14. guilt
Butterflies!thats all I could feel when he hugged me !his warmth felt too comfortable,my petite self just fitted perfectly in his arms!I didn't wanted him let go!
The rain had stopped,but atmosphere was filled with cold breezes,as i hugged my jacket and muffler closer as I was walking with him back to my apartment,with my thoughts filled with the things just happened!a unintended smile broke out of me at the thought...
"What are you smiling about miss Jones?!"he says with suspecious eyes,with a hint of teasing.
"Oh uh ehhoh yeh..nahh!just thinking about the upcoming Dance fest this week."
"OOO!u love dancing don't you..!?"
"😎 Not only love! I do it well too"
"Aaaahh!!!ur participating this year?"
"Afc!!I'm doing contemporary this time along with my partner"I say looking around
"Partner!who?"he asks with a...frown!?
"Yeah!eric!the guy from literature"
"Oh!!ok!thats fine do well!"he says coming back to his cheerful self like before....weirdo!
"CKckckckkkck (chattering of teeths)"
"Ur shuddring in cold! didn't you have sense to wear a bit thick clothes?"I say removing my muffler
"U were all 'be there early! surprises n bla bla bla' so I just rushed out didn't know u had this all planned up!"
"Take this!"I hand him my muffler.
"No! Its fine!men are strong and I can handle this silly cold!not a problem"he says......."aaaachhuuu"
"Tsk! strong my foot!just so u know men are humans and humans catch cold!so wear this "I shove it around his neck standing on top of my toes (uff tall guys I tell you)
"Thanks!miss 5'3" he says making fun of me
"I'm 5'3.5 tall"I argue
"But ur still a minion in front of me!"he says nudging me
"I'm not short!!u have gigantism problem like srsly,how u so tall ,I do all the workout for mothes just find out that I've grown about like wt 1mm"I say trusfrated (😉)
"Hahahaha!tsk Adley!ur a big complain box aren't you!and every 8 out of 10 guys at University are as tall as me"
"Whatever bitch!!😤"I wave him off
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Ethan pov
"Come in!!!make yourself comfortable!ill get u something!"she says with a welcoming smile as she invites me into her apartment,it looks decent,clean and well furnished.i walk in roaming my eyes around a bit!
Image
My eyes catch pictures hung on the living room hall! family pictures!
My lips curves into a smile as I see her give a big fat smile in the picture showing all her teeths,a boy who looks smaller then her kneeling beside her looking into the camera with a football in his hand beeming a same smile as her,a woman in her late twenties arms wrapped around them with a smile and a man in his 30s standing behind them with tight smile with a kitty in his hand.a perfect family picture!
There were some other pictures of her and her brother too!she looked so happy.
"Your mom doesn't look like she's from here...?"
"Hm! Yeah!!shes from south asia!my dad first met her their"
"Aahh!!u look a lot like ur mom!"
"Alot of people say that! thanks"
" the bracelet u gave me was it given by ur parents?!" I ask wondering as it looks too familiar.
"No!......"she halts her work,with a sad glint covering her features.
She comes from the and hands me a coffee mug she just prepared.
"It was from someone who was my bestfriend!" She says looking down.
I quietly take sips of my coffee,as I see her in the eyes..."was..??u guys seperated or smth?"
"Hmm!she is in a better place!..in heaven"
"Oh!I'm SORRY I didn't know!" I say ,..she gives me a tight smile and gets up muttering a 'ill get u some snackz'
"Do-... do I know her! I mean was she from our university??" I ask as I wander around her living room,as I catch a small photo frame placed on the table,I move towards it...as I couldn't see it properly coz of the sunshine hitting its frame.
"Yea- I don't know...she was from our university," she tells from the kitchen, shuffling through the kitchen cabinets
I take the photo frame in my hand as I see two figures .... girls..,one being adley smiling at the camera with Messy hairs....
My brain stops working looking at the other girl,I keep the coffee mug on the table and hold the picture with both hand.... shaking, ' this cant be.. she's gonna hate me!!'my breathing becomes fast as if I'm close to having a panic attack.
"Her name was Ezra gracia" adley says.
The mention of her name makes me move away from the picture,I keep it where it was...and bolt out of her apartment,with blurry vision.
'i can't do this!!I can't tell her the truth nor can I keep her in dark....not after knowing how much of a good person she is!!I can't!... she'd be hurt!!!I saw how much she loved ezra...her eyes they tell... she'd feel so betrayed after knowing it!' I shake my head... throwing my tears off my eyes
'im sorry! I can't keep the promise!"
I mumble as see the bracelet she tied on my wrist.no wonder why it seemed familiar before.
It makes me wanna jump off a cliff thinking of Facing her and My heart twists at the thought of not seeing adley again at the same time! Just Within these few days of being with her,ive been fond of her,her smiles,her annoyed face.,her nonstop chat box of a mouth.,just her presence can make me feel 10000× better.just when I thought everything was going to be fine.....all came crashing down on my foot.'why is it have to be her!out of all the people"
I leave out a sob.
"I Just hope you won't hate me for it over there Ezra !I'm sorry I was late...and the guilt is eating me up!"
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