Chapter 5- SONG EUNJI

I still can't believe what I says yesterday to Jungkook.Right now I can't look at him because I feel so awkward about yesterday.I hope he forget what I say and nothing awkward happened.

I put the hood to the hoodie on my head hiding me to not be saw by Jungkook because I feel so awkward right now.

"What the hell?Who is that girl?",someone of the girl says growl hard

I turn my head looking to the people who are looking to a girl that she look for someone or something.All the girls are looking at her angry and jealous.I chuckle satisfied that someone makes the girls jealous.

Yoonbyul and the minions are walking towards her like divas.I borrow my eyebrows up thinking what she will do to that girl.I roll my eyes walking fast to that girl being in front of Yoonbyul face and back to the new girl.Yoonbyul is looking at me angry like she wants to hit me or anything.

"Get out of my face!",she growl on my face making me to roll my eyes

"Leave her alone!",I spoke tired of her actions

"You are deaf?I says get out of my face!",Yoonbyul speak clenched her hand on my wrist

"I said 'leave her alone'!",I growl at her taking brutally my wrist to her hand very fast."She is not your toy to play with her when you want,okay?,I add being closer to her face glared at her with a death glare

I take the hand of the new girl taking her somewhere she is safe.I let her hand alone looking at her face for some bruise.Right now I am so worried for her and for Sana.

"You okay?",I ask her taking the hood down

"Yeah,thanks",she speak softly looking at me smiling

"No problem",I speak looking at her smiling."My name is Eunha",I add extend my hand to her for a shake

She look at my hand worried than my face giving me a small smile.She extended her hands for shake it.

"Eunji",she speak shaking my hands fast

Whoa,her hand is so small,but she shake my hand so fast that I was thinking what she will broke my arm.

"Nice to meet you",I speak softly looking at her for some seconds

But someone catch my attention and I put my hood on my head scared who I saw.I can't believe he saw me.Right now I have to go to hide for him.

"Eunha?",someone yell my name before I go letting Eunji confused on the hall

"Me too!",Eunji yell to me when I start to run away

I run away that fast that my leg can run.In my left I saw girl toilet.I enter there leaning on the door going down in the floor.I sigh hard breathing heavily.I run a lot so fast that my breath stop for some seconds.I have to take my breath again.I hate a lot to run.I hate to run.When I have sports I start to find some excuse to not participate to the lesson.I am to lazy and bored to run.Sometimes I wonder that I am alike Yoongi.He is to lazy to run like me.

The ring bell is heard to all the school and I get up on the floor getting out on the girl toilet walking towards to the class.When I get there the teacher doesn't come and I am glad.I enter in the class being watched by Jungkook smiling when he saw me.I look another way walking to my table where Sana is sitting down.

I look for Eunji and I saw her sitting in my back.She smiles when she saw me waving to me.I smile to her turning to front if the class when the teacher came.

"Morning,class",our teacher says walking to her table smiling widely

We salute her some smiling and some being bored.Teacher is looking for someone and when she saw her she smiles.

"I see we have a new person,right?",our teacher ask making Eunji to nod."Come in front of the class to presents you", the teacher add pointing to the front class with her hand

Eunji get up on the chair nodding to her walking slowly to the front of the class being embarrassed for everyone who are looking at her some frown some with angry or death glare.I roll my eyes to them.

"Hi,my name is Song Eunji and I am form Daegu",Eunji spoke making Yoongi to get up of his sleep looking at Eunji smirking at her when he heard that she is from Daegu

I have a feeling to dejá vu he will do something to her.I look up to Eunji who she is looking at me scared.I give her a thumbs up smiling widely at her.She gave me a small smile before heading to her chair and table.Yoongi is looking at her since she go to her chair smirking without stopping.

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"Welcome to Seoul,Daegu girl",Yoongi speak when he arrive to Eunji locker smirking at her

Me and Sana are looking at each other confused why he says that.Eunji is looking at him confused why he call her "Daegu girl".It's first time when I heard him speaking with his Daegu accent.

"Welcome you too,Daegu boy",I tease him when he give me a death glare

Eunji and Sana giggle to me when I tease him.Sana know me very well.I like a lot to tease people like Yoongi or Jungkook.Yoongi ruffle his hair wink at Eunji before he leave us alone before he smirk at us.I roll my eyes tired for his action.

"Don't mind him.He likes to tease new girls especially when they come to Daegu",I spoke shrugging man in her to giggle

"He is from Daegu?",Eunji ask me pointing to him

I and Sana nodding to her question giggle.Eunji is so funny and very communicative.I like her since I saw her.

"Yeah",I speak shrugging."I am from Busan and Sana is from Ilsan",I add pointing to my best friends

"You two are best friends?",Eunji ask us smiling widely

I take Eunji arm and Sana another arm walking towards to our next class.

"Yeah,we are and we are in search for another best friends,right Sana?",I ask my best friends and she nod smiling widely

"Hell yeah!",Sana exclaim happy when I says that

Three of us starting to laugh like crazy making everyone in to the building looking at us scared why we laugh like some creeps.

I look on my right seeing Jungkook looking at me with his arms on his chest leaning on the lockers with a sad smile.Why he is sad?I look another way to avoid his gaze.

"Everything is happening with me.Everything is going down and what I make or do is wrong making everyone to be hurt.I am a bad person who knows perfectly to make people to be hurt and be in pain.I am very good to hurt people being alone without no one.I deserve to be hurt and hate by everyone.I don't deserve no one."

This words came immediately I saw him.I can't believe I says that words.I was so stupid to says that to Jungkook.In that moment I feel so weak and small.Why can't my mouth shut the fuck up for once?Ah,I feel so embarrassed right now.I want to disappear for a while,but I can't because I have to be to school.

"What he is his name?",Eunji ask me looking curious about his name

"Min Yoongi",I says his name looking straight in face

"M-Min Y-Yoongi?",Eunji stutter his name bitting her bottom lip

"Yeah",I says shrug."Why?You know him?",I ask her being curious

"A-Ani",she stutter again looking another way

Okay this is creepy.Why she stutter when I says his name?Did both of them know each other?Yoongi doesn't tease new girl on our school,but he tease her.I think they know each other and I will found that with every power of mine.I have to know that they know not of them.

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"We have to talk",someone says startle me jumping some centimeters for the bench

I look up to the voice,seeing him in front of my face with his hands in the pockets his facial expressions being serious.I sigh shaking my head that I don't want to talk.

"I can't!",I whisper continue to read in the book

"I don't care!",he says taking my book for my lap closing immediately forgetting where I was

"Yah,give my book,you jerk!",I yell at him trying to take my book

"Yah,don't swear!",he tsked to me rolling his eyes

"I don't care!",I repeat his words making him to growl at me."Now give me my book!",I add to him extended my hand waiting for the book

"I don't think so",he says open the book starting to read."I like this book",he add looking at my eyes smirking at me

"You don't like to read",I replied to him rolling my eyes

"But now I like",Jungkook speak closing the book leaning his back on the bench

"Jerk!",I mumble leaning my back on the bench

"I heard you!",he speak out turning his head to me giving me a death glare

I stick out my tongue like a kid."I know",I chuckle at his pouting making him to look like a child

"Why you avoid me?",he asked me after a long silence

"It doesn't matter",I says sighing looking up on the sky

"But for me it does",he suddenly says making me to look at him shocked what he says

I blink twice processing his words.Did he says that?He care about me?No,this is not true.He loves Sooyoung and Sooyoung love Jinyoung,but no one loves me.I fake a smile at him looking another way having tears on my eyes,but I wipe them immediately not wanted to be seeing by someone.

I hate when I am weak especially when is Jungkook around because he remind me what I did to him.I hate myself what I did to him.I don't deserve no one not Sana or my parents.I am a bad person.

I hate you Kim Eunha.

"Can you give me my book,please?",I beg Jungkook extended my hand who start to tremble

"I can't believe Kim Eunha begged me",Jungkook exclaim faking the shocking of his face looking at my face

"Please,Jungkook",I beg him again clenched my teeth tightly trying to stop my tears

He looks at me shocked when he saw me like that.Is the first time in my life when I am like that.I feel guilty and weak and I want to go somewhere where I feel good.

"Eunha,you okay?",Jungkook ask me try to touch my arm,but I slapped his hands going far away for him

"Give me that damn book!",I yell at his face startle him giving the book scared for me

I sit up on the bench going far away for him.I look back at him seeing him sad makes me sad too.Tomorrow I apologize to him,but now I can't.I feel so weak and embarrassed.

NEXT DAY

Next day is weekend and I feel relieved because I will not see two days Jungkook feeling sad for him for yelling at him.But I have to apologize to him.When I make my shower putting my clothes on me I go down on the kitchen seeing my father and mother with two strange person.

I go to the table seeing my old brother,Hyungsik with Jungkook?What the hell is he doing here?And when my brother came home?Hyungsik feel my presence look at me smiling widely.

"Hello you too,pumpkin",my old brother says getting up on the chair walking to me with his arms extended to me for a big hug.

"Yah,I told you many qualifications to not call my that",I yell at him pouting at him

"Not today,pumpkin",he tease me with that name again making me to roll my eyes frustrated

Both of us going to a big hug.I miss him a lot.Hyungsik is a model on the world so sometimes he have to go to everywhere to go for some photoshoots.I still can't believe he is here in Korea.Is a dream that I dream a lot.

We broke the hug looking at each other smiling widely.My brother kiss my forehead leading me to my chair helping me to sit comfortably.My brother lean to my ear whispering something that let me shocked.

"Your boyfriend is worried about you",after that he walk to his chair smirking at me

B-boyfriend?J-Jungkook?

Jungkook is not my boyfriend at all.I want to scream to my brother face that Jungkook is just a simple friend,but I can't because my parents are here and of course Jungkook.I roll my eyes to my old brother who is like a child rather than me.

"Morning,princess",my father tease me like my brother some minutes ago

"Dad...",I mumble looking down on the table feel awkward

Jungkook,my brother and my parents start to laugh to my awkwardness.I hate a lot when he call me that.Sometimes I want to be normal person and be a normal person.

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"What the hell are you doing here,Jungkook?",I yell at him when we arrive in my room

"I want to see you",he speak softly sitting down on my bed

I roll my eyes frustrated.I sit on my table with my butt putting my hands on my breast.Why he is here?Why he says that he wants to see me?Last time he was in love to Sooyoung and try to make her to fall for him and now he is here on my house to see me?

"Why are you here?",I ask him again nor wanted to here same words

"I want to know why you avoid me",he speak walking towards me being face to face

"None of your business!",I replied to him scoffed

Jungkook walking closer to me putting his hands to the side of my body on the table having his face closer to mine feeling his heavily breath.He move his face closer to mine making me to gulp.It's the first time when a boy is closer to me and the first time when Jungkook do that.

"Why you avoid me,Kim Eunha?",Jungkook ask me softly looking sad on me

His eyes are sad like his face.I hate to see him like this.I gulp looking another way not to see his face.Jungkook put his hand on my chin to look much better at him.He put his hand on my cheeks carising softly.

"Please tell me",he beg me looking deep in my eyes

"I....don't know",I try to speak sounds like a whisper

"What?You don't know?",he ask me mostly amused for what I say

I shake my head slowly."Yeah,I don't know",I laugh with him

Jungkook start to laugh before pulling me into a big hug having his head on my crook of my neck staying there frozen.

Jungkook?Hug me?Me?Why?Why me?

I put my hands around his neck pulling him closer to me feeling his body on my body.I can feel his abs through his t-shirt.I start to smile.We stay like this for a while smiling without stopping.

"So we are good now?",Jungkook ask me when we broke the hug,but being still closer

"Yeah,I think",I speak on my chin looking at his black eyes

"Good",he says pulling out of hug patting my head

I pout at his action.I can't believe he pat my head like a dog.I arranged my hair perfectly.Jungkook start to walk around my room looking to everything.Then he stop to a picture that I put there since I moved here.

I walk towards him looking sad at the picture when I saw the person on the photo.I miss her a lot.

"She was my little sister",I start to speak looking deep on the photo making Jungkook to look at me."She has 2 years old when she die to a car accident being killed by a drunk man.We came to a party that my father was invited when in front of our face a car came and hit us hard.My sister was in my lap and she hit her hard that she die in my arms",I continue touch the frame with tears on my cheeks."It's my fault.I didn't save her.I try to save her with all my power,but I didn't.Sometimes I hate myself because she die.I had to be there not her.In every night I have nightmare with that accident",I finish my sad story having tears on my cheeks

I wipe them off looking another way.The memories of that accident cane immediately to make me to hate myself.I try to save her,but I can't.I was to weak to save myself.

"It's not your fault",he speak for a while of silence

I turn to face him and he gave me a small smile to make me to feel good.I shake my head hugging myself with my arms.He pull me into another hug making me to sigh.I put my ha da around his waist pulling him closer to me.

Right now I to stay like this forever.To know that someone can make me to feel good.To feel safe.To feel good.To feel loved.And he did that to me.Even I avoid him for what I say he try to came closer to me and he win this game.I buried my face on his chest sighing hard.I didn't know that feeling in my life.It's very good.