Lump

***18 and Up After This Chapter***

*Next Morning*

I woke up to take a very cold shower to see if the swollen would decrease but it actually seemed to have gotten worse. Every time I touched it the pain was unbearable. I just threw myself on the couch and put a pillow over my face. "Universe what have I done to deserve this horrible rash? I haven't done nothing bad. So, I won't worry that it's something bad." I mumbled through the pillow.

*Night time*

"Oh my I don't think I can handle this! I'm going to have to call my very elderly aunt to see if she has any natural plants or creams to get rid of this thing!" I said as I looked at my phone how far away it was. I sat up very slowly and moaned in pain as I finally had the courage to stand up. The thought of just moving was enough to provoke pain on my body. I improved three steps but I still had half way to go. Suga came in and I acted like I was looking out his window. I still looked dumb just standing in the middle of the living room. He put his stuff down and didn't even shower. He went straight to the kitchen to eat fruit. I still stood there scared for my life and whispered "Half way there."

I could feel his stare on me that I started to sweat a little and made me look back at him. He didn't even try to hide, he didn't even care, he literally just kept his eyes on me. I turned away and slowly acted like I was still looking out the window. I glanced at my phone and it decided to ring. My eyes widen and I was just half way far from it still. Suga made his way next to my phone on his sofa and looked at the caller ID. He opened up his laptop and I just glanced back at him. My phone stopped ringing and I felt relieved. It started to ring again and I tried to look down at the screen but it was still kind of far. Then the screen turned orange and I frowned "Battery dying."

The phone started to blow up with messages and I knew very well it was Jimin. I knew he was very worried about me how I didn't even call him today or answer any of his morning messages.

"Could you answer already? I'm trying to concentrate on this." Suga said looking up at me from the sofa.

"Could you answer him and tell him I'm fine?" I asked nervously.

Suga glanced up and down at my body. "Come and get your phone. I don't know the password and don't want to get involved in any of your stuff. I don't want to be someone you hate more." He said grabbing my phone and holding it in his hand.

I limped my way to him because I didn't care anymore of what he thought. It was my body and not his. I could do and say whatever I wanted. I grabbed my phone out of his hand and he never took his eyes off of me. I limped back to my sofa and threw myself onto it.

I called Jimin back and he asked "Hey! I been worried about you! I thought you died. Why don't you answer?!"

I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to sound convincing in my voice that I was ok. "I'm fine. I just had my phone in silent and now it's going to die." I lied to him.

Jimin said "Aw really? I wanted to talk to you. How about you come over?"

"I can't. It's already dark outside." I said.

"I'll go pick you up in my bike like in the old days." He said laughing.

I put my hand over my forhead and said "You must be trying to kill me again."

Jimin laughed more loud though the phone that I had to pull it away from my ear. Then it beeped and I said "Yeah, it's about to die. I'll call you soon, bye."

"Bye, I love you." He said and I could sense he still had a big smile on his face.

"I love you." I said as I hanged up quickly and threw the phone on the floor. I put the pillow over my face and I was in the most uncomfortable position ever. One leg was hanging and the other wasn't. I just looked broken and hurt. My stomach grumbled and I could care less. Someone knocked on the door and I thought it was Alina. I quickly sat up grabbing my groin as I winced in pain and saw Suga go to the door.

"Order for Mr.Min?" The guy said from the door.

"Mhm, that's me." Suga said.

"Sign here." He said.

Suga signed and the man gave him two Chinese plates. I couldn't believe my eyes and nose. I wanted food so bad but I was in so much pain. I laid back down and looked up at the ceiling.

"What some?" He said from above my face.

"No thank you." I said putting the pillow over my face.

"Ok if you insist." He said as he came to sit infront of me to eat the food.

My head was in pain now because of the food smell. It smelled so delicious and I couldn't resist.

"Ugh! Why are you doing this to me?" I asked as I sat up to confront him.

Suga continued to eat and pushed the plate towards me. I slowly ate and he would glance once and awhile at me.

"Stop looking at me like that." I ordered him.

"Ok." He answered back.

I looked at him surprised because I couldn't believe how he agreed with me.

"When this situation gets worse I don't want your friend Jimin to hate me too." He said closing his laptop and heading to his room with his food.

My phone died once I was about to grab it and I couldn't believe how I had to get up and charge it. I rolled my eyes and stood up in pain. After, making many pauses I finally went to go charge it.

"This isn't getting any better. No, my aunt will help me, I think" I thought as I worried a little more.

I didn't even finish eating and just went to laid down. I felt my eyes weaken and finally was able to close them. I woke up very early in the morning, left Suga's apartment and went to stand in the hallway. I called my aunt and I said "Morning."

She asked "Why are you calling me so early in the morning?"

I said "I have a problem."

"I knew you did or you wouldn't have called." She said kind of annoyed.

"You know I'm always busy working." I tried to convince her of my excuse.

"What is the problem?" She asked.

"I have this bump or lump on my groin and it hurts alot." I said looking around that no one was around listening to my confession.

She said "Oh no! You need to see a doctor as soon as possible! That could be very dangerous!"

I said "I was thinking that maybe you had a natural plant or cream that could help me. You know that stuff that was used in the old ages."

She said "I do but I would have to know exactly what it is. I'd tell you what. How about you go see a doctor and what he tells you I'll tell you what maybe you could do."

I said "Just tell me what you have in mind."

"No cause then you'll go do it and I don't know if it's something really serious." She said.

I sighed and asked frustrated "Why?! Don't be mean!"

She said "Go to the doctor now! I know you don't like them but this time you need to see one. Lumps or bumps can be dangerous. Bye!" She hanged up and I looked at my screen.

"Your so mean!" I said with a pout.

Suga came from around closing the door and walked around me didn't even say good morning. I saw him walk down the hall with his gym clothes and I walked back inside.

"What do I do?" I asked myself multiple times.

Around an hour later he came back and went straight to the shower. After, taking a shower he went into his room and I thought he would come out but he didn't. An hour past and he still didn't come out. I didn't hear anything and thought "Will he work today? Is he asleep?"

I stood up and made my way to his room. "I can't believe I'm about to do this. Your so mean body. How could you not get better?!" I said in my head.

I knocked on his door and he immediately answered "Come in."

I opened the door and asked "Are you working today?"

"Maybe later. I don't really know yet." He answered.

I looked around in his room and it was pretty big especially his bed. I really liked it and he asked "Why?"

"I want to ask you something? Not for myself but for someone else." I said very nervously.

Suga said "Come in. I won't bite you."

I walked in a little more and shut the door.

"What do you want to ask?" He asked.

"Any information on painful lumps or bumps?" I asked trying to fake a smile like I didn't care about the question.

Suga looked away and said "Your friend needs to see a doctor right away. That's very serious and dangerous."

I really freaked out and asked "Why?"

He glanced back at me and said "It depends what it is, right? But it can get serious enough that it could be cancer or a tumor. It's not in all cases, right? But just to make sure they need to see a doctor. Never ignore lumps or bumps."

I didn't want to listen to him anymore as I was now very scared and I asked my last question. "Do you know what could cause this?"

Suga stood up and said "I would have to know the medical background to get a faster idea because there's a few answers."

"Could you give me examples?" I asked shyly.

"Infection due to sex, cancer, tumor, feeling sick throughout the day, maybe problems with muscles. That's not always the case. How about we go get your friend checked up?" He said at the end.

He walked to me and I shouted "No!"

"Why not? This is very serious. The longer your friend waits the worse it'll get. I'm not kidding." He said three feet away from me.

"I just-" He interrupted me.

"Let's go." He said as he went to grab his keys from the shelf.

"No, please! Don't!" I begged.

"Why not?! This is really bad. Don't you want your friend to get better?" He asked looking back at me.

I walked to his bed and sat down slowly. I sighed really loud and long. He came to stand in front of me and I looked at him with tearful eyes.

"What?" He asked with alot of concern.

My heart thumped so hard against my chest that I thought I would lose my mind. He came closer to me to pull my hand towards him. So, I would get up and go with him. However, I squeezed his hand and pulled him lightly instead.

"I'm not going with you anywhere." I softly said letting go of his soft hand.

"Give me the address and I'll go. Don't worry." He said comforting me.

I stood up slowly and said "My friend has their doctor."

"It's you isn't it?" He asked really serious.

I gasped and shouted "What?!"

"Don't you dare deny this situation! If you don't get help. Another doctor will have to help you." He shouted at me.

I looked at him disgusted and said "What?"

Suga sighed as he put the keys down and took a seat on his bed. "I'm a family doctor and don't do surgeries. Try to get help now that you can or it may be to late." He said looking at me very tired.

I gulped as I felt I would die in front of him.

"Where is it?" He asked examining my body with his eyes.

"It's some where bad." I said nodding my head.

"Just tell me! Stop wasting time!" His voice rised up a little.

"I don't know why this happened. I been good you know." I said tearing up.

"Mai tell me where." He said again.

I said "I can't. I rather die."

Suga said "I will put you to sleep if I have to."

I gasped in shock and said "YOU WOULD WHAT? WHY? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!"

Suga said "If you got a bullet in your body do you think doctors will ask you?! No! Now come on and speak!"

"If I tell you then you can't see it." I tried to make a deal.

Suga sighed and said "Why don't you ever want doctors to see or touch you. It's our-"

"Deal or not!" I yelled.

Suga said "Fine whatever."

He was sitting right in front of me only three feet away and I just wanted to move miles away from him. I finally said "My groin."

His eyes never left mine and I felt he was more shock than I was. I never stopped looking at his eyes either. I wanted to know how he would react to this horrible situation.

"Say something!" I shouted as I was very nervous and scared.

Suga asked "What do you want me to tell you?"

"What? Your my doctor you should know!" I panicked as he didn't tell me what to do.

Suga said "I need to see it to know how bad it is and what caused it."

"It's bad that I can't even walk anymore." I said really annoyed.

Suga said "Yes lumps and bumps are very painful. Us doctors know this very well."

"Tell me what will happen if it's bad or ok." I demanded.

Suga said "I don't know anything about this lump. I need to examine the area-"

"YOU WHAT? NA-UH! NOT EVEN! DO YOU HEAR YOUR SELF?" I shouted as I blew air with my hands towards my face. "Didn't you hear where it's located?!" I shouted again with my question.

Suga said "Mai, I'm just trying to help you and nothing else."

"All doctors ever do is try to see me and touch me! Your trying to do the samething! Why can't you just tell me what I can do without you having to see or touch me! It's my area that I can only see!" I said really angry.

"If I wanted to do something to you I would have done it a long time ago. Don't you think?" He asked looking away.

I laughed and said "You know what I don't get? Why do they always say this stuff to me? I think it's cause I'm a virgin but you know what?! I don't have that perfect body people imagine! I don't understand why would anybody would want my body."

Suga stayed silent as he looked up at me again.

Tears were now rolling down my face and said "Your lying that you won't but I feel like your lying to me."

"I'm not. I promise I'm just doing my job." He softly said.

I wiped them off and said "Oh I get it."

He frowned and asked "Get what? What are you talking about?"

I said in my head "If he's telling the truth then that means he sees my body with digust the same way I do everyday."

"Thank you." I said looking down.

"I'm not understanding you anymore and it's scaring me. Could you explain why your saying that?" He asked.

"Thank you for not liking my body." I said looking at him very serious.

"I never said that." He immediately said.

My heart skipped a beat when I heard him say that.

"What?" I asked really shock.

Suga said "Stop with all these accusations. You think I like you always accusing me of what other doctors probably did to you? Well, I don't and I'm really hurt that you would think this of me. I have offered you my home and medical help. I'm not asking for any of it back but stop treating me bad. I'm just trying to convince you that I'm not like the others. I don't think yours or anybody's body is ugly. I respect your decision if you think you look ugly but not everyone looks at you the way you do yourself. You know why men are always trying to do something to you like your ex boss? I'm a doctor but I'm also human. I have feelings too and what men see is your curvy body. They don't care if you have marks or whatever. All, they want is your body and that's final."

"I want to apologize but I really can't. Doctors piss me off but I think I'm improving by even just talking to you." I said really soft.

Suga's phone started to ring and he stood up to get it.

"Hello, Alina what's wrong?" He answered.

My eyes widen as I felt something bad had happened to her.

"Oh it's just a migraine. Close up everything in your room. Make sure everything is off and just sleep. Drink those pills and you'll be fine before you know it." He smiled as he said.

"No I can't go over there. I'm with a patient now." He said looking back at me.

He hanged up after awhile and I said "Go to her. I know how that feels."

Suga said "You've gone through that?"

I said "When I was a little kid in elementary I had to spend like everyday in the hospital because the pain was so bad. I had to walk around with a patch over my forhead. It got to the point where I would probably get surgery on my face. They would cut up my nose and face in half. Luckily, a cure was invented for my headaches and they didn't do that."

Suga asked "You changed the ending didn't you?"

I said "Doesn't matter. Just go to her."

Suga said "No I won't leave you here untreated. Look Mai, this is really uncomfortable for you and me. I don't want to touch you like this but it's the only way. How long has is been anyways?"

He put his phone down and went to sit down again. I didn't answer him as I tried to come up with something new.

"Are you willing to die?" I asked very serious.

"What?" He asked looking at me crazy.

"If you see me naked I'm going to kill you. Every time I shower and a bug tags along. I kill them because no one lives to tell." I said very serious.

Suga laughed and didn't take me serious.

I didn't laugh and he stopped laughing as he saw my face expression.

"What? Are you serious? Ok then." He said nodding his head.

"What?!" I asked in disgust and shock.

Suga said "I would give up my life for a patient."

I looked at him shock and said in my head "Wow this dude really does love the doctor life."

Suga asked "Any other thing before I get killed?"

"Keep any rude comments to yourself. I see my body all the time and I don't need anybody to tell me anything about myself." I said walking up to him.

Suga started to blush and said "I'm here to help you feel better."

I rolled my eyes and said "Yeah that's what they all say. Oh sorry! Ugh, I forgot!"

He nodded and ordered "Ok take your pants off."

"I don't want too." I said.

Suga looked up at me and sighed.

I was being so complicated but I just didn't want him to see me.

I sadly confessed "You know when I was a kid. I used to say I'm going to hide my body until the day I get married. Then that dream got ruined by many doctors-"

Suga said "Mai focus. Time is going and I don't know how much help you will need."

I slowly back away and pulled my pants down. Suga put hand sanitizer on his hands before putting his left hand on my waist to pull me forward to him. I tried to make it hard for him but he was stronger.

"I can't see most of it because of your underwear." He said looking up.

I put my hands over his shoulders and shacked him. "Don't make me do this please. I'll be good to you but don't make me do that. Anything but this. I'm sorry really." I begged him.

Suga said "Mai let's get this over with."

I let go off him and just nodded. Suga pulled my underwear down and I quickly put my hands over my body.

Suga said "Don't touch yourself if your hands aren't clean."

Suga gabbed my hands with his hands and said "Just hold onto my shoulders."

He pulled my hands away from my area. I put my left hand over his right shoulder and squeezed it.

Suga looked up at me as he said "I have shoulder problems and it would help me alot if you didn't hurt it like that."

"Sorry." I said.

"I'm going to touch you and you need to tell me if it hurts. I need to know where exactly has the pain spread to. Got it?" He asked looking up at me.

I nodded and he started to touch my thighs.

"My left thigh hurts but only the upper part." I nervously said.

He said "Open up."

I looked down at him and asked "What?"

Suga said "I need you to spread your legs apart a little. My hand doesn't fit if your legs are really tight against eachother."

I slowly spread my legs apart and he went up my inner thighs touching them. He got close to my inner part and stopped. His touch started to make me feel weird but in a good way.

He said "I'm going to have to-"

I interrupted him by looking up at the ceiling in so much pain and said "Do it."

Him touching my vagina got chills running all over my body. His fingers touching it made me bent over and moan in pain. I thought he would stop but he continued. I moaned more as he was right on my groin area touching it and my vagina lips. I tried to stand up straight again but it was so hard. While, his fingers were roaming through all my area like if it was his. He tried to turn me around but I stopped him by rejecting to turn around.

Suga whispered "I need to check. Please, turn around."

"I have marks." I said with my face all red now.

Suga said "I don't care. Just do it."

I turned around and I felt his hands squeezing my butt cheeks. He put his left hand on my waist to pull me back towards him.

"Open up and bend a little." He ordered.

"What?" I asked nervously.

"I need to have more access to feel if you have any pain or lumps over here." He said from behind.

I bent down a little and he put his cold fingers over my area again. I gasped loudly and he said "Sorry, my hands are always cold."

I didn't say anything as he accidentally sticked his middle finger in me making me moan. I didn't stop him and he continued to touch me. I felt something in me coming down making me tighten my vagina lips together. He stopped and turned me around. I put my hand over his shoulder again as I didn't feel so well anymore. I felt like I needed something more from him and it was killing me inside.

"Check up is done." He said looking over at my hand that was strangling his shoulder again.

I was trying to stable my breathing as it was hard and I felt thirsty. I let go off him and he said "You may not ever wear those underwear again."

He got his hand sanitizer and rubbed it well on his hands.

"What?" I said confusingly.

Suga stood up and said "Sit and cover yourself."

I sat down on his bed slowly and covered myself with his blanket.

He said "Those underwear rubbed against your groin area affecting your private area and left thigh. That's why you got a lump and it got swollen as you hadn't updated to a bigger size. Never wear tight clothes because it makes blood circulation hard to flow through the body."

"Let me geuss no cure." I said with a sarcastic smile.

Suga said "You will be like this for a couple of days or up to three weeks depends on your body. The only cure would be, to apply very warm Vaporub on a paper towel and put it over the lump. Do this every four hours a day and drink antibiotics. I don't recommend drinking them because the Vaporub should be good enough. I'm not taking any blood test from you because I know it's not an infection sense your a virgin. If it doesn't get better within the next few days then I'll have to do extra work on you. I don't recommend sleeping with underwear for now and if that bra is hurting you in any way then take it off."

"A cure again but it's slow?" I questioned him with a smile "Theres actually a cure to this."

He went to his closet and handed me one of his shirt.

"No I can't accept. I'm taking over all your clothes. I'm just going to go to the store to buy some for myself." I said feeling guilty.

Suga said "Please, don't or you'll get raped this time."

I said "I don't think-"

Suga said "Take the rest of your clothes off and wear my shirt. I'm going to get the oven on to prepare the Vaporub to put it on you."

"What again?! Why will you touch me?" I asked kind of mad again.

Suga gave me the death stare and walked out the room. I took off my bra and shirt. I put on his black t-shirt and it was much smaller. It barely passed my butt and I didn't like it. Yet, I deserved this for buying cheap things from the dollar store. I sat down and waited for Suga to come back.

Suga opened the door and said "It's almost ready but I need you to lay down. I'm going to come with the very warm towel and put it over your area. I need you to be ready. I don't want you to fight back or questioned me. What I ask you to do you have to immediately. So it'll work, got it?"

I sighed and said "No."

Suga tilted his head from the door and gave me the look.

"Ok ok." I said.

Suga said before leaving "Be ready."

After, awhile he came back in the room saying "Hot hot hot!"

I pulled my shirt up a little and he said "I need you to open up you legs like a diamond."

"What?" I said putting my hand on my lower stomach area.

"Hurry Mai it's getting warm enough for your body to resist!" He ordered.

He sat down by me and I opened up my legs. I made sure the bottom of my feet touched eachother. He put it over my groin and it covered most of the left side of my vagina. He fixed it up and put his hand over it to put pressure. When I felt the pressure I couldn't resist in arching my back and groaning in so much pain.

"I'm sorry but I have to attack it." He said holding my right hand.

After, a few minutes I relaxed and he noticed.

"Alright, I'll do it one more time but a little lower. So, it can all be fair on the skin. I'll be right back." He said rushing off the room.

I tried straightening my legs but it hurt to much. I just pulled Suga's shirt down to cover my area until he came. I finally felt my face relaxing of so much tension going on.

He came back running and asked "Ready?"

I nodded my head and he ordered "Lift up your shirt."

I lifted up my shirt and he sat down to put it over my lump. I winced in pain and he put his hand over my vagina making me gasp for air. His finger started to bury itself in my clit making me moan and making me grab his blanket tight. Another, finger went in and that made me moan again.

"Suga." I said gasping for air.

Suga hushed me and said "Were almost done."

He took his fingers out and it made me slowly release the blanket from my hands. The Vaporub would make his fingers slip back in and out of my area slowly. I started to arch my back and hold his blanket tight. He started to take his fingers in and out faster on me on accident.

I started to breathe hard for air and I whispered "Suga it hurts."

Suga said "I know but I know you can handle this. Now, I'm going to clean the area that's not affected. The vapor rub can be a little messy but once it's clean you don't have to worry."

I pulled my shirt down and put my hands over my face to hide the heatness. He came back with toilet paper and lifted up my shirt. He put on medical tape over the paper towel so it wouldn't move at all for the next four hours. He started to wipe my vagina with the toilet paper to clean it up.

"Ok I'm done." He said pulling the blanket over me. He walked to the restroom to wash his hands and throw everything else away. I slowly tried to straighten up my legs but it was to painful. I waited until later to do it.

Suga came out and asked "Can you handle the next hours yourself or do you want me to come back and do it for you?"

I said "No, I can handle it."

Suga said "I'm going to work. If you need me just call me and I'll see what I'll do." He wrote his number down on a napkin as he left the room.