The Meadows Days

My sister Lisa had a place over there in the meadows. Thank god she let me live with her after me in my mother got into it. Lisa had rules for me while staying in her house. I had to sign up for school or get a job. She helped me gather all my stuff from my mother house to bring to her house. But it's things I never told her that I felt she didn't need to know.  See Lisa didn't know me in her ol lady did coke together. She thought we was just on pills drinking an smoking. In I kept it that way where she didn't know. I agreed with her on the rules since she paid all the bills in kept food in the house. All we had to do is school and clean up.The same day me and Jazz had us a get together at the house. We was having a blast smoking weed and getting high on coke in the bathroom but Lisa never knew. This same day we went to meet her new friend that she was dating outside of Lisa. Her name was Carlie in she was way older then us. This day we decided to go have some fun with Carlie. Carlie did what we did plus more. I was high in they wanted to do a threesome together. I was to high for that so Carlie lift my dress in started kissing me down there. I pushed her off because I wasn't gay. I was so high my strength wasn't enough to keep her off. She started kissing my thighs until she reach my clit. I let off a moan like dam why me. Jazz was on the bed with Carlie in I was on the chair in the room. She put her arms around my legs in pinned me down so I couldn't run. I knew I was going to climax real soon. she was slurping in sucking an cressing me so good I laid there lifeless. As Jazz started eating Carlie I laid there in watched both of them fuck. I never seen Jazz moan while fucking she never let nobody touch her. I sat in watched I was like wow get it Carlie you a soul snatcher lol. Then they both looked at me like it was my turn to eat but hell nawl that wasn't happening.

We had done got so high in was fucking so much we lost a track of time. We stayed the night in got up the next day. We went home to bath in then here comes Lisa. Where the fuck was you'll last night? We was out chilling with a friend of mines in lost track of time so we stayed the night. Sorry about that we love you doe. Lisa rolled her eyes in left the room. Jazz bitch that was close. I went to the tub to get cleaned up. Lisa busted in the bathroom soon as I stepped in the tub. Be real with me Erica was you'll out getting high or was she out cheating on me?  No girl you crazy we went to my friend guy house to hang with his people that's it. Alright I believe you this time but we will be having a party in a few. Ok let me get right real quick. We went to get some bottles an some playing cards to play some spades. We got music playing while porn was going on the tv. We was rolling up a blunt or two. Next thing you know we hear a knock on the door who is it? Lisa yelled it's the police open up. We went to throwing shit under the chair and spraying at the same time. Lisa open the door how may we help you? sure we got a call cause you'll was loud. I'm sorry sir we not loud we are quiet idk what they hearing. You'll just keep it down. Yes sir high as Fuck laughing in closed the door. After they left we turned back up the music in got Fuck up. The next morning I was told to get up in get dress. I got up Erica we on a mission for some good good. I got bus fair an the dope money.

We left sis sleep. Jazz pulled out a lot of money. Where you get this from? don't ask questioned we going shopping. I didn't question I went shopping got my dope in all. I was in heaven because I got high an went shopping. We was on our way back to the house where the door was wide open in Lisa standing in the door. Where the he'll have you'll been? Out in about mama gave me and Erica some money to get some stuff. Where the Fuck is my money at Jazz? I don't fucking know why you accusing me of stealing? You the only mother fucker that knew where my money was. Well I don't know nothing in I don't have it. Jazz left the house in went to ol girl house to get high. Jazz called me to come meet her. I did she gave me some coke and we got fucked up together off of ol girl coins. But after Lisa money disappeared I already knew hell was gone break loose.  I prepared myself for the worse. Hey Erica wake your ass up now you ain't sleep. Man Fuck you I'm tired shit. I got up to walked out. what do you want? We having a meeting so sit your ass down so we all can talk. What's up well Nicole need some where to stay so you'll have to share the room together. Omg alright I'll sleep on the floor in the living room.

That's it mother fucker you'll woke me up for this man you could of waited till I got up. Then I got dress brush my teeth in sat in the living room. Jazz what's the plan for today. We going to get some packages later okay bet. Theirs a knocks on the door hello is Lisa here? yeah who asking? Her friend okay hold so I close the door in her face. Man Lisa some girl at the door for you. Who is it it? I don't know bring your ass to the dam door. She came in screamed hey boo how you doing? I'm good come on Lisa. You'll I'll be back some time later tomorrow. We all yelled bye in closed the door and locked it. You'll ready to get fucked up? Hell yeah she gone we can do whatever we please while she gone. That night we had a house full of people. Talking everybody in this bitch fucking in getting high at the same time. The next morning we hear a bam at the door. Open my mother fucking door Lisa yells. Before opening the door we put everything back where it was in did a quick clean before opening the door. We all played like we was cleaning. Wtf was you'll doing it took you'll that long?  The company we put out the back door came round the front. We died laughing cause we knew what we was doing. She snapped wtf who are these people? They our friends we meet a while back. I'm lying my ass off to her.  She was like my house better be clean when I get back. Then I get a call I'm not coming back tonight. Okay see you tomorrow. I told Jazz we was at it again me Jazz and Lil roach face was high as a bird. The next day I get a call I'll be home late okay. She ain't coming till later tonight.  I called up our connection they came over with they home boys. We all in the room smoking dirties and snorting up train lines. We hear somebody knocking on the door.

Jazz got up in looked out the window first in couldn't see. Then she went in the living room who is it? Its me open my mother fucking door.  Jazz ran back to the room hurry up get that stuff up in hide it. We did just that the boys ran to the front an I went to the bath room to clean my nose. She open the door they sitting on the chair. Who the Fuck is these niggas? Bae calm down it's nothing we just smoking weed. She was heading to the back me and Nicole ran in got in the car with the dudes. Jazz grab Lisa wtf bae chill out they are cool.  She told me and Nicole if we left with them that's our ass. We left the house with them. It didn't matter if we did or didn't she was gone Fuck us up anyways. We went got high as hell with them Nicole went an Fuck the home boy while I stayed in the living room getting high. I already knew the beast has risen at home I was ready for the punishment. The door was wide open who first to get this ass whooping. We look at each other like Fuck that we will stay outside until she cool off.  Nicole went in first I heard her hollering she was getting beat. I already knew she gone Fuck me up the worse. I got tired of standing outside in went in to take it. What you want the spatula or the spoon? Pick one for I pick it for you. I pick the spatula I wish I pick the spoon. Before I could say something Jazz had done already told on us. Lisa said speak before I beat your ass. I told her what I went to do. Before I could finish I felt one hit I dropped in ran in the room. Don't run you gone make this ass whooping worse.  I tried to hide in the room with the covers. I thought she went away. I was getting ready to bath in clean up from the day I had. Man I forgot it wasn't over I had on some shorts. She snuck up on me you thought I forgot. No please is all I can say. You wasn't saying please no when you was putting that shit up your nose was you. No ma'am well I don't want to hear it nie. Lisa went to beating me all I could get out was okay okay okay I'm sorry. That was not enough for her she beat me till she got tired.

I sat on the chair looking at my bruises on me I cried because I was so hurt. She said if I didn't love you I wouldn't beat you. All Lisa wanted was what's best for me, you have a daughter to live for this shit you doing going to stop. After that night I slept good.  The next day Jazz said get up we bout to go get turned. Me in roach face and Jazz left didn't come home for days. Until we was sobber because we knew if we high that's an ass whooping again. It didn't make me a different she waited at the door with a belt this time. We all went in together. Nicole went first I ran in the room in lock the door then ran in the bathroom in lock it. But that didn't stop her she picked all both locks I tired to grab the bathroom door but it was too late. I tired to get out to the other door but she closed it. Lets get it no no no no no with my hands out please all you heard was a whistle then it landed I hollered. I'm sorry I won't do it no more I won't do it no more. She kept beating until I went to sleep. She woke me up with work to do. I cleaned up before my mama came over in told me I can't see my child unless I come back. I told her no I didn't want my child round when I was on coke. I went back in cried Lisa came to the back what's going? on nothing I don't want to live no more. I pulled out a thing of pills and tried to take all of them. But she took them in hide them from me. She beat my ass so bad she went and got a knife in put it to her wrist. She said you want? how about we cut together so we both can die. I told her no to put that away from her wrists in I put it on mines and she grabbed it an put it on both our wrist. You ready? no you not going. Yes I am if I go you go we both going. I told her no I don't want to. She got so mad with me in beat me for thinking crazy thoughts. Then she sent me to bed in made me pray get on both knees in pray that god heals me from all this mess. But after that night I knew I was going to spiral out of control into a halfway house.