Chapter 89

“I wanted you to know that not a day has gone by that I haven’t thought about you. I always wonder what you would think of me. I wonder would you hate me for choosing this life. Would you think I was as sick as he is? I must be sick to stay with someone like him, right? I often wonder if you would even still want me since I have been with him all of this time. I mean, who could love someone who chose to be with someone they hated? Who could love someone who chose to not reach out to them and try to get them back in their life? Hell, I wonder if you would still want me at all since it’s been so long. Do you still love me? Or did you forget about me? I don’t expect you to still want me. As a matter of fact, I can understand if you don’t. But know this, I will always love you. But, I have to do what is best for everyone. Keeping you and our son safe is my main priority. I will always choose you two over myself. So, if being with Mark permanently does that, then so be it.”