Chapter fifteen part one - "no one cares"

Warning. This chapter comes with a major trigger warning! ⚠️

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Chapter fifteen part one

"No one cares"

As I said SZ really was my anchor on this downwards spiral.

My self-harm had got worse and so had my mood.

Now I never felt so alone. I had friends but I couldn't shake off the feeling of anyone cares.

Today should've been a good day because we were taking a trip out to bird world with my college.

All my other friends had gone off with their other friends, leaving me feeling more alone than ever.

Because they had, I was left with an assistant teacher.

I felt so low so I decided to open up to her about how I felt.

I had started using a safety pin 🧷 to self-harm with because sticking stuff in my belly button wasn't really working for me now. I had managed to make a deep hole in my wrist, to me, this hole never really healed over, the hole/dip was always there.

I told the substitute teacher this and showed her.

At this point, she got so worried about me that she gave me a hug and asked if she could tell H about this.

I said that she could, but I regretted it when my parents received a letter saying everything in detail to them. I know I had told her but I didn't want my parents knowing all of this, not to that detail.

In this letter, it said that it described everything I had said and then said that I couldn't return back due to my depression and self-harm. The crazy part is, it said that I could return next year once I was better.

This had to be some sort of joke. I mean WHO gets better in a YEAR!