The Last Day Before The Big Day

He is the best brother I have in he's not even blood he is a long time friend that stood by my side without asking for nothing. But when I do get he got that's what kind of bond we have. One day he finally meet my friend when I was in surgery they had talk with my mother. We all had a good laugh or two before we left the place he put me in the house in I was out. But then I get a knock on the door it's my bestie she came in sat with me all day when she got off work. We clown and all sitting in this living room. The weeks go by I just stop calling and texting people for a reason. I had done received a message from somebody who don't even know me but I was told to watch myself. I sat here thinking to myself what she mean by watch myself. I sat in thought about what she said it started making me think. It just kept playing in my head watch who you call your friends and watch who you talk to too. I'm looking like what is she trying to tell me.  I have sat back in ask God to help me figure this out because I been having dreams of one of my so called friends talking about in downing me to other people.

I sat here I'm thinking who could she be talking about.  I started falling back away from everybody to see who she talking about. The days goes by my phone is like dry Ill probably get one or two calls or texts a day. Time went on it's just been bothering my soul all day and all night barely getting any sleep cause my mind is going a hundred miles. I get a ring at my door,  I get up in go look couldn't see nobody out the window.  I open my door in there stands my sister I haven't talked to in about a year now.  I look my niece jumps tt I miss you so much.  I hugged my baby in told her I miss her too and my cousin was with the both of them. I let them in Hey to you too.  I spoke hey in turned around to go back into the kitchen to finish cooking. She followed me in the kitchen.  We need to talk so we can get some understanding. We talked about everything. She showed me everything from inboxes on messager and everything.

I sat there talking to her and reading everything I started thinking to myself like wtf. How can people say they your friends but talk just like the enemy it's self.  I sat there we had a full conversation until we fell a sleep in the front living room. It started having me thinking about some shit like how can I sit here in defend a lot of these mother fuckers with everything I have in me against people who don't even like they ass. I stand up to my own people to say they not like this or that but they be dam right about they ass.  I feel like this now I'm not defending no dam body no more if they got problems with each other tell that person you got the problem cause I'm not dealing with none of it. I can't hold on to nobody problems but my own. I ask God to help me through this mess in he did just that he help me delete people out my life they say when you pray to remove he do just that.

I am happy with the little I do have left but let that bull shit continue that cut off game gone be stronger then ever. All I have to do is ask God to remove in he will do it. But I thank God for my brother and baby mama for some wisdom words in they try to keep me away from shit. She actually got me where I started getting all my business stuff together. She came through one day in said invest it in something that's gone bring you more money in so you and yours can be good. She never ask me for nothing I have to force in give to her and she do me the same way but I love her for the push to get right before it's to late. She say we to old to be with drama in mess its time to invest your time into money.

I get to see my God baby in I love him to the moon and back an I'm gone always love all my babies equally. But as I learn everybody not who they say they are if it don't benefits them then they don't need you. I have learned who are my real friends and who only using me. But I never thought in all twenty-seven years of my life God would test my faith through sickness. But like I pray to him the devil will not win none of his battles because the lord is my Shepard in he will keep me in his arms and wings and heart. I know the lord will see me through it no matter what I know he will never let me down I have strong faith on this road that's coming up cause baby I'm going under three in he gone cover me in his blood through all three I know my faith lays with him and nobody else I'm ready for this test.

Let's go God we on a mission to getting right with you and my faith stronger with you so I'm ready lets get this passage started. My question to the world is who is gone be my real ride or dies? don't need no fake I need some real passengers on this train. I know this train is covered in the blood of the lord. I just have one question who ready for this ride to success? Well as you know now I have gave my life to the man up stairs. Now things don't bother me as much as it would have long time ago. The day has come for my best friend to get married. But before I go there I'm going to tell you'll about the events that went down before she walk to say I do in front of her family. Erica what's your plan for today? Oh nothing just left church heading home. Oh ok well we need to meet up so you can get fitted for your tuxedo. OK I'll get my brother to drop me off to you. OK Erica I'll be out there waiting on you to get here. I walk to Karen car I get a phone call from lyrical aka Lil Fred. What's up little sis? Nothing chilling about to get fitted for my tuxedo. Oh for real we on our way so we can get fitted. OK well be here. Who is we Lil Fred responded. It's me and Karen we together. OK we on our way now okay we'll be here.

Me and Karen inside getting me sized up for my tuxedo, I get a hey lady from a friend of mines. Of course me being me in my smart mouth. Hey bitch I ment hey girl how are you? She was like hey I'm doing good just chilling and living it up. I was like cool that's nice to know. I went back to minding my business. I get a call I'm outside sis from Lil Fred. We headed outside to meet up with them to get them fitted for their tuxedo and dress. They getting fitted for their things for the wedding I step outside to answer a call I received. Hey bae how are you doing? I took the phone down in look to see who it was in it didn't have a name. I was like who is this and who are you? She answer your lover. Bol girl which one hell that could be anybody. Don't do me like that I was your lover. Bol girl stop your madness bye. I go back in we finish up all the fittings. We parted separate ways to head to our houses. Soon as I got home I was relaxing in chilling, until I got a call from my brother Lil Fred.