Four - Atsumu's POV

When I saw him fly high for the first time. I got mesmerized.

I thought I only admire him as a setter. Seeing someone who can manage to spike an impossible toss is freakin amazing. Like him and Kageyama-kun, I'm that so called volleyball idiot. When my twin choose to stop from playing volleyball, I swear to him that I can tell him that I'm the happiest when we are on our deathbeds.

I went pro right after high school since there's a lot of opportunities placed in front of me. But aside from that, I went pro because of the promised I made to myself. The promise that I declared to that person.

I will toss to you someday.

I know. I'm aware that there's a possibility that it won't happen specially if he already have Kageyama Tobio. The king of the court. Shoyo's wings.

Back then, I knew that they're already in a relationship. Even though Shoyo didn't tell me about it, I can see through his eyes how much he loves Kageyama. How much trust he has for him. I know about it already but this simple admiration that I have, blooms into something else after getting to know Shoyo more.

Shoyo's like a little sunshine. He smiles the brightest. He can make you feel warm. He's what I lack that Kageyama have. He's what I want but will never ever have. Yet, the one I can't give up.

To be honest, I didn't know how impatient I am not until Kenma posted on his IG about Shoyo being free. I immediately called Kenma if that was true and even gave quick details of what happened.

That time, I thought that I should act right away and make my move but Kenma said not to. He wanted me to wait for a year to let Shoyo heal by himself. In exchange, I told him to keep an eye on him for me. He knew that I love Shoyo even before I even told him that. I didn't know why but maybe, cats instinct?

Kenma Kozume, might be Kuroo's lover but Shoyo is his happiness. If Shoyo's my little sunshine, for Kenma, Shoyo's his undefeated final boss. And him knowing how much I love Shoyo and that we wanted the same thing, he helped me.

He gave updates about Shoyo every day for the last year of his stay in Brazil while I on the other hand, honed my skills more so I can catch up even a little bit to Kageyama's skill. If I would make him fly higher, I should be good enough or at least better enough to defeat Kageyama.

I patiently wait until he try out on our team. I feel so ecstatic when I saw him fly once more. When I saw Shoyo after two years, he changed. Tanned skin, proportioned muscles, he also got a little bit taller. But what didn't changed is him being a sunshine. And also his fluffy tangerine hair.

At first he was reluctant to talk to me after our communications got cut off, but when I approached him just like before, he warms up and the guilt that I saw in his eyes when we got to see each other for the first time after two years, vanished.

If there's one thing that troubles me, even though he's still my little sunshine. I couldn't see the same spark in his eyes like before. As if you could see on his shadows his crippled wings that he's been trying to fix alone for the past year.

That's why when Kenma told me that he will be moving in Tokyo, I immediately told him that the apartment next to mine is vacant. And now I'm here, in Shoyo's place. I still feel that I would be missing my chance more if I won't make a move.

Seeing him after two years, the memory of our last time together flashes on my mind as I watched him scrolling through his phone.

"I will go to Brazil to train." Shoyo said while walking me to the station. I asked him to hang out with me and he gladly accept it without even thinking weird on what's my intention.

It somehow frustrates me that he won't see me as a candidate for love interest but I still can't confess to him, not until he and Kageyama is through. I'm not a relationship wrecker that's why I've been keeping silent about my feelings for him.

"Why Brazil? Does your coach can't find any place here in Japan for ya to train?" I asked in surprise. Awareness of him being in relationship with Kageyama already breaks my heart but knowing that he will go further away, I don't think my heart can manage it.

Shoyo smiled. "I'm training using beach volleyball, Atsumu-san. I want to be better. I want to fight on my own. I can't forever rely on Kageyama. Cause I know someday, there will be a time that he and I will have different teams." He said.

My heart feels like it's being gripped tightly when I saw in his eyes how serious he is to Kageyama. His love is so pure that I can't even dare to confess my feelings.

"If that time will come, where ya can fight on your own and ya want someone to let ya fly... Find me Shoyo. I'll be waiting."

He just smiled at me that time so I thought that it won't happen. But he went for me. I know there's no malice on it when he said that he tried out on MSBY because it's the team that have the best setter, but I don't care. I'm just happy that he's with me now.

I won't let ya fight alone. I can't be your wings, but I will make ya fly higher using your crippled wings. I will never let ya go. I promised to myself before taking the phone from him and replace it with pizza.

"I only have three rules for ya Shoyo. No phone when you're with me. If ya want me to give ya lots of tosses, that's rule number 1. Trust me is rule number 2." I said in a serious tone while looking at him in the eye.

I don't want to wait for Kenma's signal for me to confess. He is here now. I should make my move to make him mine. I can't be as patient as before.

"I'm not as good as your partner in high school but if there's on thing I am better than him? I don't have any plans to give up my wing spiker." I said with the sweetest smile on my lips.

"But Atsumu-san... What's the third rule?" He asked in wonder.

My heart races so wildly as I moved closer to him hoping that he won't hear how crazy my heart beats right now because it'll be lame if he could.

"Fall in love with me. That's the third rule." I whispered on his ear that made him gasp in awe.