New beginnings.

>>>A new year.

It's been months without hearing anything from my mom, I wonder if she misses me, anyways I changed schools met new friends but I am keeping Thando in my life forever, Langa's house is nice, I have 2 siblings both boys which makes me daddy's only little girl, his wife Lihle is amazing and very smart but a piece of me misses Noma.Langa is doing his best to make up for all the times, he has missed so tomorrow is Noma's birthday and I am thinking of going to celebrate it with her.

Me:"Tata"

Langa:"Yes,princess?"

Me:"So tomorrow is Noma's big day and I would not want her to celebrate it on her own."

Langa:"Okay I will take you there tomorrow morning but first we have to buy her something"

Me:"Yayyyyyyyyy!"

I am so happy to finally see my mom and hear all about college and how everything is going.

I told Langa to buy her a book, she loves reading a lot.

>>>>>>>>>>>The following day.

I wake up, brush my teeth, bathe and put on my new Nike tracksuits.

Me:"I am readddddyyyy !"

Lihle:"What's happening today?"

Me:"It's mommy's big day"

Lihle:"Oh is that so?"

Lihle's face changes a bit but I don't really pay attention to it.

Langa gets up and tells me to wait in the car, I think he can see that Lihle is not fine.

Langa:"I got the book and it's a good one, Noma used to tell me that she loves Novels so this one would do"

Me:"Did you ever love her?"

Langa:"Yes but things changed I couldn't marry a sex worker"

Me:"Then why didn't you help her, she was helpless she had no choice"

Langa:"She had choices and we are not going to have this conversation right now"

There's silence, we are both angry.

We have finally arrived, Noma's car is not there, there are people that I don't know.

Langa:"Hello"

Man:"Hey"

Langa:"I am looking for the owner of this house"

Man:"I am the owner, I bought this house a few months back"

Langa:"Okay thank you."

He comes back and is a little confused

Langa:"Your mother has left"

Me:"Left?Where did she go?"

Langa:"I don't know, but I promise you that I will find her"

Me:"Do not bother, it's all my fault, I bet she hates me"

Langa:"No she can never hate you, you are all she has"

Me:"Yet I left right?Did I stop and think for a second about her?"

Langa:"It is not your fault, Noma always leaves that's how she deals with things"

Me:"Always?"

He keeps quiet and hands me the novel

"Keep it safe" he says but I can not help but feel guilty.

I guess I deserve this.