Irrevocable Past

April 15 Tokyo Disneyland 1-1 Maihama, Urayasu, Chiba Prefecture

"Two orders of Glove Shape Shrimp Cutlet." Sakusa ordered before giving back the menu to the waiter.

"Uhm... and w-what about the d-drinks, s-sir?" The waiter awkwardly asked as he looks back and forth to Sakusa then Atsumu, both of them weren't even paying attention to him.

Atsumu has been ignoring Sakusa right after what he did to him earlier.

"Well then be more uncomfortable." Atsumu clenched his fist tightly while looking down at his feet as he recalls how close Sakusa's face was to his earlier.

"Your face is red, Atsumu." Sakusa teased, the hint of a self-satisfied smirk playing across his lips can be seen.

" Just give him the fucking order, you dickhead!" Atsumu thought still looking down at his feet.

"Uhm... your d-drinks?" The waiter asked once again. "We have v-varieties of d-drinks that we can o-offer so..." 

The waiter was about to give back the menu to Sakusa but he suddenly stood up and placed his chair next to Atsumu.

As soon as he takes a sit, he wrapped his one arm around Atsumu's waist and lifted his chin with his one hand while gazing into his eyes, he seductively said,

"I don't think he wants any of your drinks because this guy right here likes to drink my----"

Atsumu cut him off by covering his mouth while stepping his feet roughly before he could say something weird.

"T-two c-colas, please!" Atsumu shouted as he force a smile towards the waiter. "That's all we're ordering." 

"Thank you." The waiter hurriedly left as soon as Atsumu ordered, not wanting to get involve with their love quarrel.

Atsumu then stood up and transferred to a seat across where Sakusa is.

He then pointed his finger towards Sakusa's lips, warning him,

"Don't you dare open your mouth again or else I'll leave you here alone."

With an evil smirk on his face, Sakusa leaned close to him, his chin resting in his palm, he then asked, "Are you sure?"

Atsumu frowned at him suspiciously, answering his question with a question, "You're not planning to do weird things again, are you?"

Sakusa just shook his head side to side before pretending to zip a zipper across his lips.

Atsumu didn't bother anymore but he had the urge to frown when Sakusa shifted his attention to his phone.

"This guy is definitely messaging girls right now." Atsumu thought. He held his gaze for a moment, waiting for him to stop but he didn't.

When he was about to give up, a sudden beep from his phone snapped him out.

When he pulled it out of his pocket, he then saw it was from Sakusa. He looked back at him but he acted as if he did nothing and just continued fidgeting on his phone.

Upon reading the message he got from Sakusa, he got more irritated.

"Stop staring."

"I'm not staring, you dumbfuck!" Atsumu shouted at him but Sakusa didn't pay attention. Instead, he continued focusing more on his phone. 

Another beep from his phone came again and when he looked at his notifications, it was from him again.

"If you didn't stop staring earlier, I could have not controlled myself and will fuck you over this table."

Atsumu was about to protest but another message came.

"I wanna kiss you so bad."

Another message came in again.

"I wanna kiss all your favorite spots."

And another.

"I'll go from your lips first,"

And another one came in.

"Then I'll start nibbling your ears and lick all the way down your neck."

Atsumu annoyingly glanced back at him and was surprised that Sakusa has been staring at him for a while now.

A smirk formed on his lips as soon as he met his gaze and a message was sent once again.

"I know you like it when I play with your nipples while I thrust it deep down inside you."

He was about to stand up and confront him but the waiter came with two plates of Glove Shape Shrimp Cutlet in each hand.

"Here's your or--- eh?" The waiter leaned down close to Atsumu as he saw his face.

He then asked, "Sir, are you alright? Your face is bright red."

"I-It's the h-heat!" Atsumu stuttered before looking down at his feet once again to hide his face. The waiter glanced up and all he could see were dark clouds forming at the sky so he thought that there's no way it was the heat.

"Do you perhaps have a fever?" The man was about to touch him but Sakusa suddenly grab the waiter's hand, pulling it away from Atsumu.

He gripped the man's hand tightly and forced a fake smile, he then asked him, "You do know it's disrespectful to touch someone without their consent, right?"

"And that goes for you too, you dickhead!" Atsumu shouted, sounding embarrassed right after because he forgot the waiter was still there.

He quietly took a sit and took a gulp of his cola but then choked when he heard what Sakusa said next.

"I haven't touched you yet."

The waiter gave them an awkward laugh before he took a step backward to escape while holding the tray.

"P-please enjoy the f-food."

As soon as he left, Atsumu glared back at Sakusa who was already busy eating his food.

"That was not fucking funny."

He decided to give up and reverted his attention back to his food because that was one of the reasons why he wanted to go to the theme park. 

"It really is shaped like Mickey's glove." Atsumu thought while his eyes seems like sparkling with joy.

He took out his phone to take a picture of it but another message came in from Sakusa.

"The food is not delicious. Can I eat you instead?"

Atsumu gripped his phone in annoyance because of this man in front of him who acts like he didn't do anything by drinking his cola while staring right at him.

"I'm seriously pissed off. Can you stop doing this?" Atsumu said before biting his lips to calm his self from saying anymore rude things that will ruin his mood.

Sakusa went back from fidgeting his phone once again and another message came from him.

"I'd like to bite that lip too."

Atsumu roughly massaged his temples before taking a deep breath.

He had enough.

He glanced back at Sakusa who was staring at him with a hint of self-satisfied smirk plastered on his face, his chin resting on his palm. 

"You're more dangerous when you're silent so please just talk and don't send any messages anymore." Atsumu said then took a quick photo of his food and started eating.

Both of them were silent for a moment. Atsumu was obviously in a bad mood and he looked like he was not enjoying his food.

Sakusa, on the other hand, started to feel guilty of what he did. All of his actions earlier ruined the joyful atmosphere they have had for the date.

He stood up from his seat and left Atsumu behind without saying anything that made Astumu furious in return.

"What the heck is wrong with that guy leaving me all alone in here?" Atsumu murmured as stares at Sakusa who walked straight ahead without looking back and soon disappeared into the crowd.

Atsumu took his fork and stabbed the tomato on his plate non stop as if venting his frustration to it. 

Soon after, the theme park suddenly lit up with a bright flash of lightning, and thunder rumbled loudly.

His surroundings suddenly turned pitch black and he started breaking out cold sweat. He couldn't feel his legs at all.

He felt weak.

And he felt so scared.

He stood up and quickly grabbed his coat which was placed on the seat next to his.

He walked straight and he could feel someone bumping him but he couldn't see them.

All he sees was darkness.

"Atsumu! Hey!" Sakusa called him out over and over but he thought he was being ignored by him.

He roughly pulled his arm as he almost got hit from a mini bus passing by.

"You okay?!" Sakusa asked as he check every part of his body but Atsumu didn't utter a word.

As Sakusa held Atsumu's hand, the darkness around him suddenly disappeared, all went back to normal.

He stared closely at Sakusa and to his surprise, he arrived, holding a Baymax plushie, its size is almost half of Sakusa's height.

"Where were you going?" Sakusa asked as soon as he felt that Atsumu was slowly going back to his senses.

"You're done eating? You're suppose to rest or else you'll have an upset stomach if you walk after you eat."

"Where did you go? I thought you... already left..."  

Sakusa was shocked as he saw Atsumu's facial expression. He seems frightened and he was sweating so bad, not even noticing that his coat on his right arm was almost touching the floor.

"There's no way I'll leave you." Sakusa assured him.

He handed the plushie to him before pulling out his hankie out of his pocket.

"I saw you staring at it when we passed by the souvenir shop so I thought of buying it for you that's why I left."

Sakusa pulled him closer for a tight embrace as he stroke his hair gently. "I will never leave you as long as you want me by your side so always remember that."

He wiped off Atsumu's tears which he didn't notice that he was crying already. "Why are you even crying?"  

"I'm n-not crying, you i-idiot. I-It's r-raining." Atsumu said as an excuse that made Sakusa laughed. 

"If you say so then it really is from the rai---" He was then cut off when two droplets of water streamed down his face.

"Greetings from all the tourists!" An announcement was heard from the public address speakers attached on top of the poles.

"We are sorry to inform you that tonight's parade is cancelled due to Typhoon Neoguri which already landed in Honshu at exactly 1:32 in the afternoon. Please accept our apologies with regards to this unfortunate matter. Thank you for your understanding."

As soon as the announcement ended, a heavy downpour of rain caused commotion at the theme park. People ran off to find shelter that made all the nearest stalls full from where Sakusa and Atsumu were.

"Grab that one tightly so that you won't get wet." Sakusa said as he pointed at the plushie, Atsumu was holding.

He held his hand and they run towards the exit, down the parking area. He opened the door on the passenger seat and grabbed the plushie from Atsumu so that he can get in.

He then opened the door on the rear seat and gently laid it down before going back to the driver' seat.

"You alright?" Sakusa asked as he grabs a towel behind the car and dried Atsumu's hair with it.

"I don't need this." Atsumu slapped his hands off of him that shocked Sakusa.

Downhearted, he placed the towel on his lap before starting the engine to leave.

"I've been doing everything to make you happy but I guess nothing seems to be working." Sakusa said without taking a glance, his disappointment was written all over his face.

"Sorry if we can't see the parade tonight but don't worry cause I'll ask Komori to reserve you another ticket." Sakusa continued, his gaze fixated ahead.

"You mean reserve 'us' a ticket, right?" Atsumu asked, correcting what he said. He grabbed the towel placed on Sakusa's lap and started drying Sakusa's hair with it which was soaking wet.

"What I said before was 'I don't need the towel', not because I was rejecting your kindness but because I was more worried about you."

Both were silent for a while as Atsumu continued drying Sakusa's hair down to his forehead, cheeks and to his neck. 

Sakusa who was dumbfounded, he kept staring at his face intently as if in thoughts if it's the right guy who he drag at the parking area.

He didn't expect what Atsumu did because he was in a bad mood the whole time he was with him.

When the silence became uncomfortable, Atsumu glared back at him. "Stop staring and say something!"

"L-let's head home n-now." Sakusa said, his voice sounded unhappy but his face says otherwise. He grabbed Atsumu's arm, pulling it away from his neck.

While keeping his attention on the road, he dryly said, "We need to hurry up cause they might block the roads."

They were both silent on the way back for a long time. Not knowing what to say, they both kept their mouth shut.

As soon as they arrived, Sakusa pulled over and told Atsumu to wait. 

"Wait? Why would I--?"

Not long, he saw Sakusa coming back with an unopened umbrella on his right hand. He went straight to the passenger seat and opened the door for him. 

"Take this umbrella with you. I'll take the plushie with me so go ahead." 

He was about to open the door of the rear seat but Atsumu grabbed his arm to stop him. "Forget about it! You should have limit with how stupid you can be."

When they entered the house, Atsumu went straight to the bathroom and prepared a hot bath for him.

"Take a bath or else you might catch a cold." Atsumu commanded as he forcibly push Sakusa in because he wants Atsumu to take a bath first instead.

"Shut the fuck up and go first!"

He tried to push him hard but the droplets of water all over the floor knocked him off balance and he fell face down on top of Sakusa's chest.

When he heard him groaning in pain, he quickly stood up as he remembers his wound on his chest he got during the incident on the day of his birthday.

"Fine! If you don't want to go in first, then let's take a bath together so that no one is left behind!"

"No." Sakusa flatly rejected him. He got in the bath without saying anything more.

He shuts the door behind him, leaving Atsumu who was dumbfounded with the sudden change of Sakusa's attitude.

"You have the guts to flirt with me earlier but now that I ask you to take a bath together, you're rejecting me?!"

Atsumu shouted outside of the door before he stomps his way down the kitchen to get a bottle of water.

When he was about to open the refrigerator, a glimpse of a bottle suddenly caught his attention.

--

"Who're you calling?" Ukai asked, who was coming in from the kitchen, a beer in each hand. "Sakusa?"

"Well, yeah." Komori answered as he open his beer and took a gulp before continuing,

"I forgot to tell him not to drink the wine I have at home because I will be giving it to a client that Sakusa-san want us to deal with."

"Wine? Don't tell me there's something in it?" Ukai laughed as he lights up his cigarette.

"You're watching too much anime." Komori chuckled as he remembered that one anime on which the wine containing someone' spinal fluid has been served throughout the military police. "Yeah, it does have something in it."

He continued to sip his beer, he added, "It's a Korean Red Ginseng Wine I bought before I came here in Japan and it was well known being the most effective aphrodisiac alcohol so it really was expensive. Sakusa-san will definitely get mad at me if I didn't bring that one next week for the client meeting. I don't want to go back to Korea just to buy that wine."

Ukai took a sip of his beer while looking back at Komori with the rim of the beer still on his lips, he asked, "He likes red wine, right?"

He paused, not knowing if his question will be inappropriate but still continued, "Do you think he'll drink that one and do something unholy inside your house?" 

"If he did, I'll force him to buy me a house in Hawaii so I can peacefully retire with my girlfriend there."

--

Little did they know, it wasn't Sakusa that they shoud be worried of but it was suppose to be him.

"You're drinking way too much!" Sakusa exclaimed while trying to snatch the glass of wine from Atsumu. "What the heck is wrong with you?"

Right after Sakusa took a bath, he didn't realize the time he took because he was in deep thoughts, thinking how he'll face Atsumu right after those sweet gestures he did for him.

As soon as he finished, he saw him holding a bottle of wine in his right hand while a glass on his left.

He bent down to see Atsumu's face who was sitting on the floor of the living room, his head resting on the couch behind him. 

"Are you alright?" He asked, lifting Atsumu's chin with his curled index finger. To his surprise, Atsumu's face was flushed red.

"Wait for me here." Sakusa was about to get him a bottle of water but he was then grabbed by Atsumu. He was hugging his right leg, stopping him from leaving.

"I'll bring you a glass of water so get the fuck off." Sakusa roughly shrugged his leg to get Atsumu off of him but he pulled Sakusa's leg even closer to his chest.

"...rry me, p-please." Atsumu murmured which Sakusa didn't catch.

"Come again?" He was about to bend down to hear him say it once again but he felt something hard on his foot that made his blood pulsed painfully in his throat, and his face grew warm.

"T-toilet.." He breathed which Sakusa has processed what Atsumu was saying earlier, a bit disappointed because it was not what he was expecting.

"Don't give me false hopes, you fucking dumbprick. I almost thought you were talking about marriage earlier." Sakusa uttered on which he was sure that Atsumu wasn't even paying attention to. 

He was about to grab his arm to help him stand up and to carry him to the bathroom but what Atsumu did next was the least Sakusa was expecting him to do.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" Sakusa shouted that echoed around the house. Atsumu was unconciously rubbing his erection against his foot.

"I c-can't t-take it a-anymore." He breathed. He gripped Sakusa's shirt as his support to stand up.

"P-please..." Atsumu breathed against Sakusa's ear, his arm wrapping around his neck. "P-please do s-something about it."

Sakusa felt his erection, which he languidly pushes into his, enough to turn him on.

"No." He tried to push him away but Atsumu started moving his hands around Sakusa's back, giving it a gentle carress.

"I'm b-begging you... i-it was the d-drink..." He tried to undress Sakusa' shirt but was stopped by Sakusa who was already glaring at him.

"You won't regret this, will you?" He asked with a cold voice, his facial expression seems dead like the first time he met Atsumu.

Atsumu slowly nodded in response. Sakusa reaches down and caress his face, his thumb trailing Atsumu's lower lip.

He leaned down to kiss him but paused before his lips could touch his. He stared at his eyes, wanting, asking permission, "Are you sure?"

Atsumu, who was already desperate, he raised his lips to his which the man returned passionately.

Atsumu moved his hand in his own accord and twisting into Sakusa's hair, pulling his self closer to him with his mouth opening as his tongue stroking his.

Sakusa grasped Atsumu's nape as he deepens the kiss, responding to the his ardor. His other hand slides down Atsumu's back and flattens at the base of his spine as he pushes him against his body.

"Do you have the slightest idea how much I wanted this?" Sakusa whispered in his ear, and he began to trail featherlight kisses around Atsumu's ear and down to his neck.

"You really want me to do it with you tonight?" His voice was intoxicating, his words heady, and seductive. "If you want me to stop then do it while I still can."

Atsumu felt his growing erection against his thigh. He bit his lip to stop himself from moaning which Sakusa has noticed.

He pushed his thumb inside his mouth which Atsumu sucked in return.

"Stop tempting me." He took a deep breath and swallowed. 

Atsumu looked up at him longingly as he sucks Sakusa's thumb and started licking his fingertips next.

"Damn you, Atsumu."

He swiftly carried Atsumu to their bedroom while kissing him roughly on their way.

"W-wait." Atsumu moaned into his mouth, giving Sakusa an opening which he took full advantage. 

As soon as they arrived, Sakusa laid him down the bed and started undressing him. 

"You smell so nice." He nuzzled behind the his ear. His hands moved down, skimming his waist, over his hip, and down to his thigh to the back of his knee.

He pushed Atsumu's knee higher as he starts to rub his erection to his.

"W-wait, d-don't!" Atsumu pleaded as he tries to push Sakusa off of him. "I'm c-coming."

"Then come." Sakusa seductively said as he stares at Atsumu's face, all red.

He was about to reach his erection but Sakusa grabbed his hand and pinned both over his head.

"Who told you to touch yourself?" Sakusa leaned close to his neck giving him open mouth kisses. "Keep still."

He grabbed a bottle of lube in his drawer and poured an ample amount on his fingertips. He slowly inserts his index finger inside Atsumu, thrusting it slowly and deep in his entrance.

The effect was mind-blowing to Atsumu as Sakusa started licking his nipple in circles, in sync with every thrust of his finger inside him.

"You really like someone playing with your nipples, huh?" He asked, his facial expression was unreadable. It seems like he was a different person.

"If it was some other men who play with your nipples like this, you'll moan like a fucking bitch, right?" Sakusa asked as he bit his nipple, forcing a loud moan out of Atsumu's mouth.

Atsumu tried to keep his breathing under control, trying to absorb the disordered, chaotic sensations that his fingers are unleashing on him.

Without warning, Sakusa inserted another finger inside his ass that made him moan again, the pleasure taking full control of his body.

"I w-want to c-come, please." Atsumu begged as he tries to break free from Sakusa's grip on both of his hands over his head.

Sakusa was pinning him down, keeping up a constant, slow tortuous rhythm.

"Then beg for it." He removed his fingers inside him and leaned close to his lips, only a few centimeters apart.

"You want it, don't you? So beg for it." Sakusa teased as he lines himself up, rubbing his tip at his entrance.

"O-omi." Atsumu called out that took him by surprise. "Y-you keep b-blabbering non-sense the moment we s-started by saying o-other m-men and s-stuff. Can't y-you just shut u-up and d-do me?"

Atsumu took a deep breath and stared back at him. "Do you really think I would go this far knowing it's just you who I want to stay by my side?"

Sakusa was speecheless for a long moment, not knowing what to respond with what Atsumu has said.

"Tsk." Atsumu clicked his tongue as he annoyingly looked at him. "I went soft already so can we talk for a second?"

Sakusa nodded as his grip around Atsumu's wrists loosened. The surprised look on his face can still be seen and it took him a minute to speak.

"You won't..." Sakusa stopped for a moment, not knowing if he wants to continue because he thought he'll might sound stupid in front of his lover.

Atsumu sat up and held the man's cheeks. "It's just you and me, okay?"

The man nodded slowly as he pulls Atsumu close to him for an embrace, so close that he can feel how fast Atsumu's heart was beating.

"Your heart is beating too fast." Sakusa chuckled as he caress his hair.

"It's because I'm furious with you, you fucking slowpoke."

Sakusa pulls him away and stared at him. He held both of his hands, with a pure smile on his face, he uttered,

"I love you so much, Atsumu."

Hesitant, Atsumu answered him with a smile and by giving him a kiss on top of the man's head. "I know."

Sakusa was already expecting that from him. From the very start of their relationship, not even once he said that he loves him too but he was fine with it.

He was satisfied with Atsumu staying by his side even though he knew how evil he is but he can't help but to feel disappointed.

"I'm sorry for leaving you earlier without telling you." Sakusa apologized on a quiet voice as he buried his face on Atsumu' shoulder.

"Why are you saying sorry about that?" Atsumu laughed softly at him.

Sakusa hugged him tighter in return. He was afraid to ask but he wanted confirmation from him.

"You're afraid of the thunder, right?"

Atsumu didn't answered back. Sakusa expected that since Atsumu is the type of person who never tells anyone his secret.

But what shocked Sakusa was Atsumu's body is slowly falling down towards him.

"Atsumu?" Sakusa called out but he didn't answered back.

"Hey, wake up! Atsumu?!"

"Hey! Atsumu?!" A child who was on his way to wake his older twin brother called out but soon found out he was burning with fever.

"Mom! Atsumu has a fever!" The kid quickly ran down the stairs to call his mom.

"What?! Did you went inside his room?!" His mom walked towards him and cupped his face. "Don't come near him, you understand?!"

The kid only nodded in response.

"Good. Now go or else you'll be late for school." His mom pushed him away but the younger stopped her.

"No one will take care of him so I'll just skip class." He begged, but his mother didn't allow him.

"I'll be the one taking care of him so rest assured he'll be fine as soon as you go home later, okay?"

The younger nodded once again, trusting his mother's promise.

He went to school normally, listened to class attentively and went to cram school right after.

All went well but he soon found out that his mother didn't fulfilled her promise. He saw his brother cooking his own meal, using the kitchen counter as his support not to fall down.

He slapped both of his cheeks hard and acted cheerfully infront of his twin brother.

"Now I'm convinced that you're not stupid." The younger said as he jokingly bump into his twin brother.

"If we're talking about stupidity here then that will be you, Osamu." The older fired back.

"If I'm stupid, then what does that make you, Atsumu? A fucking jellyfish?" 

"Shut up, you fucking monkey!"

The Miya family. Their family is not the normal household you'll ever find. The mother of the twins is working for the Tokyo Metropolitan Police Department, while their father is the State Minister of Justice.

Both were well known for providing exceptional law enforcement services. To honor their commitment, they've been granted the Grand Cordon of the Order of the Chrysanthemum, the highest conferred honor, for exceptional merit.

Both were blessed with twins who looks so similar yet, they have different personality.

One was outgoing, the other was not. One was kind, the other was rebellious. One knows how to cook, the other might burn the house if he tries to. Even if they do have different personality, they had the same goal in life.

It was to save people.

"Mom." Osamu called out.

"Yes, honey? You need anything?" His mother asked as she wipes the soap off of her hand using the dish towel placed on their kitchen counter.

"My teacher wants you to go to school for a parent meeting." He handed a piece of paper to his mother which also has a note for his career path.

"Omo! I forgot that you'll enter college this year!" The mother exclaimed as she swiftly snatched the paper from her son.

"Let me see what we got he---" As soon as she read what her son wrote, she didn't knew how strongly they impacted their son's path.

"You want to be a police too?!" His mother shouted angrily as he raise the paper in front of his face.

The younger slightly nodded his head because he didn't expect the expression that his mother was showing. He thought that once he become the same as them, she will be more proud of him.

"Ah!" A boy shouted who came in from the living room, full of bruises all over his body. "You cheater! I was about to tell Mom too!"

"Is this also about the parent meeting for your career path?" The mother asked as she walks towards her older son who was also holding the same paper.

"You want to be a police?" The mother asked on which the older nodded his head in response. "Then that will be great, Atsumu!"

Surprised from the difference in response from his mother, Osamu snatched the paper from her hand and stormed out of the house.

It has been two days by then when they haven't found him. Both of their parents who were working as honorable police and minister of justice couldn't even force their selves to report what happened because they were afraid that it will dirty their name.

"I know where to find him!" Atsumu shouted as he had an idea on his brother's whereabouts.

He took his bag, filling it with his favorite snacks he can share with his younger twin brother because he knows that he's the type of guy who has been always hungry so he thought that not eating two days straight will be fatal for him.

The older twin left without leaving any notes behind for his parents.

He took two bus rides and three train rides away from their home, taking him almost eight hours on his way.

But as soon as he saw the sunrise from the valley not far away from where he was hiking, the rode trip was all worth it as he also saw his younger brother under a tree while looking at the same scenery as his.

"Yo! My precious little brother!" Atsumu called out that took the younger by surprise.

"What are you doing here?!"

Atsumu clicked his tongue as if in disbelief that Osamu was not happy to see him.

"I came here to save you!"

Save.

That one word which ticked Osamu off.

"Did I ask you to save me?" The younger asked with a cold look on his face. "Because I don't remember calling out for you."

He dust off his pants and was about to leave but Atsumu grabbed his arm to stop him.

"I brought you some onigiri, Osamu." He shouted as he hands his bag to him. "I spent all my savings to buy you all of the different fillings because I know how hungry you are."

"I don't need it!" Osamu shoved the bag away causing the onigiri inside get smashed. The younger walked out leaving the older behind.

Annoyed, Atsumu run as fast as he can and when he was close, he kicked Osamu's back causing him to fall face flat on the grass.

"Is this about the career path we talked about with Mom?!"

Osamu sat up as he gently caress his back that was hit by him. He didn't answered back to his question because even if he denies it, Atsumu will know that he's lying.

"You should be happy that Mom didn't force you to do it!"

He grabbed the younger's collar and shouted, "Mom doesn't want you to be a secret agent because she knows how dangerous it is to become one!"

Osamu fought in return by smashing his head onto his, causing Atsumu to fall back.

He quickly stood up, grabbing Atsumu's collar, he then shouted back, "Then why was Mom so happy when it was you who said that you wanted to become one?!"

"It's because they want to get rid of me!!" Atsumu shouted that took Osamu by surprise.

It was the first time he saw his older brother crying.

His brother who has always been a problematic child, fighting every gang around their district, is now crying like a child in front of him.

"I h-heard them talking w-when we were in m-middle school." He swallowed down a sob and wiped his eyes free from tears before continuing,

"'If Osamu wants to be like us, I will never approve of that', is what our Mom said which our father also agreed with. They said that they don't want you to take a career path which will endanger your life."

The older uttered in a quiet voice. For a moment he seemed choked, and a great sob rose in his throat.

"When my name came up, do you know what our parents said?"

Osamu didn't respond which pissed Atsumu off. He tightened the grip on his collar and shouted,

"Did you know what our parents said? They don't give a fuck on what profession I'll choose, even if it is dangerous or not, because I'm a disgrace to the family!"

He pushed his younger brother causing him to fall down the grass.

"I'm not smart, talented or even kind like you. I'm not good at anything and you fucking know that. Even if I work hard, our parents will never recognize me."

"Y-you know that's n-not true." Osamu stuttered as he reach out for Atsumu's hand to calm him down. "I know that our parents love us equally. It's just that you don't notice it."

He cupped Atsumu's face with both of his palm as he smiles at him with tears coursing down his cheeks, "I envy you because you are free to do whatever you want unlike me."

"Don't fucking joke around!" Atsumu annoyingly shouted as he shove Osamu's hands off of his face. 

"You know what? I really hate having someone like you as my twin."

Atsumu left leaving his younger brother alone.

Six.

Seven.

Eight hours passed but both haven't reconciled.

Atsumu kept walking on a straight path, hoping he'll see a village near the valley. But he didn't expect what he'll see next.

It was a live execution of three people with a sack on their head and were tied around a metal pole.

People were laughing hysterically as if enjoying the suffering of those three men who were full of bruises and stains of blood that has dried up all over their body.

"Oiwake!" The man on an elegant suit called out which Atsumu thought was their leader.

"Have you got some info from them?"

The other guy whom he called Oiwake, walked towards one of the three men who were tied up and suddenly started smashing the man's head using the bat he was holding, the man's blood splattered to his face.

When didn't had enough, he did it over and over until half of the poor man' skull was smashed into pieces. Upon seeing this, Atsumu felt sick enough to make him puke.

"That lessened my stress." The sighed in relief as he wipes off the blood using his hankie.

He pointed his bat to the poor man who was already dead and said, "I've already got loads of info from that guy."

"Then that's good. If that info will be enough, you can kill the other two secret agents so we can head home now to avoid the storm coming."

As soon as the leader left, the man pulled out his gun and killed them mercilessly by shooting them multiple times.

Right after he made sure that all of them were dead, he handed his bat to one of his men and said,

"Let's go."

When they were about to leave, a cold sweat broke out of Atsumu's forehead when he heard Osamu suddenly screaming for his name.

"Atsumu!!" Osamu fell on his knees as he catches his breath, "I'm really sorry back there. I should have sa----"

He quickly covered Osamu's mouth but it was all too late.

He slowly turn his head from their direction and saw the people from earlier glaring at him, surprised and angry at the same time.

"Get those kids!!!" Oiwake shouted, ordering his men to follow them.

He held Osamu's hand tightly and he run as fast as he can, dragging him up the valley where there are trees they could use to hide.

"We need to call Mom!" Atsumu shouted as he slides down under the roots of a tall, old tree, dragging his brother with him.

It didn't took long when they heard footsteps near the tree where they were hiding.

"I saw them coming this way!" One of the men shouted as they go straight down the lake.

"Go find them." The man earlier who killed three people stopped on top of the roots where they were hiding that caused shiver run down their spine.

Atsumu put his index finger to his lips, signaling his brother to keep quiet.

Osamu, who was so scared and terrified, nodded his head and covered his mouth tightly with his shaking hand.

Soon after, both heard the man leaving where they were.

"We need to get out of here." Atsumu whispered as he pulls his phone out of his bag to call for help but a huge hand of an adult coming from above the ground snatch the phone from him.

"Found you."

With his dreadful eyes, the blood which hasn't come off of his face and his wide smirk plastered on his face, both were frightened to death that they can't even feel their legs anymore.

Oiwake pulled Atsumu out but Osamu grabbed both of his legs, stopping the man from taking him.

"Let him go!!" Osamu shouted. The noise coming from him was soon silenced when the man pulled out his gun and shot him.

Atsumu was completely flabbergasted on what he saw. He saw his younger brother lying on the ground with blood gushing out of his body.

"That's it?" The man looked at Atsumu, confused because he has stopped moving and was just staring at his twin brother.

"Such a boring kid." He carried him over his shoulder and happily said, "Since, I've relieved my stress earlier, I'll give you the chances of living, okay? I don't want to take this long cause it's raining so heavy already and I don't want to die getting hit by lighting on top of this valley."

The man stepped on the edge of a cliff and without any doubts he pushed Atsumu.

As soon as the man saw the kid's body rolling over and over down the valley, he left, confident that the child won't live.

Rain poured heavily that night as the thunderstorm was heading its way towards the valley.

The huge droplets pouring down Atsumu's face cause him to wake up with three of his ribs broken and his right arm dislocated.

He was miraculously alive after falling down the cliff almost 30 meters in height.

As soon as he gained consciousness, he tried his best to come back where Osamu was, not knowing if he is still alive or not but he was hopeful.

He knew that he wasn't shot somewhere vital. He prayed over and over that he's awake and treating his injury somewhere.

After an hour, as soon as he arrived at the tree where they were hiding earlier, he didn't saw Osamu anymore.

"Fuck!" Atsumu cursed as negative thoughts invade his mind.

The more he thought about the possibility of them taking him, the more panicked he felt.

He called for his brother's name over and over but he was nowhere to be found.

"Where the hell are yo---" Atsumu stopped as he sees traces of blood trailing down the lake. He hurriedly followed the blood on the grass, thankful that the storm has passed.

As he arrives at the lake, he saw Osamu sitting on the ground while wrapping a piece of his shirt around his wound on his arm.

He called out for his name that made them glad that both of them are safe.

"I was about to go look for you, you idiot! You scared the shit out of me!" Osamu shouted as he stood up and gave his brother a tight hug that hurt Atsumu so much but he tried to prevent him from noticing.

"I swear if you plan on leaving the house, I will never pick you up again."

Osamu chuckled as he bent down to get his older brother's bag.

"Let's go ho---" Atsumu was cut off when he saw lights coming from different direction around them. Both quickly hid behind the grass but not long, a familiar voice called 'him' out.

"Is that you?!"

It was their mother with her unit. She hurriedly run towards Osamu and calls for a medical unit as soon as she saw his wound on his right arm.

"Mom, I'm fine. It was just a graze." He pointed at Atsumu and said, "He needs it more than me."

"No! You need to be treated right now!" He dragged his younger son with her, leaving Atsumu behind with one of his mother' subordinate with him.

"You're not alright, are you?" A man with a messy black hair and brown eyes along with eye glasses asked.

"I'm f-fine, Takeda-san." Atsumu smiled purely towards him, "I'm really glad that he's safe."

Six years after that incident, both graduated at the Metropolitan Police Academy in Tokyo.

Not long, Osamu was promoted to be one of the secret agents of the well known Division of Intelligence agency because of his exceptional talent.

But after a year, in Akigawa Valley, the same place where they saw that incident, same weather, same people,

Atsumu saw Osamu getting killed with his own eyes by the leader of the most powerful yakuza family in Japan, Sakusa Daiki. 

His mother, who doesn't know how to move on, was almost admitted to the mental hospital and has always been attempting suicide multiple times, hoping she could see his younger son soon.

But what hurt Atsumu the most was his father's idea to bring his lost son back.

Everyday, before Atsumu goes back home from training, he always stops at the station near their house to fix his self.

He pulled out his washable hair spray and painted his hair grey with his fringed flipped to his left side.

He changed his clothes like how a good student would wear as he practices his different facial expressions in front of the mirror.

Because he knows, that as soon as he gets home, his mother who have aged due to depression, will always welcome 'him', her favorite son,

"Welcome back, Osamu!"

"I'm... home, Mom."