Chapter 4: The Filth

"...and despair not of relief from Allah. Indeed, no one despairs of relief from Allah except the disbelieving people." (Qur'an 12: 87)

Noor's POV

Dad chastised mom "YOU WERE TALKING TO NOOR? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION," He shouted with so much power " I HAD FORBIDDEN YOU TALK WITH THAT RUNAWAY BRIDE! SHE IS A SLUT...."

" hiis wordss.. hhhis wordssss... mmmmmyy... father... my real father..." I mumbled as I had covered my mouth with my hand, I knew if I remove my hand I would screech so loud, tears started to roll down from my eyes uncontrollably, I tried to inhale the air so damn hard but my breath was stuck in my throat...

"She left us, she is the reason for all the debts your dad company is in... Don't know where the hell she would be now and who would be with her, She is a shame and a curse on our family, I should have buried her the day she was born, Allah forgive me, but I don't know with whom and how many she would be laying down with... Who lives with her... you know already better than me she's afraid of the darkness so obviously she is not living alone, she needs warm fingers around her to serene her... and..." he calmly explained shit about me to mom.

I tightened my hand on my mouth, in an attempt to not make any noise.

"STOPPP" I heard my mother's voice screeching very loud. At least she never thought of me like that and I sighed a little while crying.

"she is my daughter Hammad... daughter ... not mine yours tooo! It hurts me... pl...ease don't..." I noticed her voice fades away.

"SHE IS DEAD FOR ME AND IF SHE IS ALIVE THEN SHE IS NOT MORE THEN A SLUT TO ME"

So he is for me!

"Hammadddd" my mom calmly called his name

"Listen, sweetie, have you ever asked her who is living with her- a girl- oor a boy! Have you not ever asked that what fault was in her EX FIANCE. I know she would say she ran away because of me that I was selling her to other men"

I thought uncontrollably crying 'he thinks of me like...- howwwwwwwwww I'm his DNA and what a shame he does not trust his blood. His words are pinning in every part of my body. His words are silently killing me... My body is alive but my soul feels dead.'

'YahRABBI, helppp mee, console mee plzzzz I beg you plzzz. I never want to remember him... He is my past.. past .. my damn hell pasttt... I saved him and myself from this forced marriage. I had already paid so much for my freedom, I lost myself, my emotions, my love, my..dad, and himm.Himm.. my ex-fiance. Sahil... I never wanted to marry someone in my 19's I was so young, Dad forced me to marry him, he blackmailed me that he wouldn't let me live peacefully if I would do somethin' stupid. But later I started to felt something for him... his father wasn't ruthless like mine, not even a shadow wasn't aware of dad blackmailing me not even my mom, not even Sahil... As I got to know, he liked someone else, it was hard for me to leave him, only Allah and my diary knows that I loved him.  And still, my father is not caring at how much it hurts me Without even considering the consequences I ran away... I ran away for me... I ran away for him...'

'I never knew that the consequences would be so bad... My father thinks of me like...my character so....' I clutched on my bed covers so hard and rested my head on my knees shedding tears.

"How could a man sell his house respect to others? I already assured her that I will bring her back soon but she chose the dirtiest way, probably someone else already assured her that's why she was able to take a big step. No one can take a step like run away without having someone at their back! Open your eyes already Wifey."

'Why this long silence,  my mom hadn't defended me this time... whyy? she believed every poisoned word he spat out for me from his dirty mouth? Oh nooo... My life is getting more miserable then it ever was. Mom knows I'm listening to every single thing—- stilll!'

My father continued in an ordering way, " I Take it as yes, good, and never be in touch with her." At this moment I was physically here but mentally not as the past memories rewind in my head.

"Then... wh..at about the phone ca...ll you were on earlier saying that... you will get her back and marry her to someone I forgot his name." my mom gasped as she rolled her tongue. I guess She brought this up at this moment 'cause she wanted me to know that what's going to happen to me.

'Whatttttttt? Noo... I want to inhale in I...I...'

I stood up and started to walk back and forth in the bedroom. I felt nothing under my feet I lost control and fell down on my knees I hit my palms on my head so hard I cried I cried I cried after I dropped my phone in front of me...

'After all this cursing and shattering filth on my character he still wants to use meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! Is he For Real???? What the fuck does he want me to do after getting married? My body was trembling from fear I was not in my senses any more...'

"OOH, you eavesdropped on my phone call! That nerve probably came from your filthy little daughter... well okay if you know already then hear me out, She already scattered us and never been ashamed of her actions. So she wouldn't be ashamed of her actions now as she is Professional in this."

'Whattt yahh Allah! Save me! I don't care whatever he imaged me in his mind but he thinks it's easy for me to flirt as I'm professional in this... what... he should have slapped me instead of saying this, at least his slap means something which I can say he cares for me a little. But he says like I'm a sinner and Allah has taken his Hiadaya from me...'

"Okay dear wife now give me your phone I trust you but not this time"

After him asking mom her phone I wiped off my tears and hesitantly picked up the phone as I was about to cut the call but before I could I hear my mom saying "NOOOOOOO!!!!"

"HELLO, MY DEAR PRINCESS!. How are you?" Ohno my father nooo I inhaled finally when the tears stopped rolling down my eyes and I stood up firmly from the ground with the help of my right hand.

"OKAY!!! I know you are there and heard everything, AWW...See how destiny collides... As you already know every single detail so concentrate on the last one, I'm watching your each and every step my BABY..." I was lost hearing this. 

"So do whatever stupidity you want to do, I promised that I'll make your life horrible, so yeah now face it, I WON'T LET YOU DIE PEACEFULLY" I hold my chest.

"Well kidding girl I'm your father sorry to say... okay well I know you will not let out any words from your mouth so Allah hafiz... see you later on the day after tomorrow" and so he hung up He was so cold this time.

NOO NOOO NOOO

It was almost around one AM at night and quickly I did wudu and started to Pray Nawafils...