Idiot!

Jimin called me and I answered.

"I'm heading back tonight." Jimin spoke through the phone.

I replied "Great and you were right."

"About?" He asked.

"About this side of town." I said weakly.

Jimin's voice changed as he asked "Did something happen?!"

I said "Uh-no. I just didn't really like it. I'm looking for a new apartment over here."

Jimin asked confused "You can't live by me again?"

I sighed and said "No, it's taken up already."

Jimin didn't say anything and I asked "Could I stay with you?"

Jimin said "You know the rules in the apartment. If they find out I have you in there with me they'll raise up my rent."

"Ugh, I know. I'm sorry its just I don't want to live over there anymore." I said frustrated.

"You shouldn't had moved so fast like that." He said.

I admitted to him "I know. I'm dumb."

Jimin sighed and said "I don't know what to tell you the rest of the apartments near us are extremely expensive. I mean that's why I haven't moved. I'm just hoping I get a raise soon. I think if you found a friend that would share an apartment with you and the owner knew and agree to that, that would be nice."

I bit my lip and said "Your right. If not then I'll have to stay over there."

Jimin said "I only have male friends that would hook me up with something but your a girl and it would get a little dangerous."

I said "I have to hang up. I'll see you or text you later, bye."

"Bye." He said.

"Bingo." I said as I lighten up my eyes.

I went back to Suga's apartment and knocked on the door. He opened it and I rushed inside.

"You said that you would probably move right by Alina, right?" I asked with a big smile on my face.

Suga shut the door and said "Yes, Mai. You can come in and have a seat."

I rolled my eyes and waited for him to answer my question.

"I did say that." He said with a smile on his face.

I smirked and said "Then you could leave and I could stay here."

Suga looked away and asked "How much did you pay at your old place?"

"Around a thousand. Why?" I asked dumbfounded.

Suga sighed and said "I don't want to sound to mean but I don't think you can afford the rent here."

I scratched the back of my neck and Suga rushed to pull my hand away from my neck.

"Don't do that. You'll irritate your skin." He said very serious.

I felt like I had no choice but to live in my old place but he wouldn't let me. I didn't want to stay here, though.

Suga said "I pay around two thousands dollars a month."

"What?" I asked in shock.

He nodded and said "The price is good for this place but I'm not moving by Alina anymore. I made up my mind and I'm staying here."

My mouth hanged a little as I couldn't believe he wasn't moving and I didn't know if I felt happy or not. "Why?" I asked in shock.

"It's for the best if we just give ourselves a little time to meet someone else instead." He said walking to the closet to put his shoes on.

"You guys aren't dating anymore, then..." I said really upset.

Suga chuckled and said "I should be the one upset but you look more upset than the people in the relationship."

I walked to him and asked nervously "Why was the reason? Was it cause of me?"

He asked "Why would it be because of you?"

I looked away and said "We didn't kiss, though."

Suga said "This isn't about you. It's about us, ok."

I softly said "I don't believe you. Now, I feel ashamed of myself."

He tried to comfort me but I didn't let him.

"Stop worrying about my relationship. Look at the bright side. You have Jimin that loves you very much." He said it with a big smile.

I sighed in frustration.

"What?" He asked.

"I don't want you to see me as a liar because I'm not. I'm not going to stand here and act like I'm in a relationship with Jimin. When we both know damn well none of it is true." I said to him.

Suga said "I thought you guys were dating."

I said "I never said that but I know it looks like it."

His eyes widen as he processed this situation and I said "Ok I'm willing to stay here with you but I can't sleep on that sofa forever."

Suga frowned and asked "Why all of a sudden you want to live with me?"

I smiled and said "It wasn't right if I slept in your house. What if you and Alina wanted to do something?"

Suga blushed and said "I would go to her house."

"That would kill my mood." Slipped out of my mouth and I covered it to late. "Sorry." I quickly added.

Suga said "I thought you were innocent."

I said "I'm 24 not a little kid. I love humans, you know."

Suga smirked and I added "I will pay half the rent."

Suga looked at my lips and I asked "What are you doing?"

"Yesterday, when that drunk guy hit your lip it made a very small bruise on it now." He said glancing at it.

"Don't worry about it. So, what should I eat?" I said trying to change the subject.

Suga said "Don't pay me much of the rent because then I won't know what to do with so much money."

"I'm really happy that you're a doctor and you love what you do." I shockingly said to him.

He looked at me surprised and said "Does this mean you like me?"

I laughed softly and said "I remember when I was a little kid I wanted to be a doctor. It was my dream and then I didn't want to anymore as I grew older."

Suga said "Stop, I don't want you to get sad. Let's go somewhere to eat."

"No, I changed my mind. I need to find a job fast." I said forgetting he was a doctor.

"I'm the doctor and it's an order. You need to eat or there won't be money for the rent." He teasingly said.

I couldn't hide my smile as I walked with him to get something to eat.

"I thought you said you ate something." I asked confused.

Suga said "I did but not enough to full myself up. I left some room in my stomach so, I could eat with you."

I nodded my head with a smile and he said "Does a buffet sound good?"

"Yes!" I smiled.

Suga smiled and we left to a buffet to eat.

*After buffet*

"I'm so stuffed." I said with a pout.

Suga took off his shoes, I put my purse down and I headed to the restroom. I heard his phone ring as I washed my hands then I walked out.

He stood by the door and I heard him say "Oh no! Your pregnant?!"

I couldn't help but to hold my chest in my hand as I couldn't believe Alina was pregnant.

Suga turned around by the door way and calmly said "Hey! Don't worry we'll figure something out. I don't want you to worry ok. We're all here for you and I am too. If the doctor said it's a complicated pregnancy then you better listen and stay in bed. I don't want to get all sad that you lost the baby."

My heart crashed and my nose got stuffy. I was holding in the tears and hiding my pain. "I should be happy why am I reacting like this?" I thought to myself.

Suga looked at me and said "Hey, I have to go. I'll keep in touch with you ok. Listen to the doctor and take alot of care of that baby!"

I didn't dare to look at him and rushed past him to the door. I couldn't resist the tears building up and I let them out. I put my hand over my mouth so I wouldn't let no sound out. He turned me around and leaned me against the door.

"Where are you going?" He asked very confused.

I pushed him away from me and I turned the handle open but he closed it. He turned me around and trapped me in between his arms. I let out tears run down my face as I had to face him and tell him.

"Why are you crying?" He asked so calmly like he didn't just get that call. He wipped the tears off my face but more ran down my cheeks.

"Speak up or I won't be able to help you." He said leaning his face over mine.

I looked at his lips and with a broken heart I softly said "Your having a kid."

Suga was only a few centimeters away from my lips and he was able to pull back. He turned his back towards me and said "I'm not. The nurse that helped you in the front desk is. Hopefully, if her pregnancy goes well we will all expect a baby in the building for us to love very much."

I turned around fast and left the apartment. "Idiot!" I shouted at myself. I whipped my tears off my face and Jimin was getting off the taxi when he approached me.

"Hey! What's going on?! Why are you crying?!" He asked worried.

"I can't find a dumb job!" I lied to him.

Jimin hugged me and said "Calm down, Mai. Everything will fall into balance soon. You can't just let this situation get to you ok. Brighten up or you'll affect my mood."

I laughed a little and he said "There's my mood."

"Let's go inside and watch a movie. Let's just forget about everything. You'll come up with something or maybe even better, it'll come to you." He motivated me so much with his words that I couldn't help but to hug him tighter.

I let go and said "I have to go do some stuff."

Jimin pouted and said "I'm going to work in like later."

I asked surprised "Really?"

He nodded and said "I missed a few days in my job. So, I need to make up for that."

I nodded my head sideways and said "Life is all about work sadly."

Jimin laughed and said "You seem very tired."

I said "Actually, I slept alot today. Anyways, I'll see you around."

Jimin hugged me before us going our different ways. I went to the police station and they asked for an ID.

"What? For what?" I asked confused.

"We need to make sure it's you." The officer said.

I said really upset "I would have to walk all the way back home to get my purse."

The officer said "Sorry but it's our rules."

I sighed and turned around. There he was right behind me with my purse. He handed it to me and I turned around.

"I'm ready." I said showing him my ID.

I went into the office and said my declaration. When I was done he was sitting in the benches outside. I was so embarrassed to talk to him even to look at him.

Suga stood up and asked "Did everything go alright?"

I nodded my head and straps of hair crossed against my face. I didn't make eye contact with him and just stood there a couple of seconds.

Suga asked "Alright, are you coming with me or are you going to hang out with Jimin?"

I said "He should be working by now. So, we can't hang out. I'm going to get my things."

Suga didn't say anything and just observed my face expression. I thought he would offer to go with me but he didn't. I think he wanted me to invite him instead.

"Could you take me?" I shyly asked.

"Let's go." He said with a smirk.

I squited my eyes and followed him behind to his car. The ride was quiet and we left to get my things. I got off the car and got goosebumps running on my skin. I went with Suga and I made him go first. We went up the stairs and walked to my apartment. As, we approached the door he put his hand out and I looked at him confused. My eyes widen when I saw my door was open and I panicked.

I whispered "I'm going in with you. I'm not staying out here by myself!"

He held out his hand for me to hold and I did. We walked into my apartment and my mouth flew open. I gasped and put my hand over my mouth. I couldn't believe my eyes and I just didn't know what to feel at this point.

Suga looked back at me and he said "Let's go."

I let go and said "I can't believe people would steal my stuff!"

Suga said "We need to report this. Come on."

"I'm so mad!" I yelled.

Suga hushed me and said "Let's go. If we stay here longer I'm sure you'll get hurt more."

I walked out of my dumb apartment and went to the owner. He said he was not responsible for any loses or stolen things.

We went back to his car and Suga said while driving "We're going to file a report to the authorities-"

I interrupted him and said "Forget it. I don't want too. I'm tired of the police and I just want to rest. This is my last emotion for today. So, please let's go."

He just looked at me and I looked away.

"Do you want us to shop for a new bed?" He asked softly.

"There's no room for that. I'll just stick to the sofa you got." I said really upset.

Suga said "I'm going to sleep in my bed and your going to sleep on the sofa? Now, I'm feeling really guilty and don't know what to do."

I sighed and said "Don't feel bad. I didn't want that bed anymore."

I looked at Suga and he looked surprised. "I'm going to sound very selfish but I really can't give up my bed for many days." He said.

"It's fine." I said looking away.

Suga said "No it's not. What if you sleep with me? I mean my bed is pretty huge and I can share it with you. If you want obviously."

I had no expression on my face because I literally didn't know what to do at this moment. The rest of the ride was quiet and when we got to his apartment he got to cooking something. Deep down I was angry at everything that was happening to me and I just felt really attacked. Every time I tried to get away from this doctor I ended up getting more involved with him. I went to the sofa and put a blanket over my body. I felt dependent and that was a big weakness of mine. I hated feeling like I had to be taken care of because I couldn't afford it. I felt trapped and defeated by all the obstacles.

"Mai, come and eat." Suga said from the kitchen.

"I'm asleep." I said.

Suga said "Your food is going to get cold. Don't make me go over there and get you."

I thought for a second, "Ugh, if he gets tired of my attitude then he'll kick me out and then I won't have a place to stay at."

"Mai?" He said my name again.

I stood up and went to go sit down.

"It's white rice with chicken and meat." He said with a smile.

"Thanks." I said ending the conversation.

I knew it wasn't his fault but I was just upset with myself. I just run away and don't face my problems. I feel like I'm forced to stay here and just be upset.

Suga said "I have a heavy schedule tomorrow so don't expect me to come early like I did today."

I ate my food slowly as I listened to him and didn't answer him back.

Suga finished eating and said "I'm going to do some work in my room. I'll see you tomorrow."

I guess he expected me to tell him I would join him later but I wasn't that crazy.

"Goodnight." I said as I tried to finish my food.

I was left alone and I thought he would make some noise but he didn't. I slept on the couch and didn't even hear when Suga left in the morning to his job.

I went to the kitchen and saw a sticky note. It read, "I left money so you could buy yourself your own shampoo and other things you need."

I counted the money and it was a hundred dollars. I looked at the money disgusted and thought "Does this doctor think I use expensive stuff or what?"

I sighed and said "He must not want me to use his stuff or maybe he's just testing me out."

I went to the store and bought my girl stuff that I would use. I tried to get the most cheapest things in the world. I didn't want him to think I was taking advantage of him. I got to his apartment and went to shower. I took out some cheap clothes that I got from the dollar store and wore it. I went into the kitchen to make myself a green smoothie. I hadn't done exercise with everything that had been going on. Usually, that filled me up until later on in the day. I decided to clean up Suga's apartment as I saw he didn't have time to clean and cause I really couldn't stand dust.

*7 P.M.*

I sat down on the couch and started to feel pain on my groin. I put my hand over it and it seemed to hurt more. I went to the restroom to go see why it was hurting so much. I pulled my yoga pants and underwear down to see. I widen my eyes as I couldn't believe what I was seeing but I didn't understand what it was. It was a lump and it was very red.

I gasped and said "What do I do?"

I pulled my underwear and pants back up. I panicked in front of the mirror as I processed this awful situation.

*A few moments later*

"Why me?! I'm not even having sex with all these men to have gotten an infection right on that damn spot! How on earth will I ask for help when it's right by my private area?! Like how will I ask for help? This is so embarrassing. I don't even know why I got this. I'm such a clean person or maybe it's my rash. I can't tell Suga! What if it gets worse?! What if it's something bad?! No! Maybe, it'll get better I just need to think positive." I said as I looked at myself in the mirror. I got my rash cream and washed my hands before applying this to my groin area. After, I was done I washed my hands and got out of the restroom. I went to the kitchen and made myself a sandwich. I sat down on the chair and heard the door opening up. I quickly looked up to see who it was and it was Suga.

I smiled really big because I had felt so isolated all day and lonely. I asked "Hey! How was your day?!"

Suga smiled and closed the door. "I really thought I would come until 10 P.M. but luckily I finished faster than I thought. What about you?" He asked putting his stuff down.

I felt my heart thump a little faster against my chest as I lied to him "I been good."

He smiled and asked "What are you eating?"

"Sandwich." I lifted it up in the air as I answered him.

He nodded and asked "Could you please make me one? I'm going to quickly shower and I'll be out."

I nodded and he walked away. I stood up and went to make him one. I came back to finish my sandwich and he never came out. I went to the couch and looked on my phone. He came out of the restroom and asked "Is everything ok?"

I looked back at him confused and said "Yeah? Your sandwich is on the table. I waited on you but I couldn't resist anymore."

He laughed and went to grab it. He came to sit on the couch across from mine and started to eat. As, he ate he sighed in frustration.

"What's wrong?" I asked concerned.

He pouted and said "I don't want to get up but I have to get my water."

"Oh. Well, I'll get it for you don't worry." I said with a smile.

"Thank you!" He smiled back at me.

I stood up quickly and groaned in pain. I held my groin and slowly pulled my hand away. I looked over at Suga and he was already giving me the stare.

"What?" He asked.

"Nothing." I said really terrified.

He starred at me like he was trying to read me like a doctor. I didn't know if I could make another movement without making a unpleasant noise.

"Come on!" I yelled to myself in my head. I made it to the kitchen without groaning in pain but deep down I was dying. I got his water and came back to give it to him. I turned to go sit down but I did it in slowmotion.

"Is everything alright?" He asked as he looked up at me.

"Yes." I said with my hands formed in fist.

"Why was your rash cream in the restroom?" He asked looking up and down at my body.

"Oh! I did? Sorry, I was cleaning and I must of left it there." I smiled as I looked around the place.

"I saw that you cleaned and thank you." He said really serious and I knew deep down he was going to get to the bottom of this lie.

I took out my phone again and he sat up straight. I didn't dare look at him because I was scared he would read my eyes.

"Did you spend all the money?" He asked.

I looked up at him and said "No, I have the change in my bag-"

He interrupted me by asking "Could you give it to me? I'm going downstairs to buy something and they only accept cash."

I strongly believed that I would die if I stood up again but my embarrassment was stronger.

"Yeah, totally. I didn't spend it all. Most of it is still there." I said with a smile.

He just nodded and didn't take his eyes off of me. I held in my breath as I stood up fast to go to my purse and look for the money.

He got up and said "Let's go together. I don't want to go alone."

"Why? Are you scared?" I asked as I turned to give him the money.

Suga smiled and said "No, I just want you to go with me."

"Um, no I don't want to. I'm pretty tired." I said nodding my head.

Suga said "I'm tired too. Let's go."

"No, I really don't want to." I said looking away.

"Why not? We won't take long." He said trying to convince me.

I looked at the sofa and said "I'm going to sl-"

"No, come on." He said as he tried to force me to go by putting his hand behind my back.

I made a quick move, pulling away from him and that was enough for me to groan in some loud pain. I couldn't help but to grab my groin and bent down.

Suga sighed and said "I can't believe you force me to lie in order to get the truth out of you."

I stood up and said "I don't know what your talking about."

Suga said as he went to get his doctor utensils "Go to the sofa and I'll get my stuff. I'll check you up right now."

I widen my eyes and almost choked on my saliva.

"No no no!" I shouted in panic.

Suga got his stuff and went to the sofa. He started to look in his bag and I almost fainted in how I didn't know how to stop him.

"Come over here." He ordered.

My heart was crashing and I didn't know how to get it stable.

"I will not." I said kind of rude.

Suga asked as he stood up "Exactly, what's the problem?"

"Don't come over here and I'm fine. Don't worry about it." I ordered him.

Suga said "I will go to you if you don't come to me."

"I hate you. Why can't you just understand that I don't want your help?!" I said really angry.

*Pause*

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to hate me. I was just trying to help you." He said putting up his doctor stuff.

"I just mest up bad." I thought.

I didn't stop him and he just went to his room looking like raw mashed potatoes. I heard his door shut and I limped back to the sofa very slowly.

"How will I get a job like this? It's ok. Tomorrow I will wake up feeling better than ever." I smiled as I motivated myself again. I went to sleep but I woke up in the middle of the night. I couldn't sleep because of the pain I was feeling. It now was making my left upper thigh hurt very much. I got up to go to the restroom and it looked worse. My eyes roamed around the restroom as I thought of what to do.