Stuck Between Two

Erica, what's up Karen? Who got your heart the most? Maya has my heart but Tonya has both because she stays on my mind just as well as Maya does. I'm sitting here thinking how in the world could this be. I sat in talk to my best friend Karen explaining how I cannot imagine my life without the both of them. I already told one that the other have my child so she gone be here no matter what. I have so many good memories with Tonya. But I also have history with Maya in I love the way she holds me when we talking or watching tv. I love the way we cuddle at night or we watch movies with each other. I miss the days we had before she left me in went away for years. I'm not gone lie she makes me feel safe in her presents. Maya always give me that nervous feeling when I'm around her she make me feel loved. But Tonya we always shared this special moment with each other. She always let me be myself round her. We smoke, cuddle and watch movies together. I miss those moments we spend together with each other.

I love the way she hold me and I held her if only I knew what I know now I wouldn't be in this position. I feel like this one song I wish I wasn't by heather. I told my best friend Karen if only I knew who could have my all. But Maya is the one who wants the best in life and I think she can get that out of me. Erica Maya gone be the wifey of yours? Yeah I think she really want the best in me to come out in stop hiding. So why won't you'll just become one? Erica. I don't think she's ready to be tied down yet. In Karen I don't think I'm ready yet to just to settle until I know it's real. Erica as a friend I would of told you to let her go if she's no good but Maya is what makes you happy I see it every time you round her. I know Karen she always makes me happy in she always make sure everything is all good. I don't know Karen but I'll let everything fall in place where they belong. So of course as the weeks go by I haven't been speaking to Tonya like that unless we on the book. I been having dreams about her and my God baby and my other babies. I love them with all my heart I have grown close to all of my babies. So as the month coming close she's getting ready to have my God son soon and I'm excited because I will be able to see him.  I got ready to close my night out I talking to my girl Maya. Yes bae how may I help you love? Yes we need to have a face to face talk with each other about this relationship. Okay I'm good with that so when you come available to talk hit me up Maya. Okay Erica because I need to know if you real about us being together or if we need to be just friends. The night grew late we talked about us being together in what we expect from each other. The day end I love to hear her voice before I close my eyes every night. I get a message from Karen. Hey Erica I need a favor from you tomorrow? What's up Karen what you need done. I need for you to handle some thing for me and this wedding. Okay so what I need to do? Can you have your friend rider to call me about the food I'm serving.

I hope on it ASAP for my best friend anything for thing for this chick right here. Karen what all we having at the wedding for the reception and stuff.  She told me what's all on the list of things that's going to be served at the wedding reception. Man I am so excited because I get to wear a tuxedo in the wedding. I'm going to be handsome. I really wish I could bring my girl but I don't want to mess up her work schedule. I sat in thought about certain things I can't wait to become hers and I know she can't wait to become mines. But you know I still got love for Tonya also I hate that I have so many memories with both women. Both are amazing women but one will make in amazing wife to somebody else just not this chick here. I sat in thought about all the good times we had I'm gone miss them but it's time I move forward with my life. I want to be with my lover in our own space together having our fun times together making new memories.