First, I need to hit rock-bottom

Just standing alone in the dark

Thinking.

How could one-sided feelings hurt 

Soo deeply?

Imagining the fairytales I someday long

To live.

Mind-scratching my nerves to end it

From within.

You're out of my reach, my soul keeps on

Hoping

That the distance between us will heal me

Properly.

I'm tired of the multiple sleepless nights 

I've shared.

I'm tired of being soo tired

Endlessly.

My mind says it'd been better to never had

Met you

But my heart still screams your name 

Whenever I look at you.

You don't even know me, nor do I know 

Myself.

I've never showed anything to make you see 

The mess I call self.

You're there in your bubble, not seeing me

At all.

But it's ok, 'cause in the end my flame will  

Burn low.

Lower and lower, 'till hitting 

Rock bottom

And then my healing will start to rise above

The water.