Getting Prepared For The Big Day

I can't wait to make her a Williams but in do time it will come about. But as I laid there thinking I get a message from a old time friend Chris. Hey how are you doing Erica? Mouth drops I'm fine in your self? I'm good just living life to the fullest. Again I'm in shock haven't talk to Chris since 2009 so of course I'm shocked. We talked he was doing mighty fine with himself but still messy as ever. We got ready to hang up I get a call from my soon to be girl aka wifey Maya. Good night my love I love you sweet dreams. Same to you my wife so of course we do a prayer together before we lay our head down to rest. We laid in prayed she made a request for us to be better together and I agree we become greater together. I lay here I thank God he has made me into an angle of his I have became a stronger women.  I lay I pray for everyone around me and in my life. I pray that my friends and family stay covered in his blood even when they leave here in the morning for work or school he covers in bring them back safely.

I know he anointed me for a reason to send messages and help those who are not able. In I make it my business to get his word out to that individual even if I'm busy he will pause me in tell me to deliver that message in I will. I have came a long way in my beliefs with God on my side. If it's not him then it's nobody he comes first in all situations and even on my good days he still gets praise. I have grown in my beliefs in I'm proud that I have became the women he made me to be. Like Karen say if it's not God then it's nobody in I agree he makes the wait worth it. But this next week is the test I was waiting to see how strong my faith really is. As I waited in prayed that God would bring me out this bitterness. I got ready to go to the store I get a message from someone I haven't spoken too in five years. Mind you'll me an her have not been on best terms and now all of a sudden you miss me. So of course I fell back into that with her thinking she different.

Well she have changed a lot she don't want to do nothing but stay like she still in there and I can't live like that, So of course I got out before I get in too good. But then again I can't live the way she live I'm not going to drop my happy spirit to feel dull. I left in just kept it as a friend in I love that cause she was by my side through my surgery in I love her for that. But I had to leave because my mind is still on this one chick but I can't deal with that either. I ask God to remove all troubles out my life in he did just that.  I started losing a lot of friends I don't talk to many as I used too. That cut off game is real I can't deal with drama no more or liars either so I just stayed to myself in my house. But when I went to have my surgery wasn't nobody by my side but three people and two that call me on the phone but it's only two that I talk to everyday because they call me or text me. But I can say my brother lyrical has been here from hospital visits surgeries and everything else.