Chapter 5

Adrien picks me up and we all head, including my parents, across the street to my house. My parents stay downstairs in the bakery as Adrien carries me up to my room. I watch him go to the bathroom and check under the sink. The box is still sealed because I haven't messed with them. He brings out the box and sets it in front of me.

He is trying to hurt you, you should jump tonight. No one will really care.

"Marinette," He speaks so softly, I look at him, "I am glad to see that you have not cut. I am really glad. Though this is a lot sooner than I thought I would be over. I love you, and nothing will ever change that. You rest and I will see you in the morning."

I watch him place the box unopened back under the sink. He looks back right before and smiles.

He could careless. He wants you to disappear.

I slowly fall asleep with the voice continuing its usually rants. If only he knew that I got a few new blades, he wouldn't be so happy. I have cut, but like I would tell him that.

"Marinette, you are so stupid. How could you think we would ever be friends?" Alya's voice states coldly. "After everything you have done, why would anyone want to be your friend?"

"Dudette, I can't believe that you fell. It was so funny, if only you didn't live. If only when you walked to school, you would get hit by a car," Nino laughs. There faces still not visible.

"We wanted a son, so why did we have to get such a worthless daughter? One that has tried to kill herself already. Why couldn't she have been successful," My parents say as many figures start to appear.

"Why would anyone fall for someone as ugly and useless as you?" Adrien asks and I hear people laughing.

"Marinette, no one wants you to live. No one expects you to be at school tomorrow. No one cares if you die," My voice states. A mirror shows up and I see a girl who looks similar to me start to bleed and get random cuts until she looks like a monster.

It is almost time.

I wake up with a jolt. I get dressed plaster a smile on my face. Alya stands at the bottom of the stairs with both Nino and Adrien. We walk out of the house as I yell telling my parents that we are off. I start to get lost in thought and trudge behind them. As I start to cross the street, I hear a scream and look up. The person in the car isn't watching what he is doing. Time seems to slow down. I hear Adrien, Alya, and Nino screaming. I know it won't work but I try to run. The corner of his car hits me. He stops and gets out. The pain. My parents hear the commotion and run out.

Soon, I end up in a ambulance and end to a hospital. Doctor says I should live but keeps me there to ensure. Adrien, Alya, Nino, and my parents are with me at the end of the day. So, when they release me, all of us head home. Though today is Friday, so the weekend is next. Adrien, Alya, and Nino all say that they will stay with me.

Did it really hurt? Didn't you wish the Doctor said that you would die? Isn't that why you got lost in thought? They want to scar you. They want to hurt you. No one really cares except me. I don't want to be in pain any longer either. The pills that you had taken on your first attempt of suicide are not longer around. This time, we will have to make our death painful. I know that we should not live in this pain anymore. We both know that none of them actually care. Adrien would have taken the blades. He would have told your parents. They would have taken you to see a specialist.

For once the voice is right. I sit up, look at Adrien, Alya, and Nino sleeping. Then I open the door to the balcony. I get on the railing and start to open my arms. All I want to do is die.

I hear a few gasps behind me.

"Marinette, come on. Don't do this?" Adrien's voice pleads. I hear Alya's wimpers, my parents soft sobs, and Nino's heavy breathing. I turn around with a smile.

"I really love you guys, but I can't stand all the pain anymore. I don't want to fight it, I want to lose it. You have always shown me kindness, but that doesn't change anything," I paused as I watch Adrien take a few steps forward with his hand out. Tears stain his cheeks. "There are notes in my drawer for everyone."

He leaps for me as I drop back towards the street. I am falling, I close my eyes.

This is it, our painful ending to a painful life.