Massage

I poked my food on the table and sighed. I thought "I can't believe I helped him and then he just throws me out like that. He just wasn't clear as he didn't want to sound rude but this way was more cruel."

I widen my eyes and said "Oh my, what if he feels sick out of no where?!"

I was about to stand up and grab my purse but stopped. "Obviously, if he wanted me over there he would have called by now." I said getting really depressed.

Couple seconds later, I stood up and asked myself "Ah, what are you doing, Mai?!"

I got my purse and headed towards his apartment. I walked into the elevator and went up. I turned the corner and looked up. I saw Suga hugging Alina. They departed from eachother and he picked her up bridal style and took her inside. I scratched my head and stood there really sad. Not knowing what to do with my emotions going through my heart and mind. I sat down on the bench from down the hall where the light seemed to have went out. I sat there in complete silence and darkness. I didn't want to be seen all down and without rights to be feeling like this.

"What are you doing, Mai? Go home." I whispered to myself but I just felt so sad.

A tear went down my cheek and I didn't wipe it off. "I'm so disappointed in myself for liking a doctor that I had said I would never like as a friend or a lover. Now, look at me all crying for a doctor that I want love from. I didn't want nothing with him and now I want everything from him. And he may die and leave me forever." I told myself in a weak voice as my tear dried up.

I stood up and walked towards the elevator. Moans made my eyes turn towards his door and I felt more heart broken. The elevator opened and a elderly woman came out of it.

"Oh, honey could you please help me take this to my room. I'm so tired of holding these bags." She asked in the most gentle voice I could have ever heard.

It made me forget what I was feeling and I grabbed the bags.

"Yes, of course." I said giving her a soft smile.

I felt so good that I could help her. She slowly walked to her door and opened it. I went with her inside and I put down the things on the kitchen counter.

She asked from behind "Aren't you the girl that lives like three doors from here with the doctor?"

I turned around and said "I didn't have a place to stay and I got really sick. I recovered and I don't live there anymore."

She said "I don't think you should have left him. We all know about the tumor and I worry if he'll get really sick one of these days. Then asks me for help, if I see him sick I think I'll faint for not being able to move faster to help him."

I said "He has so many people that care for him. I'm sure he'll be fine soon."

She nodded her head with a smile and said "You like him. So, I'm sure you'll come back soon."

I gushed and said "What?! No, I don't."

She said "Denying feelings or lying will not get you where you want to be in life."

I said "I'm sorry."

She patted my shoulder and said "Thank you for helping me."

I smiled and left her apartment. I looked one more time towards Suga's apartment before getting into the elevator and leaving. I decided to go grocery shopping as I hadn't had any time since I was always with Suga.

I didn't bring much as I didn't have a car and I was going to carrying the items back by myself. I only got veggies and some chicken. Good thing veggies were very light but not so much the chicken. I headed back to my apartment and saw Suga outside my door. I didn't want to see him but I knew I had to help him. I walked towards my door and took out my keys.

He tried to help me with the bags but I said trying to sound very polite "No, it's ok. I got it, thank you."

I walked inside and he came in. He shut the door and I began to unpack.

"It's already really dark outside and you're over here instead of resting." I said not looking at him.

"You were out in the store at this time and you're a girl." He said from behind.

"I didn't have food in my fridge." I softly said.

"You could have called me so I could have gone with you." He said.

I didn't know what was shattering first my heart or brain of remembering what I heard earlier.

"Is everything ok?" He asked as I heard his voice come closer to me.

I walked to the fridge and said "Yeah, I'm fine but I think you should leave so you can rest. I'm sure you're very tired after what you did today."

I couldn't help but quickly taking a glance at his face expression. I headed towards the chicken but he grabbed it before me.

"There's obviously something wrong because I didn't do nothing today." He said holding the chicken.

I sighed and said "Nothing is wrong. Can you please give me the chicken? I'm going to put it in the fridge before it gets bacteria."

Suga went to my fridge to put it up and I looked at him.

"Did Alina tell you anything earlier before coming to visit me?" He asked.

I frowned my eyebrows and asked "You knew I was there?!"

Suga smiled and I looked at him disgusted.

Suga washed his hands with a smirk and said "I didn't know you were there. I just assumed and you just confirmed it."

I looked away as I had just confessed that I went back to his apartment for I don't know what good reason.

He dried his hands and asked "Why did you not come in?"

I bit my lip as I didn't want to confess anything because he knew very well what he did with Alina.

I shrugged my shoulders and looked on the ground.

"I'm going to sleep because I'm working tomorrow really early." I informed him trying to get him to leave.

Suga tried to come closer to me but I walked towards the door. I opened it for him to leave my lonely place with still no furniture.

He stopped infront of me and said "Goodnight, Mai."

"Goodnight." I said not looking at him.

I closed the door and laid down on the ground. I looked up at my ceiling and tried not to think before going to sleep.

*12 P.M.*

I was still on the ground and looked at my phone. I got up slowly, holding my shoulder and asked "Oh my goodness. When will I get used to the hard floor?"

I went to brush my teeth and got out of the bathroom. I heard knocking on the door and I frowned my eyebrows. I walked towards the door and looked through the doorhole.

My eye widen when I met with his through the doorhole.

"Open the door." He ordered.

I sighed and opened the door. I walked away from the door and he shut the door.

"Why did you lie that you would work? I went to your job and saw Vanessa there. She said you had off today and you knew very well." He said kind of upset.

I laid back on the floor and put the blanket over my head.

"Are you sick or what?" He asked.

"Can you just stop? I'm trying to sleep." I said hiding under the blanket.

He pulled the blanket off my face and touched my forhead. I opened up my eyes and looked over at him.

"Get your nasty hand off of me!" I shouted defensively.

Suga still squating by me and said "You're not sick. So, what happened for you to be like this again?"

I turned back to my side and put the blanket over my head. Suga sighed and pulled the blanket away from my body.

"Stop." I ordered him.

Suga said "I will. Once, you tell me."

I ignored him and tried to get my blanket from him.

"So, what did Alina do to you?" He asked.

"Why do you blame everything on her? Why don't you take the blame?" I said aggressively.

Suga smiled and said "I know I didn't do anything bad because it's my body. I don't know if she did something to you sense she's in a different body than mine."

"Yet, you stick your body in her and still don't know her. Wow, that's funny." I said getting really mad.

Suga frowned in confusion and said "I haven't had sex with her in so long."

I laughed in his face and said "Could you not brag about how bad you miss it already?"

Suga loosened his grip on my blanket and I took it away from him.

Suga said "I'm not bragging. I'm being really serious. Look, I don't know if she tol-"

I said from under the blanket "No one told me I heard you guys yesterday. Don't lie to me, please and just get out. I want a silent and peaceful day."

Suga pulled the blanket over him as he laid flat beside me and I turned to look at him.

"Hey! What are you doing? Sit up! You can't lay down on flat surfaces!" I said trying to sit him up but he wouldn't sit up.

Suga closed his eyes and I said "Stop! Get up!"

Suga opened his eyes and asked "If I do will you believe me?"

I got really scared if he got ill because of me and I just nodded.

He sat up and said "Alina came yesterday to my apartment because she fell at the park. She scraped her right foot and it was bleeding. I applied some medicine and maybe that's what you heard. I promise you I didn't do anything to her that would cause her pleasure."

I gazed at his eyes and assumed "You picked her up cause she couldn't walk."

Suga nodded his head and said "Like you said she's my friend now and I worry for her. Nothing else happened and is going to happen. I'm not dating her again."

"Why?" I asked.

Suga chuckled and asked "Have you ever had a boyfriend?"

I smacked him with my pillow and said "Of course."

Suga looked at me surprised and asked "Really?"

I held my shoulder and said "Yes."

Suga rubbed my back and asked "I'm glad you slept well."

"Ha-ha, very funny." I said sarcastically.

Suga said "If you would have slept with me you wouldn't be feeling like this."

I rolled my eyes and said "Not when your dating or having fun with another chick."

Suga smiled and asked "You care and I love that."

I wanted to kiss him so bad then a thought ruined it.

"What?" He asked.

"You don't want me in your apartment and I want to know why." I ordered him.

Suga smiled and said "I know you love running away from me and if you are I want to know that you're safe."

My heart skipped a beat as I heard him say those words to me even though I knew he didn't like me back the way I liked him.

Suga asked "Want me to massage you?"

"You want to touch me but it won't work." I said very serious.

Suga looked away and said "Later, it will hurt more and don't say I didn't warn you."

I sighed and said "Doctors, doctors, doctors that are just always coming up with ways to just touch me."

Suga stood up and said "I won't touch you until you let me. As you think and realize what I'm saying is true, I'll cook that chicken you got yesterday."

I rolled my eyes as he was probably going to be right and I was going to regret it later. I stood up to shower and came out in summer clothes.

"If you agree to the massage. I have a bed that I use for whenever I get massages back at my place." He informed me.

"I think I'm going to suffer instead." I smiled as I informed him.

Suga said "As you please."

I squinted my eyes at him and looked at my soup. I didn't even like whenever he didn't argue back as I knew he would win and I would lose.

Then I frowned my eyebrows and asked "You get massages from women?"

Suga said "Being a doctor is actually very stressful even though I love my job. Trying to convince humans like some people that touching and looking is required in the medical life-"

I interrupted his accusations by saying "Then I want a guy to massage me."

Suga immediately responded "No I won't let another guy touch you."

I raised my eyebrows and asked "Why not? It's my body and I say yes."

Suga asked "Why not me? I thought you said you only wanted me to touch you."

I said "As a doctor but for massaging that's a whole different thing."

Suga said "I won't be there if this dude tries to do more than a massage."

"Where will you be?" I asked.

He answered "Some where else but there. I won't see you yelling at another guy to stop or moaning for him."

I looked at him disgusted and said "Only my back hurts. No one will touch me anywhere else."

Suga smiled and said "You need a full body massage. Since, you slept on that hard floor of yours and you will be in full pain later."

I looked at him annoyed and asked "Could you not be so negative and rude towards my body?"

Suga took out his phone and asked "Want me to call a guy so he can massage you?"

I rolled my eyes and said "You're just asking cause you know you convinced me of saying no."

Suga laughed and said "I just informed you about the way you would get a massage."

I finished eating and said "Yeah you did. So, I wouldn't get no massage from another guy. You know I'm starting to think that maybe you don't want to see no other guy touch me."

He smiled and said "I don't."

I drinked out of my water and he continued "cause you're my friend and don't want to see you hurt."

I swallowed my water and said "Don't worry about it. I'll just drink some pills so I can feel better."

Suga asked "What pills? I need to see them before you prescribe yourself medicine."

I sighed and asked "Could you give me my space?"

He nodded his head sideways and I looked away annoyed.

"Did you put the sand on you?" I asked concerned.

Suga said "About that, it got a little out of hand but I was able to do it."

I squinted my eyes at him as he cleaned his mouth with a towel.

"Why did you even care about yesterday? You should have knocked and came in. I was all alone last night because you thought I had sex with her. This shouldn't had affected you in any way, friend. Don't you think?" He asked as he got my plate to wash it.

I gazed away from him and tried to make up a lie.

Suga chuckled and asked "What's wrong? You can't come up with a lie this time?"

I crossed my arms and said "Obviously, you're assuming something so just spit it out."

Suga dried his hands and said "I just want to hear you."

I said "I'm just a liar so I won't say."

He said "I want to hear your explanation."

I unfolded my arms and said "I would never try to interrupt two humans trying to have fun together."

Suga smiled and didn't say nothing.

"Where should we go?" He asked coming closer to me.

I said "I'm staying here. Have a good day."

Suga chuckled and asked "Come on. Let's go have fun."

I sighed and remembered his tumor.

"Fine." I agreed with a smile.

We left to his car and he drove away.

"Why didn't you invite some other girl?" I asked cutting the silence in the car.

Suga said "We're friends and I want to hang out with you."

I continued to look out the window trying to get him to answer a different way or the way that I wanted him to respond.

"Where are we going?" I asked glancing back at him.

"You'll see when we get there." He said with a smile.

He didn't take long to get there and we went inside.

I smiled and said "Ice skating! I haven't done this in years."

Suga looked at me confused and asked "How old are you?"

I laughed and said "It just feels like I've been an adult my whole life."

Suga said "Don't get sad and let's get some skates."

I nodded my head as he was right we needed to surround ourselves with positive vibes only. We got our skates and he stepped on the ice first.

"Can you skate?" He asked.

I shrugged and said "I don't think I can. Maybe, later I'll get the hang of it."

Suga smiled and said "I like that."

I smiled back and he held his hand for me to grab.

"No, I want to hold onto the rail." I said carefully getting into the rink.

Suga didn't even hold on to the rail and he just waited on me to get in the ice. I felt myself getting kind of scared as I really had forgotten how to skate.

Suga said "Let's practice a while and then you can let go."

I nodded my head and started to skate slowly without letting go of the rail. Suga skated by me and it made me a little uncomfortable.

"You can go ahead and skate on your own until I get this under control." I said trying to get him to leave.

Suga said "Ok."

He skated away and I looked ahead of me. There were a few little kids clinging onto the rail and they were not making progress. I had to go around them but I was so scared.

"Come on! You've done this before!" I shouted to myself in my head.

I let go and slowly made my way around the little children. Honestly, I felt like them but in a bigger body. I was half way around them when some little kid bumped into me making me turn a 180 degree turn. I gasped and some other person bumped into me making me lose my balance.

"Mai! Watch out!" I heard a shout but I was to scared to open my eyes. I felt myself falling towards the ground and I knew my body would hurt after the crash.

I squeezed my eyes more as I finally fell. I opened them up slowly as it didn't hurt that much like I remembered when I was a kid.

I gasped and I was on Suga. I tried to get up but I didn't have the hang of it yet. Suga chuckled and I blushed.

"Are you ok?" I asked him very embarrassed.

Suga said "I'm fine. What about you?"

I said "I think I'm fine but I'm more worried for you." My gaze went to his lips and then my surroundings.

I got off of him and I let him stand up first. He held out his hand for me to grab but I didn't hold it.

"I'm doing this on my own." I said using my knees to get up from the ice.

I stood up but I was pretty far from the rail. I had to go across the people skating really fast and felt fear that I would get hit again.

"Don't use that. I'll let you use my hand." Suga said holding up his hand.

I sighed and held his soft warm hand in mine.

Suga smiled at me and said "I'm taking this very slow. Don't worry and just focus on my feet."

I smiled as I squeezed his hand and looked at his feet. He started to pull me and I moved my feet with his movement.

I gasped and said "I'm doing it!"

His smile grew bigger and said "Ok let's speed it up."

He started to go a little faster and I began to remember how to ice skate. I let go of his hand and began to skate on my own.

Suga continued to skate right by my side and said "You can still hold my hand if you want."

I said "Only couples do that."

Suga asked "So, you broke up with me?"

I chuckled and said "I guess I'm single for letting go of your hand."

Suga pouted and I looked at him weird. He noticed and looked away with a soft smile. After, many rounds I could say I got enough practice to probably beat Suga at a race.

Suga said "Let's get something to eat and then we can go home."

I nodded my head but I felt a slight pain below my neck. I smiled a little so I wouldn't get his attention towards my neck pain. We took off our skates and got our shoes back. Reaching my feet to put on the shoes was a hell to me.

He spotted it as he shouted "Ramen!"

I said "Anything, cause I'm starving!"

Suga chuckled and we went to go eat. Sitting in that chair made me think maybe I was so tired because I fell over Suga.

"What's wrong?" Suga asked.

"Nothing." I responded with a lying smile.

We ate and headed back to his car. My feet were killing me and you know the rest of my body was too. I wasn't sleepy but my body was in so much pain now that I was sitting in the passenger seat.

Suga said "If you don't mind. I'm stopping at my place first because I forgot to bring my medicine. I don't want to waste any more time as I'm a bit over past due."

"Suga! You need to be careful. I don't want you to get sick out here." I said really upset.

He nodded his head and said "Time flew. I didn't think it would get so dark outside that fast."

I chuckled as he was completely right. Our entire day was spent ice skating and I wasn't going to complain. I had the best time with him and I hadn't in such a long time. I went up with him to his apartment as I didn't want him to die on the way there. I took a seat on the sofa and Suga went to go get his medicine. I waited for him and didn't even know what to hold. I felt way to much pain in my body that I didn't even want to go home anymore.

Suga came out smiling and said "Alright, I'll just drop you off at your place now."

I looked at him awkwardly and looked away.

"What's wrong?" He asked coming around me to sit on the table infront of the sofa.

I asked "Are you waiting on a girl?"

Suga said "Mai, how many times do I have to tell you there is no girl because I'm single. If someone comes and knocks it's because someone needs my doctor help."

I sighed and sadly said "I don't want to go home."

Suga held my hands and asked "Did Jimin do something to you?!"

I said "No, I'm just so tired. I don't want to walk all the way over there."

Suga said "I would carry you all the way back but just remembering your floor makes me tired."

I flicked his hand and said "Hey!"

Suga laughed and said "You can stay here with me. I don't mind."

I said getting up, "I'm going to take a bath and sleep in the tub, goodnight."

Suga pulled my hand back and said "Let me massage you. The pain will go away, I promise."

I said "Go put the sand on and then I'll take a bath."

Suga nodded his head sideways and let go off my hand.

I crossed my arms and ordered him "Stop acting like a kid and go do it."

Suga said "I'm not acting like a kid, you are."

I gasped and said "No I'm not!"

Suga said "Let me massage you."

I said "Obviously, this consists me getting all naked infront of you and then you touching me."

Suga said "Oil can't go on clothes and doesn't work the way it should."

I asked him "How would you like it if a girl came constantly to touch you for different reasons?"

Suga shrugged and said "If it's for my best then-"

"Goodnight." I said heading towards the door.

Suga laughed and asked "Are you seriously leaving because you didn't like my response?"

I turned around and said "You're nasty."

Suga came to me and said "You're suppose to like it when someone touches you especially if it's for your own good or your lover."

I rolled my eyes and said "I don't care what you say or think. I'm going home."

Suga held my hand and said "Don't, what if I feel sick?"

I asked "Are you trying to convince me or are you manipulating me?"

Suga bit his lip and offered "What if I let you rub the sand on me?"

I pulled my hand away from his and asked "What makes you think I like touching your body?"

Suga raised his eyebrows and asked "Are you trying to say that no one would want me?"

I felt embarrassed and said "What?! No, that's not what I meant to say."

Suga said looking away sad "Yes you're trying to say that."

I felt bad now and said "No, I think any girl would want you because you have a perfect body. Your personality is amazing too trust me."

Suga said "It's hard to believe you when you lie to me all the time. Yet, the heart says what it truly feels. It's ok not everyone thinks the same as the other. I know in your eyes I'm not good enough."

I held his hand and said "Suga, don't even say that. You know I like you and care for you."

Suga put his finger on my lip and said "Don't speak anymore."

I looked at him surprised as he did that unexpectedly and started to walk away.

I closed my eyes and said in my head "I'm suppose to make him feel better not horrible."

I went after him and saw him making the sand for himself.

"I'll help you." I said.

Suga said "No, I got it."

"Look I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say any of that." I said trying to make things better as I was with him in his apartment.

Suga asked "Why do I have to let you care for me but I can't care for you?"

I went to go sit on his bed and said "You will be disgusted with my body when you see it and feel it."

Suga put the bowl of sand by his lamp and came to squat infront of my knees.

"I've seen you and touched you. You're very beautiful to me and I won't say nothing to you to hurt your feelings. I'm a doctor and I don't judge any of my patients." He said comforting me.

I said "We all react in our heads. I don't want you to be thinking about me in a rude way in your head and then you speak to me like this."

Suga asked "You think a rapist cares if you got scars or if you shaved? No, they don't care because they want you either way. I'm not saying that I'm a rapist but I'm saying that if I want it then I want it all. If I love a girl I love everything about her in and out. Don't let your thoughts get in the way of you having relationships or feelings for someone. One day you'll grow old and alone. I don't know if you want that but I don't."

I asked "So, you don't want my help?"

Suga chuckled and stood up again. He took off his shirt infront of me and I couldn't help but stare.

"I'm massaging you first then you can put the sand on me." He said as he changed into a different shirt.

I felt my heart skip a beat as I heard him and I said "You know I thought about getting a massage but from my husband not from some doctor."

Suga said "Doctors give so much massage therapies and people love it."

I said "Yeah people that love to get touched."

Suga walked out and I rushed after him.

"I don't think I can do this." I said freaking out.

Suga said "I will tie you up if I have too."

"WHAT?" I kind of shouted.

Suga said "This will help with your fears and insecurities too."

"No don't tie me up." I begged him.

Suga said "Then stay or I will."

I sat down on the sofa and wiggled my knees as I felt scared. Suga started to unfold a massage bed and that looked very squishy. He had his back towards me and I thought about running away.

Suga said "Stop."

My eyes widen as I looked at the back of his head and asked "What?"

Suga said "Don't run or you'll be in serious pain."

I looked out his window and asked "Could you close this?"

Suga chucked and said "Yeah I will don't worry."

I asked "What if someone knocks and then sees me? Oh my!"

Suga said "Mai, breathe please."

I started to blow air with my hands towards my face as I took deep breaths.

Suga said "Ok come over here and undress."

Suga walked to the large window and closed the blind folds.

I asked "I just take off my shirt and pants off, right?"

Suga said "Completely naked would be better but go ahead."

I said "I don't know what hurts more the massage or me getting half naked."

Suga asked with a smile "Mai, I've seen you before why do you treat this like it's your first every single time?"

I laughed and said "I just can't get used to you."

Suga said "We're going to have to do this more often then."

"NO!" I shouted.

Suga said "If I was your boyfriend or husband would you be like this too?"

I thought for a couple of seconds before saying "I don't know."

Suga asked "None of your boyfriends have disrespected you?"

I said "I dare them to be! They would make it to hell before they even reached me."

Suga looked at me kind of scared and softly asked "Could you take your clothes off or do you want me to do it for you?"

I nodded my head sideways and said "Guys help before having sex but not after. Isn't that funny?"

Suga looked away and waited for me to undress.

"I don't want to do this." I said nervously.

Suga said "I'm very worried about your honey moon night."

I took off my shirt and smacked the back of his head.

"Stop imagining that day!" I said blushing.

Suga said "For sure you'll marry a guy that has a lot of patience."

I said "I hope he's a doctor."

Suga quickly looked back to see me shocked and asked "Are you serious?"

I laid down on the bed and said "Yes."

"Why? What changed?" He asked very interested.

I felt so uncomfortable but yet he looked really cute as he looked more interested in my words than my body.

"If I'm in love with my doctor then I wouldn't have to ever worry about some other nasty doctor trying to touch me. He would care for me and love me. I wouldn't have to worry what he thinks about me cause I would know he loves me." I said with a big smile.

Suga said "Wow I never thought you would get married to a doctor."

I said "To bad I'm poor and no doctor likes a poor girl."

Suga said "I would like you."

He went to go get some oil for body massages and I said "Cause we're friends."

Suga said "First, time I saw you I tried to be your friend but you didn't want to be."

I nodded my head and he poured some oil on my stomach.

"That feels very weird." I said looking at my stomach.

Suga started to rub my stomach with his big hands and I held his hands.

"I don't think I can do this." I said getting afraid.

Suga said "Yes you can. You've made progress by getting on the bed. Now, close your eyes-"

I said "If I moan it's not because of you."

Suga smiled and asked "Is that what you're worried about? I would moan too if you touched me like this."

I tried to get up but I started to feel more pain. I laid back and Suga asked "What's wrong?"

I said "I'm feeling more pain."

Suga sighed and said "Let me do this then."

I let go of his hands and he said "Why don't you imagine I'm your husband and that you love it? Maybe, you'll relax a little more."

I looked at him and said "That sounds worse than a surprise test."

Suga chuckled and started to rub his hands on my tummy in a circle form.

"Put your hands by your sides and relax. Don't move or think." He ordered me.

"That's really hard. Be happy, I'm here in the first place." I said.

Suga chuckled and said "I hope you get a bed soon or this pain won't ever go away."

I pouted and said "I will get a air bed soon."

Suga all of sudden looked kind of sad and it made me ask "What happened?"

Suga made eye contact with me and said "Nothing."

"Liar." I immediately answered.

He didn't say anything back and I felt embarrassed again. He walked around and stood behind my head.

"I'm going to massage your shoulders and chest." He informed me as he started to massage my shoulders and I wanted to laugh.

"What's so funny?" He asked wanting to smile.

I said "I'm ticklish."

He started to massage my arms and then my hands and fingers.

"Have your muscles relaxed." He said as he looked in my hand.

I wanted too but my body would tense up when I thinked. I tried really hard to not think and relax my bones. He went down to my legs and I lifted up my arms. I looked how oily I felt and winced in pain.

Suga said "I'm not done. This is a long process."

I put my arms down and he started to massage my feet. I giggled and gasped.

"Do you really have too?!" I said as I continued to laugh. I held my stomach of the laughter.

Suga said with a smile "Yes everything I do is very necessary."

I covered my mouth as I wanted to contain my laughter inside but he just made me giggle more.

Suga said "You look like your going to die of laughter."

Tears started to form in my eyes as I couldn't hold them in anymore. I wiped my tears off my cheeks and he stopped. I tried to breathe a little slower as I held my stomach. He started to rub my knees and then slowly started to go up. He would stop right where my groin was located. I could still feel him touch me right when he got to the very top. I put my hand over my area as I tried to stop him of touching me in between my legs.

"Spread your legs and put your hands to the side." He ordered.

I looked at him and didn't do it. He glanced up at me and gave me the stare. I sighed and put my hands on my side slowly. I spread my legs a little and he put more oil on them. Then put some on my area and I felt like I peed on myself. I closed my legs really fast as I got scared crushing his fingers in between my thighs.

"It's the oil don't worry." He said in pain.

I chuckled and said "Sorry, I just never felt that before."

Suga blushed and I noticed it. I liked that he blushed as I didn't want to be alone in this situation.

I started to get in my thoughts as I asked "Why did you-"

Suga hushed me and said "Don't think."

I frowned as I wanted to think and understand. I spread my legs apart a little and he began to massage my thighs and then went in between. He started to make his way up and I lifted up my hand to cover myself. Suga pulled my hand away and I pouted.

"Alright bend your legs and spread them apart more." He ordered.

I looked at him crazy and he said "I'm going to massage right on the sides of your area. That's it."

"That's alot of touching." I said.

I bent my legs and he came to sit on the bed.

"What are you doing?" I asked as my heart rate accelerated a little.

Suga said "Massaging you cause you didn't sleep here."

I said "Ha-ha very funny."

He spread my legs and pulled me towards him. I wanted to hold back but I knew he wouldn't let me. He started to rub on the sides of my area then he went more inside. His thumbs some how slipped right underneath my underwear making me feel them rub against the sides of my vagina lips. I squeezed my lips as I didn't want any noise to slip out but I couldn't resist my back arching a little. I put my hand on my stomach as I started to feel wet and didn't want nothing to come out. He did it over and over again.

Suga got off the bed and said "Ok you can turn around so I can massage your back."

I closed my legs and said "I have marks on-"

Suga said "Mai, I told you I don't care."

I sat up and said "Your so mean."

Suga smiled at me and said "Come on."

I turned around and laid on my stomach. He quickly unhooked my bra and started to massage my back before I could even yell at him.

Suga said "Relax and don't yell."

I rolled my eyes and he fixed my arms by my side as he massaged me carefully. He kept doing it so slowly and softly with his hands that I started to feel more relaxed. I smiled as I loved the feeling of his hands on my back. After, awhile he went to the back of my legs and started to massage them.

Suga said "There's a cream that can reduce the appearance of these marks if you want it I can prescribe it for you."

I said "Stop looking at my butt."

Suga chuckled and said "These stretch marks are different from the ones on the side of your butt."

I said "The ones under my butt are veins that ripped apart and can no longer be attached. The ones on my butt are the ones where your skin stretches apart in a very quick speed. I already know there's no cure."

Suga said "Just apply that cream and they won't be so noticeable. Everyday before going to work and sleeping. They'll be there but won't be so bad like you think."

I didn't say anything as he was trying to convince me that it wasn't so bad. Men always looked at my curvy body but I never let them see my marks.

"I have to take your underwear off." He said after awhile.

"I knew you would say that." I said upset.

Suga said "It will rub against your skin and I don't want to irritate your groin area at all. The area is still sensitive even though you don't have anything anymore."

I sighed really loud and said "I hate you."

Suga chuckled and said "I love you too."

My heart skipped a beat and I smiled to his beautiful words.

"May I?" He asked.

I said "Do I have another choice?"

Suga said "No, I'm sorry."

He slipped my underwear off and I felt myself getting red from my face.

Suga said "I need you to spread your legs."

"I don't want too Min Yoongi." I said really stubbornly.

Suga said "I'll wait but don't complain about the pain later."

I sighed and I spread my legs apart a little.

"More." He ordered.

"MORE?!" I shouted.

Suga chuckled and said "Yes I have big hands not tiny like your baby hands."

I said "Hey! Don't even make fun of them."

Suga said "Don't worry they're still very cute."

I covered my face with my hand as I blushed and he pulled it away.

"Hands on your side, remember?" He said.

He got more oil and he said "Spread."

I spread them a little more and he started to rub his hands over my back legs and then he went in my inner thighs. Then he put oil over my butt and started to massage my butt cheeks. He squeezed the bottle of oil and some slide down the middle of my vagina. Before, I could even stop him he already had slipped his hand over the area the oil went down. I felt his hand rub over it and came right back up like he didn't just touch me.

"Lift yourself up so I can adjust this pillow under you." He ordered as he got a thin pillow.

"Why?" I asked.

Suga said "So, I can massage you better."

"You're going to touch me, huh?" I asked lifting my butt up. Then he slipped it right below my womb.

"Take your bra off." He answered with a different response.

"Don't look at me." I said taking it off.

I laid down again and felt uncomfortable as my butt was sticking up in the air a little. He began to massage my neck slowly and then my shoulders. The back of my arms and then my wasit. He moved to my feet again and giggles came out of my mouth again. After, awhile he started to make his way up and then started to rub my butt cheeks. I gulped a little louder as I felt anxious to his touch against me. I felt oil slip down right in the middle of me and I just waited for his hand to make a move. I closed my eyes as I finally felt his touch rub against my area up and down multiple times slowly. I could feel his hand curve like if he was hugging it and then come right back up. The oil that he added made the scene more easier for his fingers to access accidentally. Not being able to say anything as it wasn't his fault but the oil. I held my breath in so he wouldn't hear me make a slight noise.

Suga softly said "Turn around."

I could feel my heart thump against my chest a little faster. I turned around and covered my boobs with my hands. He removed the small thin pillow away and came with more oil.

"Move your hands." He said looking down over my face.

"Why?" I said with a pout.

Suga said "Your chest area will hurt tomorrow."

I said "It's just my back."

Suga said "The spinal cord is connected to every bone in your body. If that gets hurt in any way then the whole body is affected."

I sighed and asked "How do you always have an answer?"

Suga said "I'm you're doctor and always have to have answers for you. Now, move your hands so I can massage you correctly. Unless, if you want to suffer tomorrow and the rest of the days that come after that."

I said very frustrated"Wow! Ok I get it!"

Suga smiled and I removed my hands slowly.

"Lay your arms back like over your head. Not beside you this time." He said as he showed me.

I slowly did and saw how he never took his eyes off of how I was doing it. He made sure it was perfect and I felt myself getting red again.

He applied oil over my boobs and started to massage around my boobs. Then around my nipples and I couldn't control them pumping up. I wanted to hide my face as I brought down my elbows a little down but Suga caught me. He pushed my arms back again and continued. Then he started to squeeze my nipples in between his fingers and I crossed my legs.

Suga looked towards my legs and whispered "Keep them spread apart."

I tried to sound very normal as possible as I said "Aren't you done with my legs?"

Suga said "Just spread them."

I spread them a little as he continued to rub my nipples and I asked "F-for what?"

Suga rubbed my nipples with his left hand and his right hand rubbed down against my area.

I gasped and bent my legs. I grabbed his hand that rubbed up and down my area. I tightened my thighs and crushed his hand.

Suga took out his hand and said "I don't know how I'll type tomorrow if you continue to squish the soul out of it everytime."

I looked at him as I laughed at his sarcastic joke.

"Sit up and face your back towards me." He ordered me.

I sat up and felt something come down. I looked down but didn't see anything. I had my feet hanging and my back towards him as he speaked again.

"Now, you'll bend your elbows back like if you're going to scratch your back." He said as he put his chin over my shoulder.

I put my elbows back and I could feel the back of his hair run through my fingers. He started to rub the sides of my body and then my tummy. Without my permission he spreaded my thighs apart really wide and I gasped. He started to rub the surface of them up and down.

I let down my arms a little and he said "Keep them up."

I turned to look at him a little but all I could focus on was his lips. I pushed them back up feeling his hair again in my hands. He made his way back up to my boobs and started to massage them in circle form. I bit my lip as I could feel like I wanted him in me. He started to squeeze my nipples in between his fingers everytime he came up and down. He kept rubbing against them and pulling on them. His hand then slipped down over my vagina and I couldn't help it at that moment. I gasped as I arched my back and now I could feel his lips against the side of my neck.

I immediately put down my hands over his and he whispered "Not yet. We're almost done. Put them back up."

I could feel his lips on my neck rubbing and his hand over my area. I didn't know what was killing me more but I put my arms back.

He continued to rub one of my nipples and his other hand rub against my area. His fingers slipped in and I let out a moan I felt like I had held it in for years. I felt my body getting really hot and I knew I was wanting him more than ever. His fingers slipped out and I waited for them to go back in but they didn't.

I put my arms down and Suga said from behind "See how that wasn't so bad? You'll be feeling better than ever after you shower."

I didn't even look at him as I closed my legs and covered myself.

Suga said "Are you ok?"

I said "Yeah I just can't used to your touch. It really affects my body and mind."

Suga said "You're not used to hands roaming around your body but it's ok."

I said "What do I wear now?"

Suga said "You can wear your clothes again or you can stay naked."

Suga walked back to his roam and I quickly put on my underwear and bra. You could still see through them because of so much oil that was on my body. Suga tried not to gaze at my body but I quickly turned away.

He gave me the bowl with the sand and I said "Lay on the bed."

Suga said "No, I'll just stand here."

I said "Well, I'm short and can't reach."

Suga sighed and got on the bed. I sat over him and he took his gaze down to my bra.

"What are you looking at? Was the massage not enough or what?" I asked.

Suga said "You have so much oil that you look a like a shiny diamond."

I got down and he said "No don't leave."

I said "I'm not but those shorts have to go. That button really hurts when I sit over you."

Suga asked "Are you ok? Do you want me to check you?"

"NO! You just touched me!" I shouted as I couldn't believe him.

Suga said "I touched you but didn't look in you."

I started to unbuttoned his shorts and then he took them off. I sat over his groin and started to apply sand over his chest. I could feel some of the oil from my underwear staining his boxers as I hovered over him. As I rubbed his chest with my hands my area rubbed against his. My area was already sensitive and rubbing over him made me a little more. It felt like he was just getting started but I could see him closing his eyes to get a little more control of himself.

I teasingly asked "Are you ok?"

Suga asked "No."

I raised my eyebrows and asked "Why?"

Suga asked biting his lip "Do you really want to know why?"

I rubbed his nipples and I could see his eyes going back. I did it just like he was doing to me but sadly I wanted him. I felt like I was torturing myself and not him.

Suga sat up a little and asked "Ok that's enough."

I said "You sound tired."

Suga said "I will be if you keep touching me like that."

I pouted and asked "I'm not doing good?"

Suga gushed and said "You're doing to good that I think I won't be able to control myself anymore."

I gazed at his beautiful eyes and asked "What do you mean?"

Suga sat up more closer to my chest and I felt myself get nervous. I pushed myself back but Suga opened his legs. I gasped as I thought I would fall back but he wrapped his arms around my wasit. I put my legs around him as I thought I would break them.

I put my hands on his shoulders and said "I want to ask you but I know you won't break my heart."

Suga gave me a soft smile and said "Ask me and I'll be honest."

I looked down and could feel him hard against my area.

I looked right back at him and asked "Did you like my body?"

Suga blushed and looked away. "If I answer I don't want you to think that I want to hurt you."

I looked at his lips as I waited for his answer.

Suga said "With all respect friend. I think your body is amazing but your personality is a little crazy."

I gasped and smacked his thick arm. Suga chuckled and brought me into a hug.

Suga sighed and said "I think you'll be amazing on your honey moon night."

I hugged Suga tighter and smiled so big. I wanted to cry as he was so sweet to me and I didn't want to stop hugging him.

I let go and cupped his face. "Thank you." I said softly.

Suga looked down at my lips and I looked at his. I didn't want to ruin our friendship so I got off of him.

"I'm taking a bath and I'm going to take awhile." I informed him as I left to the restroom.