me from screaming while his head is in my neck gently kissing the skin there.