Hurt

>>>>>Langa

I find myself in a place filled with happiness, I see her, she's standing there, I walk towards her, I see her it's Noma.

"Noma" I say! "Noma" but she can't hear me, she doesn't turn! "Noma" tears fall down.

I suddenly open my tears and I see Lihle.

Lihle:"You must be missing her that you have been screaming her name for hours now"

'Hours now'

Somehow I feel dizzy, my heart beats fast and I close my eyes

"Save him, save him"

I see her again.

Noma:"Sthandwa sam"

Me:"I am so sorry"

She holds my hand.

Noma:"Come with me"

Me:"Okay baby"

"We are losing him"

I hold her hand tightly, she leads the way and I find myself in a beautiful place.

Noma:"Stay with me"

"Langa stay with us, baby don't leave"

Noma:"We can start a new life together away from your parents, just us together forever like you promised, I love you Langa"

"Langa!Langa!Langa!Noooo Langa No"

What's happening?

Do I go back and live unhappy life with my kids or leave them and for once choose myself?

"Langa wake up"

I choose myself and the love of my life, for years I've been unhappy and finally we are together forever.

Me:"I'm staying"

My heart stops beating.

I hope they will be able to forgive me.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Lihle

"Langa!" he's not moving, his heart stopped beating

What's happening?Why is this happening?How do I tell the kids that their father left us?

Noma this is her fault and now I have to take care of her child!

This is just too much for a person to handle, I don't deserve this.

Langa must have been unhappy, our parents forced us to get married after I fell pregnant, he would sometimes call me by her name.

And now I am left with the consequences of the choice our parents made.

I just lost my bestfriend, the father of my children and my soulmate.

I wipe my tears, I still have to tell the kids.

He didn't even say "goodbye"

I hope this is a dream, a nightmare and tomorrow morning he'll come back.

(Sigh)

Boss:"Sorry for your loss, you are allowed to take days off until you're okay".

I am doctor, I save lives but I couldn't save my own husband's life.

Lihle:"Thank you Doctor"

I remember when I first met Langa, he was so handsome the way he used to look at me, I remember when we first kissed, when we first made love, when we had our first baby, when we got married and exchanged vows.

'Till death do us apart'.

This is death, we are apart now, both in different worlds and people think life is unfair.

I pack my things.

I play Fragile heart by Yolanda Adams all the way home.

Verse 1:

I remember the first time

You laughed with me

I remember the promises

You would never leave my side

Now I'm standin' with news of a tragedy

Standin' here with a fragile heart

See I never shed a tear

I stayed strong for them

When everybody disappears

It's only you that keeps me strong

I can't imagine goin' on

Without you in my life

Goin' on with a fragile heart

CHORUS:

When I think about, think about life

Lord I think of You

I forget about everything else

There's only you and I

I can't think about ever givin' up

Ever givin' up the fight

The only thing that matters Lord is You

Verse 2:

I ain't got no time to pretend

That I'm not missin' you

I know you're in good hands

The same hands that hold my heart

And I'll cherish every moment that we've spent

As a gift from God above

'Cause he takes care of all fragile hearts

Every verse hits deep.

Here I am going on with a fragile heart.